
Life is really a mystery- a delightful surprise. Yes, indeed, it's a pain in the ass sometimes, and especially when many things don't go according to how you want them to be, but being alive is already a blessing from heaven. Ah- too many questions about life. I've been basically thinking about such questions when I was 4 years old. LOL. Serious. The first ever question I had when I was four, was "Why am I in this body?" "Why am I seeing through this pair of eyes?" "Why is this world here?" LOL. It is so complex if you really think about it. In the end, I'd just say, "Since it is already like this, just leave it like it is." But sometimes, I just can't resist the temptation to think a little deeper beneath the surface.
I just watched the tennis play off between Federer and Gonzalez. I was like, "YOU! FEDERER! GET YOUR SHOTS RIGHT!" There were so many chances for him to easily defeat Gonzalez, but he missed, made double faults (he always does) and his shots were not that accurate, nor were they fast. I was so, so, so disappointed. Now it's play off between Nalbandian and Nadal. The prior one crushed Nadal in their previous meeting, but that was two years back. Right now, their score is still in the first set, and Nalbandian leading 4-3. But well, Nadal will catch up fast enough. He always slips up at the beginning, but takes total control at the end. Damn, he's good. I'm seeing the proper standard of the world number one, but what world number two?? I was really let down.
Hope to see how their showdown will continue.

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"I sat by his side, only gazing at his face silently.
I looked at his face, but avoided his eyes when he turned to look.
I had fantasies of me and him, but disregarded those thoughts in school.
He acted ever so normal, and I did, ever so normal, only twisted in the heart.
Sometimes he ignores me, sometimes he prioritizes my existence in his world.
I want to stop all these- my mind calls for an end, but my heart screams a protest.
My love just lingers on- they must be unnoticed, oh they have to be.
When are all the pain ever going to stop? When are they going to fade?
I know, in the distant future, the two of us are bound to be strangers, outsiders to each another's worlds.
I clutch my chest, only hoping not.
For right now, right now, I treasure you more than anyone else.
I thank god, I thank you, for appearing by my side.
Though the feelings turn out to be unrequited, though everything might all end- right now, you just have to know,
How I truly feel about you."
It's not exactly a poem, is it? Okay, I wrote it, but it was for a friend! I made it up in just a matter of seconds.. While I was trying to type it out. She just so happened to tell me her love life, and I just typed this out out of sympathy. She told me, she liked this guy in her class. The guy, she thinks, likes her back, but somehow, things doesn't work. Sometimes he say he likes her, sometimes he say he doesn't. She says he's a shy, shy guy, never really going to say how he truly felt.
I asked her, "Will you tell the guy how you truly felt?"
"I... I... don't know! I mean... I could... But it's... a little embarrassing."
"That might be how he's really feeling too. Maybe he's scared. Just scared of something. Maybe he thinks it's embarrassing. But then, if you really liked someone, just say it. It's a fact, isn't it? No matter how hard you try to deny, if your heart is with that person, then it's just a fact! You are in love with him! What's the use of hiding- there's no use. If you find it embarrassing to say it aloud, write it down. Use another form to express it. Love can be expressed in many ways! If you were ever rejected, then it's even better. You can still, finally move on to find happiness that will come to you eventually." I told her.
And I got slapped on the back, "Someone here is definitely so much more mature than I am. But wait- who was your crush again? Did you confess like how you advised me to?" she gave a playful wink.
"I have a crush?" I asked her.
And seriously, her face darkened as she threatened to end my life- "HOW CAN YOU DON'T KNOW?! And how would I know if you have a crush and who would be your crush if you don't know!!"
Hahaha. That was funny xDD So in order to escape that question, I started singing. =.= The song I sang matched my voice very well, and it came out really nice. I was happy for my achievement. =DD
(And oh yeah, for the sake of my readers, I had gladly make this post... not as complicated. I've edited it for several times now, removing all those words and phrases that are bound to make your jaw drop.)
In any case, I'm signing off! =D Thanks a lot for reading thus far!
D3stinyx; PEIYUN