Tomorrow's Paradise

Utakata Hanabi

2011-04-04T04:16:00.000-07:00

あふれる人でにぎわう8月末のお祭り
浴衣を着て下駄も履いて
からん　ころん　音をたてる
ふいにあがった花火を二人で見上げた時
夢中で見てる君の顔をそっと盗み見たの

君の事嫌いになれたらいいのに
今日みたいな日にはきっと
また思い出してしまうよ

こんな気持ち知らなきゃよかった
もう二度と会えることもないのに
会いたい　会いたいんだ
今でも想う　君がいたあの夏の日を

少し疲れて二人　道端に腰掛けたら
遠く聞こえるお囃子の音
ひゅるりら　鳴り響く
夜空に咲いた大きな大きな錦冠
もう少しで夏が終わる
ふっと切なくなる

逆さまのハートが打ちあがってた
あははって笑いあって
好きだよって
キスをした

もう忘れよう　君のこと全部
こんなにも悲しくて
どうして出会ってしまったんだろう
目を閉じれば
今も君がそこにいるようで

甘い吐息
微熱を帯びる私は君に恋した
その声に　その瞳に
気づけば時は過ぎ去ってくのに
まだ君の面影を探して

一人きりで見上げる花火に
心がちくりとした
もうすぐ次の季節が
やって来るよ
君と見てたうたかた花火
今でも想う　あの夏の日を

The reason why I posted this song's lyrics? Sadly, for people who were expecting a sane explanation behind my actions- well, there's none. I just saw this song as a beauty. I've admired Supercell for quite some time, after their song actually got me crying- Kimi Shiranai no Monogatari (or something like that; my memory is beginning to fail me these days). Kimi Shiranai no Monogatari, or easily translated into "The Story That You Didn't Know", was touching in its own unique way. I kept thinking about it over and over in my head, how it rings such heartache and melancholy.

The story that you would never know. The story of my love.

My blood cries out- I want to type a story off this. If O levels has not bound me down, I would have jumped straight at fabricating an angsty story out of the bits that I'm left with. Recently, I found O levels just a thorn in the flesh. I guess this is what you call life?

Nothing much happened in these few weeks that I've been inactive from my blog. Or rather, I do not like to recall. Once it's over, it's over. I've just been trying to study and what-have-you, doing homework, attending CCA sessions, getting terribly screwed up during physical training, and last but not least, indulging myself in my hobbies. My hobbies take up half of my time, while the other, of course, I reluctantly offer to education.

What have I been doing then? Nothing out of the ordinary- I've been reading extensively, training my La Tale character (to which it's still stuck at a pathetic Level 51), listening to songs, and recently I've added a new hobby to the list- WRITING SONG LYRICS. I've started off writing Chinese song lyrics, most likely to inspire myself to do better in Chinese. I've been listening to Chinese songs with beautiful, touching lyrics that delivers an impact that no English song can, and I was so captivated- I just had to give it a try.

My first few works are not to be spoken of.

But my latest work is titled "夜" which I found deeply mesmerizing. If time ever allows the chance- I'd publish my work here.

I shall end my short blog post here. I never planned on typing this anyway- just felt like it.

Till then.

Stay In My Heart

2011-02-14T01:49:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's Day!

It has been an aeon (close to) since I last TOUCHED my laptop. True enough, I had sent it for repair a week ago and I have just received it back. To my chagrin though, my motherboard had been replaced. I knew this was coming, that my motherboard was getting swapped for another one, but the feeling of having to look at this empty, hollow computer that used to be mine- to be devoid of any files and programs... is lonely.

So, why am I posting today?

There is no particular reason in question- I just felt like posting. Nothing wrong with going with your heart, is there? Probably I should just dabble myself in the mundane activities that any average teen would, log onto the net and start typing a blog post and start swearing away at teachers, adversaries and what-have-you. I would love to do that too, just that well, I rarely breed animosity within me. This leads to a lack of writing content and normally I end up rambling about something that does not seem to concern about my life a lot.

Maybe today I'd just do a slight change and depict what happened to me today.

Honestly, nothing happened to me today. I woke up, and felt like crap. Indeed, my throat was akin to a dessicated fruit, its moisture getting sucked up by some unknown THING, and it's abandoned there to swell and expand in size. I climbed out of bed and my mother was staring at me curiously, almost questioning my health. I questioned my health, but wait- I did feel all right on general.

Apparently, I looked like some kind of ghostly apparition in her eyes. She was telling me to take another medical leave, but I told her I had common tests today, and getting another medical leave would just be troublesome. Seriously, it would. The teachers would all be eyeing me keenly, just waiting for me to hand out that medical certificate (more like a piece of cheap paper) that would have cost me about 30 friggin' bucks just to attain it. So I need to spend 30 friggin' bucks just to prove my reliability and truthfulness. And either way, I had SYF rehearsal. It was better to get my butt down there to just check out the whole place out and probably get myself in tune with what was going to occur on the actual competition date.

When I reached school, it was a little late as usual, given the hectic stream of traffic in the mornings. Apparently the 'Valentine' mood WAS around in the class. I felt a little guilty for forgetting to bring chocolates with me. I am one who will give without expecting anything in return, that's why. However, it isn't because I am too selfish or anything, I have truly forgotten to bring the chocolates along with me. True, the easiest excuse, but do you really want to blame your brain for having forgotten it when it has to computes millions of things per day? Honestly, stop putting so much pressure on your brain. I mean just think about it, seriously.

So I just sat around for a little bit, trying to write a story but obviously my pen tip could not even reach the paper. I was suffering from a serious case of writer's block. I wouldn't blame myself since that story has been written about two years ago, terminated and now I'm trying to pick up from where I had stopped two years ago. It is not quite the easy feat, since I normally terminate stories at points whereby I do not feel inclined to write any further. But wait- it has my favourite story background. From Fullmetal Alchemist. I cannot resist not writing about the comely blonde-haired alchemist, his brother in an armor, the... (how do I describe her in the best way possible?) The nice but well-I-still-hate-her Winry Rockbell, or AKA their mechanic friend. And my main girl is just so awesome that I cannot not write about her.

Thus, while I dilly-dallied, time around me slipped past me and when I looked up, I was shocked to see Ms Wu standing in front of the classroom. Not exactly who I was expecting to see, seriously. While I was wondering what to do, we had to stand and sing the National Anthem. Honestly, I wanted to sing but my sore throat prevented me from doing so. Thus, the classroom settled into a chilling silence.

Afterwards, we were told to daydream while waiting for the clock hand to reach the perfect number. I was staring in front at the whiteboard, spacing out honestly, and Kai Wei began telling me how he would fail if the first question did not have a part (a), since he had written it down on his blank sheet of paper. I just kept staring on, just waiting for time to pass by. Eventually she handed down the question paper, and when she told us to check for missing pages, I eagerly checked the questions and the questions testing on vocabulary. They all seemed manageable, but hey, you never know. Besides, I haven't exactly executed my revenge plan. I have fallen sick, remember? And sick people have sick brains that do not function as properly, or at least this is to my logic. (When you are sick God normally bless you a bit more luck than you normally have, no?)

However, it turned out that there were some people who had missing pages. Thus we waited for a pretty long time just for SOMEONE to reach the people responsible. Apparently Ms Wu could not contact them, thus we just sat there and waited. Me? I sat there with lifeless eyeballs fixed on the whiteboard. Zombie-fied. Hell yeah.

When finally SOMEONE came to give us some extra sheets of question papers, I heard Kai Wei commenting, "Beautiful woman", and thus I looked outside and realized for myself his extent of sarcasm. Hmm.

The paper was manageable. The questions... were less challenging than the practice questions that Mdm Choo had given us. Thus, I was cursing myself for my ill-rotten health. If I was in 100%, honestly, the paper would have been a piece of cake. I mean, seriously. When I was sitting for the best I had a throbbing headache. And every time I coughed the aching worsened. Worse still, I had difficulty writing down words. How marvellous, I am really getting all the luck in the world.

Now, I have to console my bleeding self that the common test is just a checkpoint, and that the major battleground is the 'o' levels. However I can't help but wonder, given my wonderful luck, wouldn't I end up in a similar state as I am right now? Thus, somehow, I know, I have to start building up myself that even if I fall ill, I have enough determination and kick that I would still 'mug' and perform exceptionally.

Afterwards, I excused myself from the classroom and headed down to LT2 to join the rest of the Chinese Orchestra crew for one hour of ~~torture~~ I mean, E-maths paper. When I went down I was thinking to myself, all the people here are smart people, so what is the logical thing they would say after finishing the paper? "It was very easy!" Thus I braced myself mentally for such devastating comments that would injure my fragile mentality. Yes, indeed, I am SO inclined in my Mathematics with their GIBBERISH language and PROFOUND questions that do not make any sense!

As expected I was writing at snail's pace and my headache seemed to be screaming away inside my eardrums. Thus, well, I do not carry high hopes with me for attaining high scores and probably OWNING Ms Wu, as Kai Wei calls it. Probably enough to show her I do know something out of her lesson, just not EVERYTHING. She was telling me to go find her, since she did not want to end up in a messy situation whereby I didn't know anything, so I just had to show her I DID know something- and everything should be fine. I hope.

Afterwards, we reported straight to the CO room and began the arduous task of transporting our instruments down to the lobby. As expected from the weak, fragile me I failed to carry anything heavy. I felt like falling every time I carried something, but since Jia Min was also complaining about her own body discomforts, I felt much compelled to shut my traps and just carry the items without grumbling. I wasn't one to talk after all.

At the concert hall, I played briefly, occasionally forgetting some parts but still managing to play some notes which seemingly blended in with the majority thanks to my familiarity with the entire song. It was at this moment that I realized that I was supposed to play for both songs, despite their claims that I only could play one. Mr Low was staring at me curiously and when he finally asked, Ting Peng looked like someone squeezed all his life juices out of him. Our instructor came up the stage and was shouting "Didn't I tell you guys? Didn't I tell you guys?" and I was just dumbfounded. Sorry mate, I didn't attend two sessions.

So either way, it means I'm going up for both songs. Even Journey. Well, I'm all right with Journey since I had (sort of) memorized the song.

Then we left, went back to CO room, and I ~~sneaked around my classroom~~attempted to enter my classroom bravely and once I was inside everyone started flooding me with a few more chocolate. Hmm. I took them while lamenting about how I could not even eat them. Thanks to you, sore throat. I am so forever indebted to your kindness that I would live to remember it.

Thereafter, I sat around the classroom, talking to Chiew Xia mostly, ranting about my day and whatever in my raspy voice and distracting her from her school work. As expected from a demoness . Sabotaging others.

Then, I was walking home, and the scorching sun beat down upon me mercilessly. While I walked, I was trying to drink some water. Then, out of nowhere, "BYE PEIYUN!" This voice erupted. My brain that was about to get into slumber mode was awakened subtlely and I looked across the road, to find a single file of three guys who were staring at me. I stared back, before I found out who called. I waved.

The delayed syndrome as Yuxuan calls it- once again demonstrated by my slow nervous relay system.

**

My day ended here. Though there has been something hanging around in my mind for some time now. I felt the impulse to share it with someone, but honestly, who would really understand the 'predicament' that I was in? When I did not get back my laptop, I was still grumbling to my friend that I would roasted on Valentine's if I did not get back my laptop on time, but it turns out it was the same result either way. He never came online and I was just, well, fed with the same consequences.

In Japan, they have a 'tradition' of girls giving guys chocolates on Valentine's Day. In return, the guys will give the girls chocolates on White's Day, which falls on March 14th. This only applies in Japan. And my dear friend, he did something which would attract me the same 5 girls who just does not seem to get over the fact that their chocolates cannot be handed out. Seriously, how does this have to do with me? It's more like they need someone to push the blame on, and HOLA! I am the perfect subject to subject for verbal abuse!

Well, but sadly, it takes more than 5 girls to try and torment and successfully wound me. And I mean it.

Now, with all those said, catch MBLAQ in Stay.

Revenge

2011-01-27T06:08:00.000-08:00

You can't see me. You can't feel me. But, you have to believe in my existence.

I am back for another blog post! This certainly is a surprise- since I rarely am (bothered) enough to actually type out another 'literary essay' as my friends address it. Of course, this is at the sacrifice of my personal studying time, which I have re-scheduled to a later time slot so as to allow myself some 'relaxing' time to get on the ingenius Internet and type a flurry of words so as to spare my brain some unneccessary fuss.

Recently, I've been thinking about what kind of a person I am. And what is my mission in this life. Life, is beautiful thing, like I've always mentioned and insisted. Yet, what on earth is life? What is the purpose for the beings sleeping up in the firmament, watching over us- to give me this precious, fragile little gift? I keep staring through this pair of eyes of mine- and I start to think- why am I in this body? What's the true, genuine reason that I'm able to see, feel, hear, speak and think?

If I were to sum up myself in one word, of course that word would undoubtedly never stray away from this, "insane". I'm not calling myself mentally deranged without any evidence, of course.

Insanity?

Just what on earth do you define 'insanity'? Personally, I define this word as someone who does things out of the ordinary, things that normal, average people do not engage themselves in and they stand out with their peculiar behavior that others deem inappropriate and at times disturbing.

Indeed, I seem to fill in all the gaps- all the requirements to be labelled 'insane'. So should you ring up some random mental hospital and admit me into their care? Probably, but when they take a good look at me from up down, they'd be seizing you into custody instead. True, I look normal and I act normal.

As such, what's up with this 'I'm insane' crazy talk? First and foremost, I don't think there's any one who doesn't know that I have an odd obsession for languages. It seems to me that the only things that my brain can register are words, pronunciations and meanings. It is so speedy in understanding and comprehending words that even I am in awe of its might and prowess at times. (Even though, well, when you are the person possessing the awesome ability...) French is a romantic subject. Japanese is a refined, funky language. Korean is a queer language that strikes out to me just as squares, circles and line, but it holds its own charm, English, with all its complex and beauty, Chinese, with an even more profound aura surrounding it... And all the rest of the languages that I haven't even had time to dabble in.

How many people really look at a word and go, "WOW, this word is just... so beautiful..." Can you feel it? When you see these words such as "Midnight", "Euphoria", "Melancholy", "Masquerade". Do you feel this adrenaline rush through your blood as these words pop up on the screen? 'cuz you know what?

I do.

All these words can send little sparks of static energy curdling through my bloodstream.

Secondly, I have a habit of talking to myself, even if I clearly know no one is listening to me. I just like to mumble and mumble to myself like a demented fool, grinning and laughing out of nowhere as I speak- to myself, and feeling blissful over what I've just said- to myself. Plus, I have rich facial expressions to go along with my mad self-conversations. So, when you see someone with all the above traits, what's the first thing that comes into your mind? Yes, indeed. "This person has got to be crazy." No?

Thirdly, getting engrossed and indulged in my own world. Why, some people really do understand me well and can even read my character. One of my friends mentioned, to my astonishment, this exact statement, "Don't bother about her, she's always trapped inside her little world." I was really shocked, and my mouth nearly hung wide when I heard that, since rarely was there anyone who could do such a startlingly accurate analysis of my personality. True enough, I am trapped inside my fancy, beautiful, imaginary world where unicorns and leprechauns unite, rainbows cascading over azurean blue skies dotted with fluffy, magnolia-colored clouds, grasses a sparkling green, coupled with flowers of a million hues. Yes, it seems like the colorful world of a toddler who still has high hopes about the world that he is so foreign to.

When you look inside a baby's eyes, what do you see?

Do you see a glint? A glimmer? Almost like hope? Like excitement? Don't their eyes just seem to shine- as though they enjoy being alive, just being able to see all the things around them move past in a blur?

The joy of not knowing anything of the acrid pain that lies beneath the intricately embroidered facade.

With all those said- what is my world like? When I retreat inside my little world, it is a confined space, black, complete nothing-ness. I can distinctly see the four different walls, as they restrict me inside the imaginary, made-up space, before it begins to spread out, vanishing into the distance; the boundaries slowly disppearing into oblivion. And then I can see sakura petals, floating off a certain source, before the floor beneath me transforms into a sea of dark water, and I simply fall right through the water, sinking deeper and deeper, bubbles escaping from my lips- in a cry for help, but I've lost hope in it all, because I know nobody's in here with me.

The moon's image reflected at the surface of the sea is a crooked, distorted sickle, tainted red as though bathed in blood.

And I just sink, sink, sink, and sink.

**

Today, Mdm Choo has also kindly returned us our scripts which she deemed 'underachieving and disappointing'. Of course she did not have to spell it out for a dunce like me to fathom that we fared poorly for the free-writing test. When she began announcing the distinctions and what-not, I bet everyone was a little surprised not to hear my name being mentioned as one of the top scorers, even though the other top scorers were mentioned.

Actually, I did not really care since this time I had slipped up and failed to complete my essay. While everyone could be mulling over my failure and wondering if I had, just like Mdm Choo had mentioned, been too arrogant about my own achievements and capabilities in English and had slipped up in this test, performing non-consistently.

This time, I'm just going to bite onto all these words, all these words that I think people have (just another of my delusions), chew them, and then swallow them in full, for my poor stomach to digest them all.

The next time, I promise. I will show the class what I am capable of. Just they wait.

I'm going to get back at them and prove to them who's strongest.

Even though my mark of 19 is considerably good considering that I had failed to EVEN finish the bloody essay- I wasn't going to allow another one of these to happen and make people think they've overtaken me in English. Hell no. I don't mind if it's comprehension or what-have-you, but essay? Sorry, but this is my territory. Strictly my property, no?

I'm contemplating revenge.

And when I'm done with all- I want to see my A One on my 'O' Level certificate.

I'm going to get right back up from where I've fallen.

D3stinyx is never going to go down.

At least not for English.

**

In this few weeks since I've ended my guitar course due to a hectic Secondary Four life, I have been missing my guitar. I have no intentions of actually picking it up just to strum a few songs, because, well, for reasons unclear. Yuxuan, like the bastard he is, had been flooding my sms inbox with senseless comments that make no sense like, "If you stop playing guitar, you'd become even more stupid."

Well, sorry mate, your comment did not even make a single sense.

I know it sounds curt to address him with such insolent mannerisms, but do not fret, he treats me in the exact manner and I've had enough of him and thus, an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth. If this is how he treats me, it'd be how I treat him.

While he acts like a jerk all the time, he always has this soft side to himself that I don't think even he knows. He's just a contradicting person, honestly. On one hand he's like this, but sub-consciously he's someone else. He has kindly been arranging time to come to my house just to teach me how to play guitar, but I told him it's all right, since most of the times it ends with him just sniding at my face, "You can't even play such a simple song?" Thus, to save my knuckle from being bruised from landing a blow on his face- I have refused his kindness.

Pieces To A Puzzle

2011-01-21T06:59:00.001-08:00

Hello, little one, what are you looking for? >///<

FT Island's Lee Jae Jin has successfully retained his adorable-ness even after a decade in the passing. While most of us hold up our baby photos and lament how much we have changed and grown- from the cherubic little angels with youth glowing blissfully upon our faces to the forlorn, much more matured faces that we hold now. Indeed, I have grown too. When I think about how I was before, so ignorant to everything, so indulged in everything that I did, not knowing really what I did... Sometimes, perhaps, to be that kind of person was the ideal.

When I was young, I was very innocent. People all say that I'm innocent even now, however I think this is attributed to my muddle-headed personality; not knowing anything. When I was young, I had more determination. If I said I wanted something, I'd really set down my heart to do it. I was more meticulous about things, and I was much more good-tempered and mature than I actually am right now. Have I transformed into a devil? My guess is: most probably.

Yet, what's the use of crying over spilt milk? I have come to accept the demoness that resides in the depths of my heart- waiting for the chance to charge and overwhelm my body, taking full reign.

All these aside, 2011 had not been exactly... refreshing. When time flies past before your eyes, and another new year dawns... Sometimes, it does not really feel like a year has really passed. 2010 for me passed in a blink of an eye. What did I do in 2010? My memories are vague, almost as though nothing of much significance really occurred.

The first few weeks weren't any different than how they have always been. Yet, this year, I have decided that I have to start accomplishing something. And I have decided to take my first few steps to establishing myself firmly on the net as a good writer. I want to be able to finish many things. The time for me to fly out of cosy warm nest is encroaching- and I have to start preparing for that time. This timid, reliant personality has to be pushed to an inconspicous area and forgotten.

Just in the first week of the new school term, I have lost my girl-magnet. Oh yes, I have allowed it to slip right through my fingers. I have always been with... blessed; do you call this a blessing I'm not sure- but either way I have always been sitting with gals for the majority of my school life.

When Mdm Wan changed my seat, I was actually wondering who I have ended up with, and when I realized it was Kai Wei I was actually a little astonished. Well, if there was a reason behind it, it would be because Kai Wei is all-rounded, while I... sucked terribly in my Maths and Sciences. So, probably, in a sense he's there as motivation and help?

Kai Wei is a fun person to be with, just that he's really the chatterbox everyone claims him to be. I envy his intelligence, something that I know I can never possess- he can talk throughout a lesson without listening to what the teacher is saying and yet still know how to answer all the questions without much difficulty. I bet he studies a lot at home, even though he keeps insisting that he doesn't.

But sometimes I find that the seating arrangement is a mismatch. You see, I don't really feel comfortable talking to guys. It's not that I have some kind of phobia or guy-hatred, it's just my personality, preferring to keep things to myself and probably to my friends. So, actually, me and him, it's like a robot talking to a log. Everytime I answer him it'd be something stashed with incomprehensible language. Well, I'm used to saying things in formal language, that's why at times, I allow myself to be set free and say whatever I want. Generally, I'm quiet.

For Chinese Orchestra- we've been set in full gear for the SYF. Though, most probably, most people can feel the tension. But I can. And I'm sure all the sheng-ers can. We only have one zhongyinsheng left for three freaking people to play, and we do not even have enough time to practise on it. If they return us too late, all of us are screwed. Seriously, SCREWED. Of all the months we spent begging the teachers to send them for repairs, the repair really did come late. I can't believe that Swiss Cottage, a pretty good school, can be so desperate for some money.

My instrument is already struggling for the Chinese New Year performance. I doubt I can really play the song by Chinese New Year, there's 2 freaking songs with beats that I'm foreign to- so fast and so many different fingerings, and the song is actually really long. Mr. Low kept stating that the Chinese New Year songs were so easy- I would like to see him try our instrument. I know my instrument is easy to play, but try to memorize it. You'd have such a terrible time, and plus the beat is VERY fast for both songs. I lack the technique to go up on stage, and Jia Min lacks the confidence to go up on stage. Moreover, Ting Peng doesn't really want to go on stage? He hasn't even practising the CNY songs. Only one of us can go since there's only one instrument. So I'm wondering, what to do?

If this keeps up, we are all screwed for SYF. Seriously. And I have SSP as well. I am already wasting lots of time for Chinese Orchestra practice, and I have a hard time trying to catch up with fast songs!

...

Recently, I've been hearing and seeing things.

Yes, I'm starting to lose my sanity.

Everywhere I go, I can hear his voice. I can see his face.

His image is just like a lingering, persistent ghost that has detached from its original body and left to wander around, bugging me.

Thanks For The Reminder

2010-11-22T00:51:00.000-08:00

Yes, why, am I indebted to this show...

To relive my wrath against puny, weeny, whiny girls.

Recently I've downloaded an anime off the wonderful Internet, and it came with a name, Nurarihyon no Mago, or the Grandson of Nurarihyon, in English. I am not here to bash it, in fact I like the idea behind the story, but the ONLY and SOLE thing that I detest so much about this show is basically the fact that there is one or maybe two EXTREMELY annoying girls in the show that just kept me rolling my eyeballs.

Yes, why, I ALWAYS hate girls like that. They go screaming, NO NO NO NO with BLOODY irritating voices that boils your temperature and then they go blushing at the handsome guys and going all doki-doki, red-faced, and all fidgety and murmuring. And then they care a lot for that guy, always wanting to see him and what-have-you. It is BLOODY irritating and I hate it. Utterly hate it.

Actually, I just have a very important question to ask.

Is this actually an act to carry across the message that girls are always like that?

For one fact, it can very well be true.

For another, it is just overgeneralization.

In the anime, the girl who goes by the name "Hana" or "Flower" in Japanese, IS NOT EXACTLY A FLOWER. She is by far one of the most annoying girls that I've seen in a Shounen anime/manga. She's the kind of friend I'd love to have in real life, sweet and kind and friendly, but her screaming and all is just an overload. I mean, get a life. Probably she's only 13 years old. But she was way too annoying.

Or maybe it's just that I prefer tougher girls? Like Yura, the onmyouji.

I feel that romance stories nowadays are just a bunch of crap messed around with each other. Especially in animes. I was so so so disappointed with Psyren. At Amamiya. And now Hana. Well Hana is just really an eyesore. A real eyesore. Even her voice is. I don't care who the voice-actor is, the character really soiled her. I mean Hana is just... Urgh. I don't know. It apparently made me angry enough to want to post about her.

Generally, the story was good, though cliched.

The opening was by Monkey Magik. For a while I was listening and didn't know it was by him. Pretty cool. Never thought I would hear his voice for some time now.

Either way, the recent slashings also brought me to another fact...

That perhaps teens like me are just getting more immature by the day. Or probably the books are driving us nuts. Screwing us too tight. Or probably that's what I want to think for an excuse to get away from the papers.

The sign for a new revolution, perhaps? As seen in Psyren. That the world is eventually coming to an end. No matter how you look at it, the world practically rests upon humans. And I for one, can tell you, humans will NOT be able to sustain this world. We are the needy ones. Not the Earth. The Earth is practically the giver. They give and give and give and we just take. Because we have to. And because we want to.

When selfishness comes into play, how do we save this Earth?

I do not mind the end of the world. It probably marks the start to a new generation.

I love life.

It would be sad to say goodbye.

Life is such a beautiful, sentimental object. It allows you to feel so many things you have never felt before, truly entertaining things, and it is the key outside a gilded cage.

Though yet again, there's no helping it. Humanity has evolved into a stage where it has become impossible.

While people still go on with their everyday lives, I can sense it.

The end, drawing near. Curdling in my blood.

Or probably that's my curiosity at work, trying to be smart, trying to be different.

No matter what it is, what will I see when I wake up?

Green hands? Purple fingers?

Who knows?

FREED OF FEVER

2010-11-19T21:11:00.000-08:00

Eto ne, I'm finally back on my blog after god-knows-how-long. Recently, the skies haven't exactly been the prettiest and I haven't been as hale and hearty as I should have been. Yes, imagine it- I've been down with fever, diarrhoea, nausea and what sickly disorientations you have, for TWO WHOLE FRIGGIN' weeks. So it would make me seem like a triple offender (the days I've not been going for club is three days) but hell, not like I care. My club isn't going to bring me up to heaven. Without my health- I am.

Today, as I blog this, my own Secondary School is having its annual open house. Honestly speaking, I was looking forward to it. I wanted to perform again. But well, since I missed my very last year of being able to participate in it... I don't really care no more. For one very simple reason- I don't like my school THAT much so well heck, when parents ask me, "What is good about this school?" And my response would most likely be either, "Uhhh... I don't know, hang on. (looks around) Psst! Psst! Can you come over here and answer this highly difficult question?" or, "What's good about this school? Ahahahaha! You want to know my honest opinion? Well, here goes- NOTHING."

Either way, while I was sick, I could not do much. All the things I wanted to do- I couldn't. I could not play my NDS, I could not read my manga, I could not sit down and read a book- because those required too much attention. So I only randomly surfed a few webpages, checked email and all. It was a horrible, dreadful feeling to just sit around, and having that revolting sensation surging through your veins.

However once it reached day 3, which was yesterday, I could do something. So what I did was to go online and read manga. And what did I read? The number one manga on Mangafox- Psyren. I wanted to know what was so good about the manga. What captivated people. And I finished all 142 chapters of it (it was updated till there)in that very day itself.

So what are my opinions about it? If I were to give some scores:

Plot: 6.5/10
Characterization: 9/10
Development of Plot: 7/10

Truthfully, the plot did not fascinate me enough. It was a good read, something that will honestly kill your time. There was nothing really of the 'WOW' factor in there. The background to the story seemed cryptic and it drew me in initially, and I was thinking it was going to be a long, long story, but turns out, it was actually pretty short. Despite the length of 142 chapters, each chapter lasts about 20 pages and are very easy to finish.

[SPOILER]

It's a story set in Japan, in Year 2008, whereby there is a news, about a spate of human disappearances on the rise. One day, in school, Yoshina Ageha's childhood friend, Amamiya Sakurako, disappears right before with his eyes, not forgetting to mention "Save me." Spurred on by her words, Yoshina decides to check out her disappearance, knowing it is somehow linked to the "Psyren" card that both she and him hold. How did they get the card? They seem somehow sick of the society and are seeking for "Paradise". The card came out of a telephone, from a public telephone booth.

He decided to enter the card into a public telephone, and was then asked a questionairre of all sorts of bizarre questions. However, he did not finish the quiz, and instead screamed at the lady who asked her the questions and hung up, thinking that it was all a messed up game and that he wasn't going to rescue Amamiya.

He lingers around, and realizes that this card he holds is highly priced in the society, and that the government and what-have-you, mafia bosses or whatever, are all seeking for this card, due to the special phenomenon it seems to be causing and they are desperate for answers. During a fight with a bunch of bad dudes over the card, his phone rang. Unknowingly, he answered the call to start the ringing sound- and he was summoned to another world.

It was a world of ruins and sand and collapsed buildings. It was a wrecked world where the sky was hazy and there seemed to be no sun. While Yoshina was busy wondering where the hell he was- he was attacked by this monster, and while he scrambles back, someone slices it in half.

Correct, it was his childhood friend, Amamiya Sakurako.

From there on they know, this world, is the future "world". Where humanity seems to have been wiped out, and monsters rages on. The bunch of people find a telephone, which gives them instructions, a map, and a final destination point. After fending off a bunch of monsters, they make it back to present Japan where they were supposed to be in. Afterwards, they learn all about PSYREN from Amamiya's sensei, Matsuri, who told them it is a 'game' that Nemesis Q has created. The card, when placed to the forehead, shows some digits, and that is the 'credit' on the card. Every visit you make into the 'future', the digit decreases and when it reaches ZERO, you have cleared the game and will no longer be summoned into that world. Also, they learn of the hidden 'Psi' that all humans have- just that it has been sealed away. The trip to future has unlocked it. So now our main guy- Yoshina, is going to have some kick-ass powers. Sort of.

The bad guys in the series are known as WISE, people who obviously claim to be 'wise' and want a new revolution- a new world, new humans, and all. They are the ones responsible for the destruction of humanity, and the leader of it all is a man named Amagi Miroku. He was once a test subject for the government, and given special Psi powers.

So basically the story goes on, Yoshina and 'gang' travel in and out of future, learning about what happened in the future, travelling back to the present, and making changes to the present, to prevent the future.

What I basically liked about the whole story was the smooth flow of events. All the dots were properly connected (in a sense) and there was not major loophole (at least not that I can sense) and VERY likeable characters. Even though Yoshina and Amamiya were kind of MEH, the rest of them were actually quite good. Especially the BAD guys. They were more interesting than the good guys for hell's sake.

And sad to say, the plot was very predictable. Yeah, I hate suspense, but when things get too cliched, it becomes a drag. The fighting scenes sometimes were good, but were all TOO short-lived. It ends in a few bloody pages. Nothing really goes on! That's not what you expect in a shounen manga. At least award readers with something good. Fight longer! Don't end it in just a couple of pages. It's not interesting at all, seriously.

Lastly, my big question is, WHAT'S UP WITH THE 'ROMANCE'? To me, it felt like a lump of contorted mess being dumped right inside a nicely brewed soup. It really ruined my impression of the manga. It was just... just... probably because I am also a shoujo-manga reader that's why I found it unbearable, but seriously! Let me tell you what happened in the manga, with sarcasm.

Yoshina: Amamiya... You cared for me when I was young... I grew up and I love you.

Amamiya: Oh... Yoshina, y-you... you don't know... You have always cared for me ever since we entered this world... I love you too!

THE END. THANK YOU FOR READING.

Like hell. That's it. Yoshina pats her on the head and blah, and YAY she falls for him. And uhh, when Yoshina's mother died, Amamiya stayed with him and cheered him up, but you know what? Before the PSYREN incident, they were in the same class and bloody- he did not do a thing! Afterwards, he said he did not understand his bloody feelings until he and Amamiya spent a LITTLE time together. I mean, I don't know. People who have read it will. And then Amamiya becomes all, "I want to fight beside Yoshina!!!" and I'm like, "WHATEVER!!!!!"

Best of Jaejin video. IT IS UTTERLY ADORABLE. (gets away from Psyren topic) The creator did a good job in it. VERY VERY VERY CUTE.

AWESOME-NESS. I loved it. This one was them in a school. Jaejin and Minhwan. If I ever saw them in my school, I mean guys like them, what an enriching SCHOOLGIRL life I would be having. Too bad, in MY school, fairytales are burned to dust.

So all in all, this is D3stinyx saying goodbye.

I'd... remember to update Koi no Kisetsu. Soon. I think.

In the meantime you guys should just read 1/2 Heart. Honestly. I liked it. XD

Signing off.

The End

2010-10-12T07:23:00.001-07:00

Actually, there are many meanings to my title. 'The End'. Well, sure enough, my exams have officially ended, with oral the only examination left in the way, even though I wouldn't suppose oral is a crucial subject that students even study or work hard for- due to one simple fact, there is nothing you can do for it. Orals are all about self-confidence. Articulation. Fluency. Cerebral brains, if you might call it. It is actually a relatively demanding process, in which of course, as everyone knows, getting full marks is purely impossible. Teachers always like to pick on you a bit here, and a bit over there.

Tomorrow, my oral examiner would not be one I would be entirely pleased to get. After all, to have a disciplinary teacher, staring at you, and one who is known to have quite the acid tongue (sarcastically-wise), I wouldn't even lift my spirits up and embrace tomorrow with wide arms. In fact, I'm trying to keep my emotions at an equilibrium, so that it would not affect my performance tomorrow. I have told myself to just think of it as Ms Rina asking me to record my picture discussion once again, and just go in there, and talk. Talk about something. Talk about anything. Just talk. Even if at the end the examiner is most likely going to warn me against speaking so much, I shouldn't even bother- my mouth is for me to control.

Throughout the whole SA2 exam period, I tried to give it my all. Honestly I would say I am not going to pass everything with flying colors, well maybe it would be more correct to say that I was going to FAIL with flying colors. Both my Maths exams were horribly done. They were the only ones that kept my smile lingering. My queer, inexplicable smile.

That smile of mine is a mixture of various feelings. Self-hatred. Cold humor.

It's all thanks to my easy-going, positive mindset. And the habitual action of mine to always smile- because I think everyday is a great and beautiful day. It just warms my heart up and I become unreasonably elated.

No matter what, I keep telling myself to give myself that kind of hope, to have that kind of trust in myself, that I was at least, definitely, going to pass THREE subjects. Probably to many of you, you might be shocked, but with a person being both weak in Maths and Sciences, in an education system that puts so much focus into Maths and Sciences, obviously, without me even saying, you know I'm at a serious disadvantage. That was like in bowling- a full strike. 5 subjects can all crash down.

However, I am still going to believe. Because without belief, it's giving up. On yourself. If even you are not even going to believe, then there is basically no hope. It's the worst sin.

Secondly, 'The End' marks the end of one of my many favourite animes, Katekyo Hitman Reborn. True, Katekyo was definitely a highly enjoyable series with amiable, affable characters who always seem to charm you no matter what they might actually be doing. Great characterization and good development of plot, though I would say there was definitely room for improvement. Artland has done a marvellous job in animating the series, and I feel much indebted to them to always having kept up a good standard of animation, unlike most other anime companies who always seem intent on cutting down costs on the animation so as to make more profits for themselves.

There are lots of things that I would miss. Firstly, Hibari. Secondly, Mukuro. Thirdly, PRIMO. I mean, hell yeah, they are ALL HOT. God damn. I love Primo the most, then Mukuro then Hibari. Primo just has all that sexy golden hair and that super awesome gloves that I have always admired of Tsuna's... Damn he makes my day everytime. In the episodes 180 onwards, one would find his picture with the 1st Vongola Family, and Primo is holding his hand out. ~~TOWARDS ME OBVIOUSLY.~~ It killed me every single time, without fail.

KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~

Basically my fan-girl life revolves around one thing, hot guys, hot guys and hot guys.

Evidence:

Started off with a super KAWAII Jong Hun selca that blows my mind away. 8D

숨 ; Breathe In, Breathe Out

2010-10-04T01:55:00.001-07:00

Oh yes, how I have missed you terribly, FT Island. Honestly, it has been a very, very long time, but no, my love for you has yet to diminish, I think it is only burning stronger and brighter like the undying flame it has always been. And honestly, who can NOT scream when they look at Jaejin? :O (Yeah, don't try to scorn me here, I won't get affected.)

It is the SA2 week right now. And yes, you MUST be wondering how I still have the time to be up on the internet typing out a blog post. Actually, my speed for typing this blog post is utterly fast, just that of course, you can't see it. However, I shall just let you know that I'm pretty much screwed for Biology and Chemistry as of now. I haven't finish at least 3 chapters for Biology and it is coming real soon. I need to buck up. And for Chemistry, I have faith in myself that I can somehow squeeze everything into my brain in one day. All right. It's good to have some... confidence. And yes, I'm hugging God's leg at the last minute. As translated from the ever-famous Chinese idiom.

FT Island's newest song, Love Love Love- I haven't even had the time to upload it. However, by now, all the fans should have heard of the marvellous song and Hongki's voice should have once again, resounded through your veins and electrified you. True enough, though the whole marionette thing seems to be cliched, however, I enjoyed the whole concept the band brought out, and finally Jong Hun's hair WAS getting SOMEWHERE- and that serves as some form of consolation to me. Seung Hyun's rap always captured me in the whole MV. He seems rather stoic and expressionless in stark contrast to Hong Ki, who is rich in emotions, especially melancholy. However, Seung Hyun's rap was cool, and catchy. All I can remember of it is always, "Bonda! Bonda!"

And here, I shall end off with a super hot MV from BEAST, or B2ST. I must say that the boys in the MV has their fair share of charm and from the MV alone I can already identify some of their flairs and weaknesses, however, the whole MV and dance routine itself was BREATHTAKING. Very well done from them. I never did pay much attention to them prior to this, however this song changed my mind about them. Keep it up, sexy beasts.

And I must add one more thing, astounding vocals towards the end of the MV. Good mixture into the song. However, the 'story' behind it was a little... too hard to swallow. With the oxygen masks and all. It was rather weird. I liked the idea of the oxygen masks, but it was weird. The snow had something to do with the lyrics, but from a scene of chaos to snow, what is the link? Personally, I failed to catch it. As of now.

(And oxygen masks are going to be over-used for this period of time- Miss A has almost the same concept too, just that theirs wasn't as sophisticated as BEAST's.)

Catch the steamy video right here.

Tara!

Unriddle ; 最火搭档

2010-08-31T07:13:00.000-07:00

Just today, one of Mediacorp's latest drama serial has just ended its run on the prime 9pm time slot. It is, in my opinion, one of the more successful serials that I have seen on the colored screen thus far- and thus I'm dedicated to making a drama review, on the pros and cons, and the exact, candid feelings I held when watching the drama. I shall be doing my post in duo languages, mainly being English and Chinese.

I shall begin with my English review of the drama now.

Unriddle is basically a drama that talks about intense detective work, suspense and crime. It tries to bring a deeper understanding to the way the cops work, though I suppose that was never the show's true intention as there had been many situations whereby the scriptwriter or the director had portrayed the other police officers- the side cast obviously, consisting of the female officer Xiaomei, Tiger and the last guy whose name I can't recall- as nimwits who could not handle situations. What are the chances of that in real life?

Allow me to break down the drama, starting with the cons. Please be reminded that it contains lots of spoilers, and you would be better off with background information of the show before reading the review because it is hard for me to constantly update on what I'm talking about.

Unriddle engulfed the entire series around adding suspense. It started viewers off with a lot of unanswered questions, bringing up several reminders to those unanswered questions as the show goes on, and eventually wrapping up everything in a nice, clean manner. However, I did not like how the show portrayed the rest of the police officers as basically, honestly- nimwits. It looked as if they did not have the potential to be a cop, honestly. They looked more like they were loyal dogs to Xiaoman, who was the genius in everything and they basically had to follow WHATEVER she said. If she never said it, they'd never do it. Everything is, "Yes, Boss!"

I was really vexed with that, for I felt that instead of roping in so much focus on how talented a detective and officer Xiaoman was, they should have also focused on the team she had. The team barely did anything. I really commiserated with them, they seemed as though they were on the team to listen to Xiaoman and say, "Yes, Boss!" They really did not have say in almost all the stuffs. I would have appreciated it a lot more if producers put in more effort in trying to highlight the rest of the police squad under Xiaoman, probably in some situations, trying to expand the focus not just on Xiaoman and Zheng Yi (the reluctant cop, more of an informant) but also on them. It is a TEAM effort. Not a one-man show, like the show has constantly painted.

Also, the lack of physical evidence. There was literally no forensic proof whatsoever. The most they actually mentioned was the bullet match, the autopsy report, toxic report and what have you. They were VERY, VERY insignificant. I was getting a little hyped up towards the end when they mentioned the footprints, though I still felt that it was never enough. They lacked delicate planning in this field, probably it was a little harder to weave a story together this way.

Also, Xiaoman's 'over' talent. I think that the show went a little overboard with how talented Xiaoman was. She was good at interrogating. She was good at suspecting. She was good at joining the dots. She was good at fighting, dealing with criminals, she was almost good at EVERYTHING. She was simply TOO perfect in real life situations. Sure, the show said that she was tricked into thinking that Yuze(cop, who went missing in the series after the first few episodes, Xiaoman's ideal.) was the main crook behind the ex-cops' deaths, but I mean actually all along she looked like she had her doubts and I never really believed she actually fell for that. She kind of just went along with it because everyone was mumbling the same words at her ears. That Yuze was the killer. Yuze was the killer.

Next, the series itself. It said that it was all around suspense and how it keeps you by the edge of your seat. To me, it rarely had that effect. Occasionally, it did. Especially at the START of a new mystery file, and near the end of the whole mystery file where everything seemed fired up. I always disliked how they gave you a LOT of hints. They start off leaving you wondering who it could be, but afterwards they kind of give it all away. Like in the case of the girls who were basically driven to deaths off the building by the psycopath who wanted to mourn over the death of his favorite tuition teacher. Initially I was all happy that I could recognize the face behind the mask, but afterwards it did not seem that much of a mystery as he showed up soon after.

It felt as if they served the appetiser, and then took it away and chased you out of the restaurant. I would have appreciated it more if they allowed the viewers to participate in the whole thing more. To constantly be guessing. To constantly be giving their own opinions, their own guesses. I think they'd be bewildered to know what kind of possibilities the VIEWERS can come up themselves, as objected to their own, and they would realize some of them have better creativity than the producers actually did. This is just a suggestion. They should have inculcated a similar fashion to how they masked the whole Chai Zhi Yong incident- did not reveal anything significant till the end. An approach similar to already renowned detective shows such as CSI, or even the anime Detective Conan. As said earlier, they could have planted more clues about- so that people can start joining the dots. They should have MORE twists, more unexpected scenarios that are both really credible and astonishing at the same time. They lacked that.

Of course, now I'm going to talk about realistic events and the plot. I mean come on, when I watched the episode of the frantic but actually is the real killer Mother and the psycopath man who wants to take revenge on other kids due to his own traumatic past- to how they solved it, I felt as though I had been dumped upon by a huge rock. The scenario basically went like this, Zheng Yi goes over to the Mother's hand and HOLA! She discovers a bag! And what is in the bag? A diary! HALLELUJAH, but hang on a second, what is the bag doing there? Isn't a little too... INCREDULOUS? Also, the show kept focusing their criminals as a little... psychopathic. Mentally deranged. The clown killer was actually a psycopath who had experienced a traumatic past and has thing with kids. The guy who kills girls by forcing to jump off the building is also another mentally deranged guy who wants to mourn over her dead teacher. Psycopathic. Making the girls dress up like his teacher used to be, read poems and then he pretends they are her.

What are the chances of them being psycopaths in real life, honestly? Why can't they actually have more... mysterious characters? People whom you just can't fathom would do it? They obviously did not watch enough of these crime shows, whereby they'd realize that most of the time CRIMINALS DO NOT REVEAL THAT THEY DID THE CRIME so easily! They'd have just asked for an attorney with much persistence that the cops can't do ANYTHING to them. And also, more than often, criminals are more normal than they expect. It can be out of anger. It can be out of money. Which was mentioned briefly in the show in the last mystery file. It can be out of love. Which was also mentioned, though it was in a psycopathic way in both files. I think there was over-generalization in the mystery files which left me really disenchanted. I think the happy endings was always made bothered me. What are the chances of that? They are stripping courts of their duties? Of their money?

If every criminal confessed, I guess the media would be out of job too. Everything would be, "Man murdered wife and confessed to it after being arrested by police." That would be really dreary and barely even counted interesting. However, that was exactly the case in the show. When the criminal is caught, Xiaoman would blabber on and the criminal would be, "Hey, she's right, they know it all, let me confess." Don't criminals have enough grey matter to know that if they keep their lips sealed, they could never be found GUILTY? Besides throughout the whole interrogation, it felt as though Xiaoman was giving insininuations she made up out of mid-air. She kept accusing. She kept explaining. But hell- where's the proof? You say I killed her. How do you know? Is there my fingerprint on her? What are you going to rely on to charge me effectively?

I also detested the last two episodes. Before that, in the few prior episodes, I felt as if the plot was really, really, lifting me up high. Closer and closer to the climax. Finally we are going to know who is the main killer. What is to make of the final mystery file? Who is Meilin? Who is Xiumei? I had such high expectations, but they literally just dropped me without a parachute from 1000 feet above ground and watched coldly as I crashed. Even as I writhed in agony they did not seem to care.

I thought the last mystery file was finally getting interesting. Identity theft. What is the motive behind it? What does Meilin want to achieve? I had such huge hopes. I thought everything was getting very exciting. Lots of characters seemed to have been brought into the picture. What is the link? What is the relationship? What happened?

I was asking all these questions as I watched yesterday's episode, but apparently, I got the biggest letdown in the entire series. Not only did the mystery file ended on a cold note, even the truth behind Xiaoman's dad disappearance was a letdown. Meilin was actually Meihui and she did it to help her Mother who lost Meilin, her sister, in a car accident. And HOLA she was sick of it and wanted a new life- and she found it after going to Thailand and by a chance encounter a weird girl decides that they should exchange identities and YAY she likes her new life and adamantly tries to stick with it. It tells us a lot about the immigration officers, doesn't it. They also claimed themselves they did not look alike. Then how did she enter Singapore grounds? Fingerprints? They matched?

The whole scenario was so cliched it was barely even interesting. Meihui was basically not even a criminal. After all, she was not the one who suggested it, her only crime was to have participated in the exchange of identities. Besides, she did not do anything bad with the identity like rob a bank or something, she basically TOOK CARE OF XIUMEI's father. Like HALLELUJAH you have a brand new identity and all you do is take care of someone who is not your Father just so you can get Father-ly love. Did not make sense in me. I would have appreciated it more if they can write a better explanation for the identity theft. Probably it could have been something love-related. You know? Jealousy. It is one of the seven sins. Who knows? She wanted something real bad from Xiumei. It would have added more drama than just pure... BLEH. Secondly, when they announced Xiumei was dead, I jumped. My Mum offered a conjecture that probably Xiumei was also another criminal of identity theft, and that she had previously also stolen another identity from another person, and the person now is after her dad's assets. That would make it more interesting in a certain sense. And lastly, Xiaoman's dad sexually abused a kid, got driven out of home, and END OF STORY. YAY.

Thus I would of appreciated more links between all the different mystery files. This person knew this person and all and how it eventually leads to the main person that everyone wants to know- basically Chai Zhi Yong. Or something like that. It is more suspense-filled in that manner.

The last episode was crap, honestly. Barely any suspense AT ALL. I basically guessed out EVERYTHING. Xiaoman interrogate 'Dewei' AKA Chai Zhi Yong, and then he breaks down when he learns his Father is not perfect. It's not that I'm good, it's because it's cliched. Sure I liked the whole idea of being the Father's son, it was good enough for me, but senseless revenge and eventually realizing he was wrong about the paragon he has always been seeing in his life and starts crying and what have you. Also, towards the last 10 minutes, I was blown away to realize they were having another case. I was thinking they were going to bring it over mildly, to show that life went on after they solved the case, but it turned out to be the opposite- IT WAS REALLY THE START OF ANOTHER CASE. I was almost gagging at my seat.

Basically it means there is a SECOND season. Well Mediacorp and their 'money-making' tactics. I really have to hand it to them.

Regarding the cast, they have been brilliantly selected, though I believe the side case of Xiaomei and the other guy had been wrong choices. Xiaomei has a voice that does not make her seem eligible as a cop, and she has constantly been getting cold feet and listening to others too much than having her own opinions. She is almost like a follower. She has a very soft exterior and a very cute, feminine voice unlike Rui En which causes people to think of her less of a cop but more of... I don't know.

I believe Tiger was an appropriate choice. He was the only one I felt had what it LOOKS to be in CID. He had fine muscles and a stern countenance. He seemed more capable than the rest but yet he was only a calefare. Barely any lines for him. He was either knocked out cold or just have one or two sentences at most in each episodes. OR even best, he doesn't appear. Of course I could be biased because he came to my school as a video editing teacher and stirred quite a bit of commotion in us to be seeing him.

I doubt Xiaoman and Zheng Yi really had the chemistry. To me, Rui En did not seem like she was really acting, she seemed to be doing what she was doing best- looking cold, strong female character, gutsy, nearly perfect. When she shedded tears after her Father's truth was disclosed- it seemed so fake. She kept crying but I was not moved by her. Xiang Yun had a few tears embedded in her eyes, making them watery and all but I was moved by her act.

Xiaoman and Zheng Yi were more of a comedic duo. They did not really seem... that... SISTER-ly. So to speak. Barely a real relationship.

This roughly sums up all. Of course, I have more criticisms, but of course I can't remember ALL of them. Though it is about all in the whole review.

Next, I shall talk about the pros of the series.

I must first congratulate the actors on their close-to brilliant work in the series. I thought many of them did fine work. I have always been convinced that the reason why Mediacorp was largely not THAT successful in creating a huge wave; sensation in Singapore was not that the actors were not capable- it was just that the script was barely considered good half the time. I think it should be an all-rounded effort. To have good actors but mediocre script, no matter how the actors act sometimes everything still seems so bleak.

I enjoyed some scenes of suspense. I also enjoyed how the producers always managed to add in several life aspects and a few touching scenes such as the one whereby Meihui met up with her Mother. A VERY good scene. Very touching. A clear indication of good acting skills, especially from the veteran female actress.

The producers made good effort in trying to make the crimes seem so... sensible. That it makes a lot of sense that he did it but sometimes there is just no explanation to a certain behavior.

Youth Olympic Games 2010

2010-08-12T08:06:00.000-07:00

OH YES! Today's 12th August 2010, and it is only two more days away from Singapore hosting the inaugural YOUTH OLYMIPIC GAMES- the first ever, too. I am not particularly fervent about this whole thing, but I do respect Singapore, just the little red dot people always reckoned us to be, to be able to do something this grand, this massive, and be able to awe people from all over the world about how a country as small as us, can catch us with the rest of the world with ease. Probably none of the Singaporeans really think about it deeply- but Singapore is really an astounding city. Sure, we are constantly in our blind chase after perfection, everything seems to have to be perfect, but then again, we are better than lots of the big countries. I commend all the efforts put in by my ancestors, so to speak.

So what if Singapore is small? We have the latest technological updates.

So what if Singapore is small? We are probably more safer than anywhere else in the world.

So what if Singapore is small? We still have local talent not to be looked down upon.

Sure, I admit that Singapore, too, is heavily flawed in many aspects- however, I still respect it for all its successes and glories that it has been able to proudly declare to the world- the little dot is not to be missed out. We are so DAMN RED in color, you just have to notice us.

Today, the torch bearers carrying the Holy Flame originated in Greece, would be running past our school gate. Thus, to celebrate such a rare occasion, our school decided to end curriculum at 12.15 PM, and all of us headed to the hall afterwards for a nice "OH YEAH, OH YEAH, HEY!" session, doing the... Well, largely scorned and despised YOG movement that JJ Lin inculcated into his MV for YOG. I thought it was not THAT bad. Yeah sure, people are all critiques when they are NOT the ones who made it. If they are so good, make one so earthbreaking that it boggles audiences at the YOG stadiums!

If they can't, they should shut up about NON-CONSTRUCTIVE comments like "I HATE JJ LIN AND THIS SONG. 'EVERYONE' IS BETTER." Well, hell yeah, how about commenting about how it could have been improved? Besides, hatred is a strong word. Also, keep in mind of how much effort someone might have put just to come up with the moves. You think everyone gets the easy way out- oh! Apple fell down, hit my head, and I came up with a set of moves! HOORAY! Happily ever after!

So either way, all the Secondary Threes were in full gear as we set out to a spot by Bukit Batok's Driving Center, and we staked out there, under the midday, blistering hot sun that meted its cruel punishment upon us for approximately 40 minutes. Along the way my class picked up random items of interest off the grass- long, broken branches, huge slabs of stones, concrete, played 'Kick that rock', shoved the branches around as if he was really a learned Kungfu master, and well, all in all, did what teachers would deem as 'reckless, perilous action that puts all in danger, especially yourselves.'.

We waited around the bus stop ahead of the Driving School, and we did the cheer repeatedly at passing cars, our class, that is. And they all looked at us emotionlessly. We waited and waited, and then we saw the police set into action, riding away in their convenient motorbikes. Following after them, were two double-decked buses, one was red in color, the other was blue. They were jam packed with teens, and the ones at the top of the bus were waving down at us happily. I waved back with equally matched enthusiasm.

What I didn't know was that those 2 buses... Were what we were supposed to see.

well, after a few more minutes of waiting after the two buses had already ventured to another junction of the road, teachers began to usher us back to school. I was feeling astonished- what about the torch bearers we were supposed to witness? And I was amongst the last to reach the school hall due to traffic, and that was when the teachers explained- "They predicted that it would rain so they cancelled the run."

I was all, HOW COULD THEY?!

It was humid, and hot, with only- Yes, indeed, mild sight of ominous clouds that loomed overhead. Not a lot, and plus it was excruciatingly hot. Everything in the distance just seemed to shine with the sunlight, making everything so arduous to even look at. It felt as if someone running a fever had seized my arms, and I just could feel that warm touch on my skin as I walked.

Sweat was dripping off my face CONTINUOUSLY.

So in the end, we missed it. Completely. The torch bearers were on the buses that drove by.

Really like this old song. His voice is husky and unique, in my opinion. The creator of many popular old songs. A respectable man, a true loss to have him deceased, due to a car accident. His 'demise' reminds us of the true dangers advancements in technology has brought us.

On a side note, NEKOS!!! The cat in the MV was utterly ADORABLE. -hearts-

FIGHT ON! FIGHT ON! SINGAPORE!

Bring home some gold medals, and make everyone proud!

I have faith in you, let's bring our success to the next level!

And of course, not forgetting, thank you Shinn.

本当に、ありがとう

七里香； Orange Jasmine

2010-07-07T07:57:00.000-07:00

Ah, old Chinese songs are the best. Well, 'old'. I'm not saying it's 'primitive' or some 'ancient' 1980s song. It is released a couple of years back, so I deem it as an 'old' song. A song from the past. Either way, it's a song of Jay Chou's, and I thought it was such a nice, nice, bittersweet song. And I thought, heck, let me do the translation one line after one. I thought it could be fun.

Here I go!

Those sparrows outside the windows,
Perched above the telephone lines, chatting boisterously,
You said this one line,
"This feels so much like a Summer."

The pencil in my hand,
Go up and down on the paper,
And I use a few lines to describe who you are to me.

The feeling of a cololobais saira,
Both the cat and you want to understand,
And the 'aroma' of first love is thus regained,
That warm sunlight,
Is just like freshly picked strawberries,
And you say you cannot bear to eat up this kind of feeling.

It rains the whole day,
And my love overflows just like the rain water,
The fallen leaves in the yard,
Represents how much I miss you, a thick, thick pile,
A few contradicting sentences,
Is unable to freeze my burning passion,
Your name appears in every page of my poem.

It rains the whole day,
And my love overflows just like the rain water,
The butterflies by the window edge,
Are just like the beautiful, soaring chapters in the poem,
And I went on to write,
"I'd love you for eternity" at the end of the poem,
Your "I understand" is the only thing that I long for.

It rains the whole day,
And my love overflows just like the rain water,
The fallen leaves in the yard,
Represents how much I miss you, a thick, thick pile,
A few contradicting sentences,
Is unable to freeze my burning passion,
Your name appears in every page of my poem.

That blooming maize field,
Has enjoyed through this entire season,
And your face is just like the field's tomato,
All of a sudden, you tell me,
"Orange Jasmine, this is a pretty name.",
Yet all that I could think of was to lust for those lips of yours.

It rains the whole day,
And my love overflows just like the rain water,
The fallen leaves in the yard,
Represents how much I miss you, a thick, thick pile,
A few contradicting sentences,
Is unable to freeze my burning passion,
Your name appears in every page of my poem.

For the whole night, my love overflows just like the rain water,
The butterflies by the window edge,
Are just like the beautiful, soaring chapters in the poem,
And I went on to write,
"I'd love you for eternity" at the end of the poem,
Your "I understand" is the only thing that I long for.

Ah blah, I could not find a word to describe some of the chinese words he used, and some of the sentences he sang did not make sense in direct translation. Haha. Guess my chinese needs brushing up on. But it's generally correct.

As expected, it was fun to crack my brain up.

Brand New Days

2010-07-05T00:31:00.000-07:00

It's been a long, long while since I updated. Yes, all hail homework and personal laziness. They are what have been keeping me from updating. Or perhaps, there was just nothing so interesting in my especially mediocre life and repeating lifestyle. Either way, the happiest day of my life that I happened to have been praying for since 2 years ago came to life just a few weeks prior, and apparently, I was not the only one screaming my lungs out for SOMETHING else other than a World Cup goal. Indeed. Speaking of World Cup, any dying, surprised viewers around? True enough, how some of the supposedly best teams have been knocked out must have knocked some supporters out cold too.

I read a newspaper article interviewing several youthful soccer enthusiasts, and they graded how 'insane' they were regarding the World Cup. And all of them listed 'Brazil' as the country they think would clinch the World Cup. I don't think I'm seeing Brazil's shadows anyway now, though. It came to me as quite a shock too, because my Father had been keeping me updated with the strengths of the soccer teams, and gave me his own predictions. I don't think it had been nice for anyone to see one of the strong teams getting the boot.

So either way, I can't keep that day off my mind. But I'm still waiting. Waiting for more. I hope there's going to be more.

I had been sick the prior two days. So sick I wanted nothing to do with my computer and I sat around listlessly, with my throbbing headache and my slight fever. By today I seem to have 'sweat out' all my sickly disorientations, and seems to be fit like a bull. Yes, hale and hearty indeed. I have even started my 'musical imitation' of a rock singer. That tells of current situation. Probably filled with so much energy I had recovered from my hours after hours of rest on my bed, dreaming of suspense-teeming, action, hot guys, and weird plot dreams. By now, all I'm left with all only slight images of what I had dreamt about. Apparently, it was a CONTINUOUS dream. Part one, then part two, my brain always being able to pick up where it had left off in the previous one. I remember I'm some kind of sleuth on the mission (again) and I encounter lots of bizarre incidents. I love my dreams. Especially detective ones. Probably it would take me ages before FT Island or NEWS pops into them (YES I ENVY YOU MIKI) but oh well. Suspense to me is a big love.

Right now I'm just trying to do something, OTHER than homework. Yes, I mean I see maths equations and I'm all, blah, let's leave it aside. Either way, I read an article about Grigory Perelman, who solved the Poincare conjecture, the Poincare conjecture is regarded as one of the most important questions in topology, a geometry-related branch of mathematics which deals with spatial properties. In simple layman's terms, it asserts that any shape without a hole can be stretched or shrunk into a sphere. And either way, he had refused the $1.4 million reward. Well, everyone has their own reasons. And it is a good... sign to probably someone who is not overly attracted to the wonders of those green notes.

My conclusion to having shared that is that- well, I hope that is not going to be listed in my study syllabus, which I don't think so judging from how it might need to be clarified or whatever by Singapore's Ministry of Education or what have you, I'm not sure of the procedure, but I hope not. I love how geniuses can keep solving this, but wait, I hate it because it means at some point of time I might have to try learning it and understanding it. Bloody god. I mean, I hate Maths. Like... Seriously.

Back to what I had intended to share with all of you... (As if it's anything BUT FT Island...) So yes, I'm back with more FT Island goodies, barely. FT Island has their newest song, titled Brand New Days, written by the FT Island members themselves. Seunghyun and Jong Hun participated more in the songs for their newest album, though. I wonder why? ~~And I also wonder when Jong Hun is going to get rid of his 'old uncle' image with that strange fringe that makes him about 10 years older than he actually is.~~

Jong Hun before his... Flower Rock, was EXTREMELY good looking. I'm sure everyone concurs. His new image gives him a rather... more matured look, but I think, TOO matured. Until I really find him as though in his early thirties, which is a far cry to his actual age. I loved him best in his Raining PV, or before that too. At least he looked his age. Jong Hun's face hasn't changed at all, just that his ~~bloody freaking hair~~ did.

Brand New Days' 30 sec preview dawned on me as disappointing. But when I watched the entire video itself, it sort of redeemed itself. Though, however, it did not manage to really catch my attention and jump at the song, flailing, "THIS SONG IS GOOD!" It passed off as average. Not much of a catchy tune. What I enjoyed most was watching the PV. I was delightfully surprised when Seunghyun came into view and was singing. And how he erm... Tried to have that rocker feel when it came to the supposed 'rap' part that he had. Jae Jin was adorable. Minhwan was all the same. Having that slight... Cheeky feel to himself. Jong Hun was ~~crapshit I mean his hair is~~ No I didn't want to say that but instead I wanted to say Jong Hun and his guitar pose is still loved by me. I'm in no way a hater, LOL. Err, well, maybe a JONGHUN-CURRENT-HAIRSTYLE-HATER, yeah. People might say I should try and accept it since I love them as a band but then... When you don't like something, you should not go and say that you like it just because of something else. That's infidelity. It's my principle that one should always be brutally honest. Seunghyun looked VERY refreshing in the PV.

Either way, do enjoy the song. OR at least enjoy the PV. It was enjoyable, to a certain extent. Hong Ki's voice is DEFINITELY worth listening to. When has it not been? HONG KI, FIGHTING!

Their album is coming out a day before I am scheduled to have an O-Level CHINESE ORAL EXAM. Damn, I'm all nervous. Though, on a brighter side, I have my birthday three days after. Something worth looking forward to, finally. And Miki, if you are reading this... I can't wait for my birthday present! :D

And sorry Shinn, (if you COULD ever read this) sorry to have worried you. I mean I was sick. Okay. Fine. I'm sorry. And I can't wait for your birthday gift too. You said you would get me some AN JELL merchandise. You said it. So I'm expecting you to fulfill it? Or if not just send me some Japanese manga. I know I can't read it, but who cares? It's in Japanese! Hahaha! If not, then FT Island merchandise. LIKE THEIR ALBUMS! Though I wonder if you can find it there?

Oh yeah, on a side note, why don't you guys try this song out? It's by Professor Green, titled I need you tonight. Probably you would not like the song like I did, but at least, the MV is worth watching, in my opinion. It's full of funkiness, creativity and fun. And uhhhh, I don't think the lady dancing around should cause you to shrink away. It's not really... that obscene.

SUPPORT FT ISLAND ALL THE WAY!

And probably you would never notice...

That I love you, so, so, much...

Until you see my tears...

But by then, it's already too late.

'Cause the spaces right between your fingers are where mine fits perfectly...

2010-04-21T06:14:00.000-07:00

Oh yeah, I told you Jong Hun would be back. ~~He's too sexy to not be put back.~~

Due to overwhelming, unexpected reactions obtained after typing out my own study material onto this blog, I have decided to do it again, since I did really come back and keep reading it- a bad habit of mine to keep reading my own literary works. Whatever I have typed, I always enjoy a second re-visit. For whatever peculiar reason that I think all comes down to my utterly queer and unpredictable behavior- these notes on my own PERSONAL LIFE blog has indeed helped me out, even the tiniest on my Physics test. So I'm back.

Tomorrow is my Biology Test. Biology falls on the first period, which leaves me with little time to study it. But no worries, the more stress you put on yourselves, the more you panic and lose hold of yourselves. Just keep steady and accept whatever is chucked at your feet with confidence. So, with all these said, I shall get on going. The notes is only for self-reference, and people reading my blog for my own personal life can simply scroll down, just a little bit more, to reach what I would have to type for the past few days of my life.

ENZYMES

A catalyst is a substance which can alter of speed up a chemical reaction, without being chemically changed at the end of the reaction.

Inorganic catalysts are not destroyed by boiling or by changes in the pH of the solution.

Enzymes are biological catalysts made up of protein. They alter the rate of chemical reactions without themselves being chemically changed at the end of the reaction. They allow a reaction to be carried out at a lower temperature and speeds up the reaction. (They lower the activation energy)

They are required only in minute amounts, and a small amount is sufficient to catalyse a large number of chemical reactions. They are also specific on their functions, for example amylases only act on starch, not on proteins or fats. Similarly, proteases act only on proteins, and lipases only on fats. Substances which enzymes act on are called substrates.

Enzymes have an optimum temperature. This is the temperature which the enzympe is the most active in catalysing the largest number of rections per second. Optimum temperature varies in different organisims, but for most it is around 40-45 degress celsius. Certain enzymes in plants however have a higher optimum temperature of around 65 degree celsius.

Enzyme activity increase as temperature rises as the particles of matter are always in constant random motion. Thus, raising the temperature increases the kinetic energy, and when the reacting molecules move faster, the substrate and enzyme molecules collide with each other more often, This increases the chance of the substrates fitting into the active sites.

Enzyme activity decreases as high temperatures because the vibrations would get too violent that they break the hydrogen bonds in the enzyme causung it to lose its shape and active site (denature).

The higher the temperautre, the faster the rate of denaturation.

Denaturation is the change in the three-dimensional structure of an enzyme or any soluble protein, caused by heat or chemicals such as acids and alkalis.

Temperature and pH can be limiting factors. An increase in the value of these factors increases the rate if reaction, until the optimum temperature or pH is reached.

Enzymes help build up or synthesise complex substances, break down food substances in cells to release nergy (cellular respiration), and break down poisonous substances in cells.

Enzymes catalyse reversible reactions.

NUTRITION IN HUMANS

Holozoic nutrition - Animals taking in complex organic matter (solid or liquid)

Ingestion - Food taken into the body

Digestion - Large food molecules broken down into smaller soluble molecules that can be absorbed into the body cells

Absorption - Digested food substances are absorbed into the body cells

Assimilation - Some of the absorbed food substances are converted into new protoplasm or used to provide energy.

Mouth & Buccal Cavity

Teeth breaks down large pieces of food into smaller pieces, increasing surface area to volume ratio of the food so enzymes can act on it more efficiently.

Salivary glands secrete sakuva unti the mouth.

Tongue helps to mix the food with saliva, Taste buds on tongue help to identify food.

Pharynx

To prevent food going down the wrong way, larynx moves up and the epiglogttis moves down so that the larynx is covered by the epiglottis. No food particles can enter the trachea (windpipe).

Oesophagus

Made up of two layers of muscles:

The longitudinal muscles on the outside of the gut and the circular muscles on the inside of the gut.

Peristalsis

The longitudinal and circular muscles are antagonistic muscles, meaning when one set of muscles contracts, the other relaxes.

When the circular muscles contract, the longtidunial muscles relax. As a result, the wall of the guy constricts, becoming longer and narrower, pushing the food forward.

When the longitudinal muscles contract, the circular muscles relax. The gut dilates, becoming wider and shorter, widening the lumen for the food to enter.

~.~.~.~

All right, I shall end there.

Let's talk about a few random things that happened recently. Actually, to be honest, NOTHING of interest occured these few days, probably because we are living in the city where everything seems to be following a set of rules that you could almost figure out roughly what was going to happen in your life for the next day. I'm not saying you would know EVERYTHING, since every single day there are all kinds of factors in your life that would make each and every day of your life different- the people you meet, another person's decisions, your own decisions...

The thing that kept ringing in my mind, for some reason that I can't see the light of- was a day when I was released from school, trudging my way to the mall's library. I had just entered the library, and was going to renew the date for my borrowed book. I loved the book so much I wanted to keep it with me for as long as possible. Inside, I saw the guy I had practically known the whole of my life. He didn't change much as much as I was concerned, he looked all the same, just that he had grown so much that the guy I was so familar with, able to face at eye-level, now required me to look up at just to converse with him.

I paced around the machines, waiting for the chance for me to use either of them to renew the date for my book. He was still using, and never did notice me. I stared at him, not sure if it was him, so I walked a little closer, looking in the other direction just in case it wasn't him so I wouldn't seem like some gone-out-of-hand psycho (which I was anyway). He noticed me and called out for me. I turned around and was relieved it was indeed him.

I went to his side and stared at the screen.

"Well, what are you doing?" To be frenetic, I already knew of his motive, seeing the blue card stuck in the receiver, with the words NETS written over it. However, this was a worthy topic for me to bring up. He looked up at me, then in a hushed voice, he told me, his playfulness all about his face like how I've seen him all the time, and whispered, "I'm paying for my overdue books. It's quite a lot..."

I laughed, bantering him with an accusing voice. He smiled back at me, and I simply turned away, upon noticing the nostalgia that was filling me from within. It was hard to admit that he wasn't a friend that I treasured in my youthful days, in fact, it would be such a blatant lie- and there were also the couple of days where the feelings of such tight-knitted amity that the two of us shared suddenly transformed into feelings of affection, feelings of admiration, and caught me aback for a moment, but I seem quick enough to see the line and step back. Yet, I guess it wasn't just me who suddenly got caught red-handed and flustered- he was the one who spewed the words first.

When he turned to leave, I didn't say goodbye. Probably that was my only regret of the day. Yet, somehow I wanted it to end that way. I watched as his back faded into the distance, his face now serious, almost comically, with his little mole just right above his lips; I almost laughed seeing how serious he was. Normally, with him, I would just burst out in laughter, and he would stare at me incredulously, and then he would get infected and he would start crackling up too. The two of us can, perhaps, be the wackiest partner ever. I don't know, we have been friends, for a very, very long time. Our affinity seems beyond this world, and even the gods to fathom.

How I met him at age 4, and we were in the same class for every year except when we first entered the same primary school at age 7. How we just couldn't forget each other, how our friendship deepened. Though now he's in one of the top schools of Singapore, still thriving in his education, being one of the future bright stars of the country, while I am cuddling around in the dirt, my books thrashed to a side, and me picking them up once in a while, rolling about the green grasses enjoying the blue sky and breathing in what smells so much of beautiful life, strings and strings of words twirling before my vision, almost like the mellifluous notes of music floating about the atmosphere- but I know, the two of us, we are not done and dusted right here. I just know, that some day in the future, the two of us would still be enjoying life, each other as childhood companions.

Thank you for your existence in my life.

After I was done with all that I had intended to do right from the start, I trailed out of the library, feeling a little more light-hearted than original. I went past the gift shop, the light almost a little too dazzling, and past the in-mall cafeteria, and was going to head down the escalator when I heard this terrifying yell out of nowhere. My name.

"PEIYUN!"

I almost froze, and flinched a little and I turned my head.

Ah, perfect, just the person I wanted to see. I quickly stepped on the escalator and got escorted downstairs, ignoring him, the storybook I had in hand, covering the left of my face.

After I got to the third floor and realized he hadn't followed, I relaxed a little, but apparently by now some of the passers-by were gawking at me with wide eyes, as if I were some kind of nondescript. I felt embarrassed by their stares, but I could do nothing about it other than to mouth words of curses as I proceeded to the next escalator down to the ground floor.

Apparently, it was YUXUAN back then and he had simply hollered my name amidst the so-called silence in the cafeteria when he spotted me out of nowhere; I wonder how he did that since he was sitting in this area where it was quite hard to notice me unless he really wanted to, and he had shouted so hard that right at that point of time everybody was staring at either me or him. He had even stood up, staring at me, so I just pretended I didn't know that lunatic and went down the escalator.

Either way, he didn't follow so well, I reached home without incident.

AND,

Spreading the Minhwan-love,

TADAAAAAAAAA!

FT ISLAND!!

Boys Don't Know

2010-04-17T06:47:00.000-07:00

I haven't been doing much digging work for FT Island nowadays. I'm really, really missing out a lot. However, on another hand, I don't really mind- since I still save tonnes of pictures every week. The pictures are enough to keep my life quota high and my urges to search about them low. Apparently this time I decided to put Jae Jin's picture. His angellic smile should be more than sufficient to keep you reading on? :D I shall put Jong Hun's ~~super smexehh~~ face here NEXT TIME.

I'm studying Logarithms right now. And I decide to type out my own vexations regarding the subject so that I would keep my equilibrium. I briefly read through my Physics about waves, longitudinal and tranverse waves, and I thought I would type a bit here, since I have the habit of re-reading my own blog posts. Longitudinal waves are waves that travel in a direction parallel to the direction of wave propagation. Such as sound waves. Whereas, transverse waves are waves that travel in the direction perpendicular to the wave propagation. Examples include the majorities of waves known to men- water waves, light waves, electromagnetic waves. It's good we don't have to memorize about all the Gamma rays- yet.

Regions where particles are close together is known as compression, while the regions where particles are far apart are known as rarefaction.

Formulas:

Wavelength

f = 1/T

f= Number of waves per unit time
T= Time taken to generate one complete wave

Wave speed

v = f (landa) The weird sign that resembles the chinese word 'ru'

v = velocity (m/s)

f = frequency (Hz)

landa = wavelength (m)

My motive for typing this post today, besides to publish my own science notes that I'm trying so hard to fathom and memorize, is of course to talk a bit about my own personal life, and whatever I have experienced as well as my ever-growing complicated thoughts about this society. The first thing I have realized nowadays is how many a time, you are refined to a certain thing of what others want of you. It's like the kids are walking in one straight line, led by the teachers and the adults, and if you ever attempt to walk out of the line, to be 'special', you'd be snapped on, and made to walk back in line.

Schools always encourage you to be free speakers, to be as creative as possible, to open new sights- but yet again, how much courage does that take of one person to do that? When one person stands out too much from the rest- what kind of commotion do you normally think will stir? It's just like a child not studying in a class where everyone did. They are the center of attention, and the center of negative light, too. People whisper, behind backs, full of innuendos that are teeming with lies, without ever knowing the individual deeply, just judging from the looks of it.

When you be creative, does it always get accepted? Do you ideas always get accepted?

So once again, what does this society truly yearn from us?

Creative, boundary-crushing humans, or obedient hounds?

I get this impression in school time and again. Whenever I write essays, the things that my teacher point out, I see no fault in them. It's just her trying to restrict me in my words. "You have to write it like this... If not you won't... Follow this set of guidelines..." I know it is for security, just in case maybe I fall out of line- but wait, I enjoy falling out of line. I don't like to be the goody-two-shoes, dog, wagging my tails and not doing anything for a change.

There was once a story, that I heard over the radio, a truly, heartfelt meaningful story that I couldn't help but endlessly concur with. It was one of the best stories that I heard over the radios as I commuted my way to school on the luxurious car seat of my Father's dark green automobile, constantly under the soothing kisses blowing out from the air-con directly in front of me. It illustrated two boys, brothers, who lived at the eightieth storey of this high-rise building. Typical of modern cities, as they build their structures higher up into the heavens, kissing the gods.

One day, the two boys decided to go hiking. They packed their bags, and headed off. However, they failed to see the notice that they would be a maintenance of the lights and lift in the night. Thus, when they came scuttling home, they were devastated to find the lift not working. This is when they realize of the notice and they sigh to themselves. Wheeling themselves together, the elder brother told the younger one that they shall take the stairs up instead.

So the two of them climbed painstakingly up the stairs, carrying the overwhelming loads over their weary backs. At the twentieth storey, they decided to take a break, and they realized it was impossible to climb all the way to the eightieth storey with their heavy bagpack. At this moment, the elder one told the younger one,

"Okay, here's what, we shall leave our bagpacks here, get home, get a good rest, and the next morning when the lift resumes work, we shall come down here again and retrieve our stuffs."

The two agreed and they continue to climb, however, it was still tiring, and now they stop at the fourtieth storey. At this point, both of them began to argue, each of them blaming each other about their failure to notice the notice given out to them regarding the maintenance, and how they would not have went for the hike if they knew this was going to happen. They were dead beat, and argued for a moment, before the elder one told the younger one, "Let's stop quarelling and save our energy for the climb."

So the younger one heeded his words and they continue to climb and climb and climb, and finally! They reached the eightieth floor! Both brothers are excited as they scurry towards their home door, and they fumble their pockets for their keys.

And it is then that they realize they have left the keys in their bagpacks, at the twentieth storey.

What's the moral of the story?

Here,

As we are born, to when we are about 20 years old, we have to carry a lot of weight upon ourselves, our teachers's expectations, our parents' expectations, and we walk painstakingly till when we are old, young adults, and that's when we are finally free to do what we really want to, to pursue new possibilities, free of those burdens imposed on us by our parents or teachers. As we climb on free of load to when we are forty, we start realizing that we haven't done anything and we start feeling frustrated. Why is my life like this? Why can't it have been better?

And then finally, as we are at a ripe old age, we finally realize-

That we have left our dreams with our youthful self.

Such a good story.

Start cherishing and understanding what you want in this life.

Time, that is lost.

Never returns to you.

As I type this right here.

Every second spent.

I never get them back.

They disappear into the history.

Of my life.

--

Here to share a song, too.

Parallel Hearts

歌：FICTIONJUNCTION

僕らは未来を変える力を夢に見てた

ノイズの中　聞こえてきた君の泣き声
笑っていた僕の弱さを暴いた
君の行く道は君にしかわからない
違う空　追いかけて

僕らは未来へ向かう勇気を欲しがって
過去に迷う　君が笑う本当の　現在へ還り着くまで

君のことを知りたいと思って始めて
寄り添えない　心の距離に怯えた
分かり合えないと解った　それだけで
二人が始まって行く

涙も痛みもすべて　抱きしめてあげたいけど
走れば走るほど　遠くなる気がして　不安になる
どこまで行けばいいの？

ノイズの中　聞こえてくる君の歌声
無くしていた　僕の姿が　今　見えるよ

一人で行くはずだった未来を変える力をください
君が笑うそれだけで　高く飛べる

僕らは心をつなぐ勇気を欲しがって
愛に迷う　君と笑う本当の僕に還り着くまで

I am recently obsessed with this song from Pandora Hearts, a recent anime, okay, maybe not that recent, since it was released last year. But either way, it is a good anime, and this song is great too. The first time I listened to it last year, I wasn't quite impressed by it, but now, on a second visit, I really enjoy it. FICTIONJUNCTION is actually really great. I remember them. But I think I was really disappointed when I first heard this song.

But I guess I have no reason to be now.

Enjoy the song! While enjoying a slideshow? Of FT Island? :D

JAEJIN-ness! ♥♥♥♥♥

MINHWANNNNNNN! ♥♥♥

LEE HONG KI!!!! AH! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

FT ISLAND HWAITING!! (thousands of hearts)

愛してる

♥

絶対離さない！

じゃあ…まあああああああああああああた！

8 sit-ups for you, darling?

2010-04-13T06:47:00.000-07:00

Today, all the Secondary Threes had our 'annual' NAPFA test. It's actually a really stupid, and somewhat senseless tests, as each and every one are put through various test stations, such as standing broad jump, where you basically judge how far you can jump just be swinging your body forward, sit-ups, shuttle run, whereby you run back and fro, picking up blocks as well and in the fastest time possible. These are just three of the stations. I am of course, too lazy to name them all.

So being in 3E4, my class was scheduled the later timing to take the test, which commenced at 4pm. It sucked. Classes release us at 1.45pm, and what are we actually supposed to do for that two hours in between? It baffled me initially, but apparently I brought some books, papers, pencils, erasers for me to draw, read, recite and whatever that I revel in carrying out. Amidst those 2 hours, there were lots of screaming, shouting, screeching of chairs, water pouring, random games, random comments, and of course, me being silent as I watch on, observing each and every of my classmates/friends' weaknesses and fortes, as a human being, of course.

Sometimes I think I should not really be that quiet and keep observing so much, because undoubtedly, while I try not to think too much of my friends' tainted points, I tend to keep them on heart as sometimes what they have committed are far a little too outrageous for me to accept with a big, loving heart. I am not trying to be picky- I'm not the best friend you would find around either. I'm cold, heartless, and not as sincere at times. I am someone who often prioritizes my welfare over others, of course, not in dire situations where a life is concerned or something vital of course, something as simple as 'not waiting for my friend because I am tired and need to get home immediately'. True friends would wait, won't they?

Also, it's hard to really start a conversation with me, and prolong it for long. It is because, my modus operanti of late, has been involving profound calculations of what others want me to hear and then saying it, and also trying to steer clear of trouble. That's why a lot of times, I try my best to be as actively participating in the conversation as much as possible, but most of the times, I fail terribly. It's all your personality, isn't it. Hard to find a good response. Hard to think on your feet and quickly alter the mood. I don't know. Something like that.

When 4 struck, me and some of my friends headed off to the hall at once. Well, it was getting boring after those 2 dreary hours passed by. We went to the hall, settled down, and our first station was inclined pull-ups. Basically, pull-ups, just not the tough-guy type where you pull yourself upwards while suspended mid-air on some tall, giant bar- it's something simpler for the girls, you sprawl onto the ground, legs in front of you, knees not bent, grab onto the bar that's just a little higher than ground level, and you pull yourselves up as much as possible.

However, the only big, major problem was THERE WAS NO LEG SUPPORT. All right, so when it was my turn; I was the last girl to attempt, to be exact, thanks to my adorable name with initials consisting of alphabets that are arranged to the end of the series; and I tried to hold myself up. But I couldn't. It sucked. And I struggled. My feet slipped to the front. And I held on hard to the bar, not knowing what to do other than pull a meek face, really wanting to give up, because it was so hard to hold yourself up. I succeeded last year, but I failed to relive that feat this year. I tried and tried, slipping and slipping, until out of nowhere, I found my balance and began to do a few, of course, getting penalized by Mr. Lim for having knees bent while trying to do one of them, and eventually I was left with the score of 10 pull-ups. Honestly, I would have done more, if not for SOMETHING that curbed me from achieving the best. Without leg support basically killed me.

We went back to the hall and prepared to head off for the next station. Right then, it began to rain. Cats and dogs. And the pull-ups was immediately shifted to the hall, indoors, to be attempted. I pitied the other classes- doing in the hall, with a floor even more slippery than that of the fitness corner, how on earth are they supposed to accomplish that? I didn't know. But I didn't have time to care as we were shoved to the next station- sit and reach. Basically, it is a station whereby we sit down, pull our shoulders back a little, hand outstretched in front of you, your knees strapped to the floor, and you bend forward, pushing this metal piece as far as you can down the line, and once you have reached your limit, they would see the distance you have pushed and record it. For me, I achieved a stunning performance of 46cm. I am not sure whether it is a record that has deteriorated since last year, but who cares? It is a really good result, for me, that is.

And yes, my nightmare of the day, or so I thought, sit-ups. Basically, I was ranting to everyone how I would not pass it because of my weird condition and lack of training (because I simply could not bother to). Josephine went first, hitting it at 23 sit-ups, a pass, and while I did, wow, I must have been the joke of the day. I struggled to sit up. My hands were not cupped behind my ears almost all the time. And I was penalized. They were not counted. I tried and tried and tried. My hands would not keep in position at my ears. You could say I was borrowing the strength of my arms to push me upwards. Was there really a fault with this? I was mainly using the strength of my belly too. It's actually something really stupid, crass, inlogical and whatever I can actually find to snide and begin my mockery at, but anyway, it is something set by people who find it unacceptable and you are forced to swallow it down- whether you like it or not. If you don't like it, who are you to blame? The teachers? The government? You are to blame yourselves! If others can do it, why can't you?

The teachers kept spurring me on. You can do it! You can do it! And I was like, ah, just shut up! You know I can't do it! xD When I got up, I was laughing. Well, as expected, I was always so awesome. There was no other word to describe. All the girls reported the number of sit-ups they did to the person-in-charge, and when it was my turn (the last) I pointed the number of sit-ups I did with two hands. Fantastic. IT CAN BE COUNTED WITH FINGERS.

They were staring at me with bulged eyes. I almost laughed. "8...? You only did 8...?" Especially the guy attendee. He was almost going to mock, but I turned a deaf ear and just walked away, ignoring their words. What they say don't matter. I don't give a damn about this fitness test. Yes, health is important, but like all schools know, your employees aren't going to fit through your NAPFA records and marvel at your past-year achievements for the test. What they want to see is your education level. How many As you have. Do you have a diploma? How efficient are you? Who gives a damn about this fitness test? I'm not saying don't have it- I'm just telling people who are too 'perfectionist' to relax. Failing this test does not literally mean 'end of the world'. If you contacted terminal cancer, then yes, sorry- THAT'S END OF THE WORLD.

And oh, standing broad jump next. How marvellous it is, too? Jumping a distance of 148 cm every year. Ah, my beautiful life. I have been getting this result for years. No improvements, no deterioration. Always 148 cm. Oh, the irony.

Lastly, the shuttle run. When it was my time, I was fired up for it, but apparently the person who clicked the timestopper said Go! too softly and it took me about a few milliseconds to even reach to her command before I started to run. It wasted precious time. Then as I ran, I realized I didn't practice enough and could not make the turn as beautifully as last year. I was moaning to myself. But I still managed a time of 11.8 seconds. Wasn't too bad, but not my best. My best, is SERIOUSLY, SERIOUSLY, 10.8 seconds. Imagine it. WOW. I must have been sprinting like some kind of maniac. Or maybe the teacher clicked the wrong time. Or something.

After everything ended at approximately 5pm, we all proceeded to head home. I went and looked for Jiamin, to ask if her class was finishing soon, but to my disenchantment, she was not. And had one more station to go. I could not possibly wait and simply left, well, I was stopped as I made a considerable distance away, as she asked if I failed anything.

"I failed sit-ups! I only did 8 times, oh man, I'm so fantastic."

"I passed! I passed!" (I think that's what she said) And she told me she clocked a time of 11.3 seconds for her shuttle run. I wasn't too happy when I heard that. I was supposed to do as well as her. But I really, really couldn't. I felt a little disappointed, but oh well, on the bright side, my results are good enough.

So I went home, under my umbrella, sweating quite a bit when I reached the train station. I boarded a rather jam-packed train carriage and off I went, to be precise I commuted one station before I reached my destination and I alighted. People of all walks of life started bursting around the platform, and some kept crashing into my rather impressive (in size) bag, as they tried to navigate their way around, left to right, left to right, in a fluster. City life indeed.

I went down the escalator and then I looked out of the entrance. And I froze for a moment, before I almost feling like flailing my arms.

As I tapped my card and exited, I ran up to guy, and he walked up to me. I looked at my watch.

"What are you doing here?"

"Waiting for you?" he replied.

"What? What? Why are you waiting for me? Is there something wrong?"

"No, I just got released, and you told me you'd be done with your NAPFA at around 5 plus. So I decided to wait a bit and hit my luck. I am lucky. You don't change the way you go home."

"There's no point in changing the route taken, right? After all, you ARE just going to go home." I kind of narrowed my eyes as I spoke matter-of-factly.

"You know it adds colors to your life." he argued. Ah, yes, he always loves to be the correct one. Fine. I didn't start an altercation with him. We started walking away.

"So, how was NAPFA test?"

"Huh? Erm... Pretty bad. As compared to last year, maybe. I haven't been practicing, haven't been running, haven't been doing plenty of stuffs. But it's not I really care... So yeah. I didn't do that good. But I didn't fail any of the stations. Except for sit-ups, that is. I only did 8..."

"Sit-ups? You actually failed sit-ups?" There he goes again. Typical Yuxuan. (Yes, his name is Yuxuan. I have lots to say about Yuxuan, more of complaining and ranting of this seriously evil person, but I'd do that another time.)

"Is there anything seriously wrong with that?"

"8 sit-ups... Pfft..." He started to laugh. Right in front of me. Deep inside I was cursing him.

"What? I just could not keep my hands cupped to my ears! It's just... something I can't do! Stop laughing..."

"Pfft.... Hahahaha! Seriously... 8 sit-ups. Oh my god it is too funny."

"No, it's not..."

And along the way I was further criticized by him for my apparent 'dead sports cells' residing within my body, as quoted from him and after a while we were talking about other stuffs. Because it was raining and apparently he had no umbrella, I had to LEND him mine right after I walk home. It sucks- because you have no idea when he intends on returning to you. But I know he would, soon enough. I see him every week, so he's not going to escape from my clutches.

And FYI, here's what Shinn, told me after I related the incident to him, notice the big difference in response:

"Well, it's better than nothing... I mean, sometimes you just need to think about it from another angle and realize that you are full of flaws. And this is what makes life interesting. By having failed those sit-ups, you have something to blog about. Something to laugh about. Something to joke about. Something to think about. But if you have simply did everything so well, there's actually nothing much to it, more than the hunger for better results. So, in a sense, having failed, isn't it better?"

Gentleman from upstairs VERSUS Devilman from downstairs.

Huh.

It had been interesting, for sure.

Thanks, guys!

(Not you, Yuxuan. You ruined my day. Yes, you did.)

.

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Okay. You know I was joking about that. 'Ruined'. I am not exactly that sensitive. But your words are always harsh. Not that I never mentioned it to you before in your life.

Signing off,

D3stinyx

It ends, in cold blood.

2010-04-09T09:07:00.000-07:00

There was that trickle of blood that tainted my window of vision.

It probably just hazed it a little, as it slowly crept it's way down, inch by inch- the smudge of cruelty.

I raise a hand, my fingers gently caressing the blood, carefully rubbing them away delicately with the tips. There- it was, undeniable evidence of the aftermath of what I had commited.

A sin.

An irreversible sin.

"You... You... Goddamned daughter of the Holy Mother! Perish... Perish..." Seconds faded into oblivion and his voice grew weaker and softer in decibels. He buckled to his knees, grabbing a penetration spot near his chest, now only a black hole with gushing red liquid pouring out from within that was visible.

My eyes flashed.

This man is dying, I told myself, and yet I do not feel anything. Not at all.

Just like his dessicating organs, mine were hollow, beating machines, that worked and pumped just because they were designed to. Did, because they were told to. All the emotions that might have connected in some way to another, it got snipped from the original source and discarded into faze.

The man limped, painstakingly, towards me. He was grabbing, grasping, reaching out his bloodstained fingers as far as he could, trying to grab hold of me, trying to bring me down to hell with him.

I watched. Apathetically.

"You..." he huffed, his breath shortening, his lungs cutting off the oxygen supply involuntarily- it just could not hold on any longer.

I smiled.

Probably the only different expression I had for the entire night.

I reached out the hand.

The hand that pulled the trigger.

The hand that snatched away the life off this man mercilessly.

Oh, it did feel good.

Kill.

Kill more!

Humanity does not deserve to live.

I did not say anything else.

The hand that I reached out apparently brought, along with this sick scent of rotting death- a warm light that gently encircled my body and brings me into an extraordinary embrace.

--

For one, the dream did feel, to a certain level of insanity- good.

I, for one, am a psycopathic teenager who actually revels in writing murder scenes and have no problems reconstructing such scenes in my maybe-scrawny head. True, I abhor crimes. Does abhorring crimes mean you cannot write in the perspective of a killer? What makes killer, kill? What is it in them that sets them off? An unhappy childhood? A certain grudge? A certain, deep, longing, deep pursuing of something materialistic?

You might think I'm falling into the traps of violence and may never be crawling out of this whirlpool of vengeance. Maybe. Who is to know what is to happen in the future? Who is to know when I decide to leave a screw loose? But either way, this dream struck me of all days- on a day I was suffering from fever. That's why I say most of the times, luck CAN choose the time. Sure, it can.

I woke up and blinked a few times. Maybe.

Maybe there's a second me residing in this empty shell of me.

Who is to know for sure?

For a person like me,

Who fails to truly fathom what life is all about, why life actually came to be, why there is life, why are there humans, why are humans constructed to be this way, why is it imperative to breathe, why is imperative to eat, why must there be digestion, why is this world actually here in the first place- I feel as light as an empty shell, trying to absorb as much as I can from this unrealistic, reality.

There would come no such day as a day of answers.

Anticipate, and be disappointed.

What is the truth?

Who is to say that it is the truth?

How much do we know, exactly?

--

As usual, some Jaejin-madness. The video was pretty long, but it was all Jaejin-biased. I know, somebody has to love me for this.

Followed by the second youngest!

SONG SEUNG HYUN! AWW. <3

AND OHMGEEEEEEEEEEEE it's Jong Hun. OH Crap. Seriously. OH Crap. This video. Is. Just. Friggin. AMAZING. OH CRAP. SO. MANY. PICTURES. OH CRAP.... I'M. LOSING. MY. SANITY. CRAP!!!!! I mean seriously I love this slideshow. It's really amazing. Glad I found it. Please enjoy, people! :D

I shall end here!

Do you understand 'Destiny'?

2010-03-27T01:21:00.000-07:00

I haven't been updating much these few days. It's not exactly true that I did not have time for this blog, it was just that I was too tired to really update it. I came home everyday and simply dozed off halfway. I have no idea how the fatigue came to be. I hope it would slowly dry up- because I can't afford to be tired. I simply can't. When I'm tired, I'd chuck all my homework one side, and not touch them till the next day, probably in school. So anyway, today I'm up to some blogging. I don't have much to blog about, anyway.

Last Sunday, I went to East Coast for a short 'picnic'. When we reached, it drizzled, and I was having my hopes dashed for my long-awaited picnic. However, the drizzle soon faded into history and the weather, as described by my ebullient Mother, was 'perfect' for our picnic. There were no signs of the scorching, blistering sun, and it was cooling, refreshing; perhaps a little cold, but not cold enough to freeze.

My Father, brother and I rented bikes and off we went for the journey. As usual, my Father and little brother, the lightning bolts, sped away into the distance, overtaking numerous people along the way, and apparently the word 'safety' probably didn't really exist in their minds. On the other hand, I was always cautious, looking around, cycling slower when there were people around, and so, I cycled significantly slower. Though, my bike was ABSOLUTELY AWESOME. The wheels feel as though on ice- not that I have lost manipulation over them, just that they are so smooth and I feel as though I'm just gliding down the lanes.

Along the way, we stopped around 3 times, 2 to drink H-TWO-O that I had insisted that we buy for this trip, and the other time to purchase ice cream from a roadside parlour. Well, when cycling back to rental store to return the bikes after cycling for like, 15km, I managed to get my Dad and brother to take a turn and drive into the 'harbour' where several people were standing around, their fishing lines in hand. Yes, indeed, they were fishing there. I had always wanted to fish- but probably I didn't have the skills, the rod, the time, and the location.

When I pedalled in, I instantly saw a man, in his late fourties, pulling up the rod, and setting a green, horned fish on the land. The fish, instinctively, was jumping, tussling about the land, gasping for breath. It's flaps, or rather, the gills, were opening and closing frantically, its final attempt at survival. The man stared at it, kicking it around a little to inspect it's species. My brother gasped, "RIVER MONSTERS!" I laughed a bit, it was most likely an insider's joke. There was this show, on Discovery, called, "River Monsters' hosted by Jeremy Wade, biologist and extreme angler, and I, sorry, ADORE the show. I watch it every Tuesday night, at 10pm. I watched the fish carefully too, noticing the horns and it's rough, green scales, wondering what kind of fish is it to be inhabiting in the supposedly 'nondescript' waters of Singapore.

The fisherman stared at it, a little disappointed and told his family members by the side, "Don't know what it is. Don't eat it. Put it back." Then, with a swing of his leg, he kicked the fish back into the waters. I was a little disappointed that he did not keep it- maybe he could keep it, for memoirs. If my Dad and I were fishing, we would have done that. It's a pretty special fish, and could we sell it too, I wonder? I'm not too sure about laws in Singapore, to be frank. So I don't know. But if we could sell a rare fish, wouldn't that roll the wads in?

And here's what- while I was cycling out of the harbour, I crashed with another bike. Yes, oh, so like me. The clumsy me. Actually, we both didn't see each other. His bike was huge, though, so, okay, I understand the point. I'm stupid. Okay fine. So I fell to the side and my Father and Brother cycled on, oblivious to what happened. I was feeling like crap and I hurriedly got up, realizing it has been ages since I last fell off my bike. I felt really stupid and embarrassed and the fishermen behind my back was watching.

I got up, and looked ahead of me, and there was a Eurasian guy. Blonde, cool, styled hair, and at that point, I couldn't really judge his features. He was fairly built, a nice body, to be exact. And quite tall, well, expected of the foreigners. At that moment, I felt even more stupid. Throwing my face in front of a foreigner and his family, since there were some people around him helping him up.

I reached out a hand towards him. "Are you okay?" I asked him. Well, the most normal, and ordinary question. He looked up at me, and grabbed my hand. I froze and jerked, like seriously. I wasn't seeing that coming. Most of the times people just got up on their own- and me reaching out my hand was out of instinct. When he grabbed my hand, it felt so out of place. But either way, I reacted quickly and grabbed back his, pulling him back up, knowing it was weird to hold out your hand and yet not sincere in lending the helping hand.

"I'm really sorry!" I kept repeating the sentence. And I leant forward, bent over and inspected his body, OKAY, it's not meant in the perverted way, please, just checking for wounds- in hopes of making myself feel better. There wasn't any on his arms or legs, and I heaved a sigh of relief.

He looked up at me, and smiled. Oh crap. He and Shinn both shared that dreamy, electrocuting-like smiles that just zapped right past your ribcages and affects your heart directly, raising the heartbeat per minute. He had a pair of deep, penetrating azure eyes and he stared into mine. If he were a girl, I would have just stood there, mesmerized and even commented on that set of beautiful eyes, but he was a guy so it would be really flirtatious a coquette of me to be gazing into them longingly, so I sent my eyes to the floor, and smiled to the floor, while it was meant to reply to him.

"Haha, never crashed my bike before," His voice matched with his accent was absolutely terrific. I loved his voice, as much as I loved Shinn's.

"Ah..." I grinned and nodded my head, grabbing my bike and briefly pushed it forth, knowing it was a gawky situation and the family members were all grinning down at me. I didn't feel like I should stay there any longer, because I was getting really, really embarrassed.

"Have you?" he asked, bringing his bike up as well.

"No... Not really. But I'm quite clumsy... Yeah. So sorry!" I took a small bow and I was thinking he was going to just let me pass. But he didn't. So I stayed, trying to control my own emotions, and keeping my composure. The family did not say anything but just stepped one side to buy some drinks from the stall beside. So funny about how I landed beside that stall, so conveniently.

"Man... Singapore's really hot. How do you guys live with it?" he asked.

I felt ridiculed. I didn't think he would try to make friends with me.

Someone, as ugly as I was? Sweaty and lacking fashion sense? It felt almost unbelievable. He was almost as stupid, if not as stupid as my best guy friend from Japan. I stood there, not sure if I should really answer his question, but I did anyway.

"Yeah! Yeah! Exactly! But this is not the worst. It just drizzled a little earlier on. My mum says this is a really good weather to be cycling." I kind of fiddled with my bike's handles, and my eyes kept looking around, wondering how my Dad and brother could have simply missed out my existence.

"That's quite true... Oh, sorry, you are in a hurry to leave?" He kind of noticed my anxiety.

I forced a laugh and nodded, looking a little perturbed.

"Oh! Oh! I'm really sorry about this." His accent almost made me laugh but I made sure I contained myself.

"You have an email right?" he asked.

"What? Sorry?" I requested for a repeat.

"Email. You know, email. Or anything. Online games' users. Do you play any online games or... Anything."

"Ah. Email." I stoned, remembering all my crappy e-mail names.

"How about you give me yours? Mine's a little... I don't really want to say it."

"Oh, oh, it's okay... Just give it to me!"

"... You know... Erm, Lacus Clyne?"

"Lacus Clyne...? Oh... The... Japanese animation character?"

"Yeah! Yeah! Do you know how to spell?"

"Kind of. I could surf the net."

"Okay. That name, and 28 at the back. That would be hotmail address."

"Lacusclyne28?"

"Yeah."

"Oh okay! I'd add you up!"

"Oh! Okay... Thank you!" I gave another bow and he waved at me.

I felt like staring at him with enlarged eyes, but I refrained myself and just smiled and waved at his family as well who were waving at me and we went in separate directions.

So well, the next day, I saw him adding me up.

Till now, we have chatted for about... 3 times. He's a real, nice guy, expert in drums and occasionally plays basketball. I didn't talk to him much, as of now. I just asked the basic questions.

I really don't understand much about destiny.

A story, prewritten?

Something that follows our choices?

--

And oh! Today, during club, I saw something really, really awesome. A real spider, spinning a web, in real time! Oh my god, I watched it so intensely- crap, I loved it. I don't like it near me though, but it was good, seeing all that web just... spurting out, and it creating the web. IT WAS FRIGGIN' AWESOME. NO BETTER WORD TO DESCRIBE IT.

Well, I shall end off with some FTI-fandom!

This is Kiss, by Sandara Park. It's actually really nice. The song and the video. Even though I don't like how the love really starts and ends- the starting was crappy, and the ending was really heartbreaking. The middle was the BEST. My style of story-writing, actually. No wonder it intrigued me. GREAT MINDS THINK ALIKE. OMO. Not.

I'm not great, remember? xD

MINHWAN AND JONG HUN. THEY ARE LOVED.

(DO NOT WATCH IF YOU ERM. CAN'T STAND. ERM. YOU KNOW. O.O)

JAEJIN, HONGKI AND JONG HUN LOVE.

They are old videos easily attainable on Youtube, but I just felt like spreading their dorkiness and cuteness. Don't like them, SCRAM. I don't really need to know how you feel, this is my blog, and it is HOW I FEEL. Besides, my love for them is real.

I don't care how people think of FT Island, think they are not as good as Super Junior, as good as SHINee, as good as DBSK (omg, the king band?), as good as Big Bang... But hey, I love the rest of those bands too, so do I deserve this from you guys, as their fans? I deserve some respect for my favorite band. How do you feel if you are being ostracized for no apparent reason? Just because you are not as good as another person? Not as good as another band? So what if other people were more 'awesome' than them? Can sing better? Can dance better? It didn't actually matter. It's chemistry. There's something in them that I see, and that I adore. I don't need others' approval stamp. I know many people think they are lacking much as an entire band- but hey, I don't care. I don't care if people think Hong Ki is ugly, think he sucks (especially after that epic episode of Dream Team) because I, for one, loved how he failed, it was just so adorable. It was so embarrassing and I was covering my face- even though I wasn't even him. But on the other hand I couldn't stop laughing. Why, oh why, HONGKI? xD

PRIMADONNA♥

JAEJIN AH~

2010-03-20T08:00:00.000-07:00

So, the holidays are coming to an end. It was not exactly a 'holiday' to start off with, as described by majority of my friends, as the pile of homework that sat on our desks was so amazing and scary at the same time- and we practically used up the entire holiday finishing them. (Not for me, sadly. I ditch homework for precious sleep, but either way, I've done most of them, EXCEPT for Maths.) But either way, how can one week prove to be sufficient? Many of us are down for camps, CCA, remedials, and plus all the homework, how does one really get to enjoy?

Me? I watch, save, read about FT Island all day long. It really keeps me going. In the holiday, I did not really get to do much. I finished my 1/2 Heart newest chapter, which is a major win- but I failed to come up with Koi, which must be a letdown to most of my readers, but I cannot help it, since the next chapter plot for Koi is still somewhat shaky and unstable. I need more fresh ideas- and I need them fast. I would lay out the story structure in school, most likely. Then, I would begin to type. Not sure when though, but I hope soon.

NEWS' Sakura Girl came out. Okay. So, everyone's rambling about how JE's standards seems to be dropping. Well, they did release lots of singles in the early part of the year, but a lot of fans wonder if it was all done in a flurry? Take for example, KAT-TUN. Their new song Love Yourself was kind of... suckish. Even though I for one don't really this band, I admit that their songs such as Rescue and stuff from last year was good. At least, to me. Love Yourself PV sucked so much that I couldn't stand looking at it and bloody Akanishi was so friggin' ugly in it it made the PV look like utter thrash. The PV was unbelievably cheap and no one understands the meaning of that poorly-made heart shaped rock used in the PV as the sole ornament/back drop.

I listened to the full radio rip of Sakura Girl ages ago and it kind of made me lose the interest to listen to the song again, since I can sing to the whole song and I have listened to it over a 1000 times before. I'm not kidding about the figure. Sakura Girl was pretty catchy and I was just over the moon to hear Tegoshi's voice. When I first heard the song, I was imagining a PV full of Cherry blossoms fluttering about, in a park, and the NEWS members supposedly walking around in a park or something, singing, with happy voices, and images of a girl walking about. I was thinking it would be somewhat of a happy song, since it was meant for the Graduation Ceremony that already happened in Japan on March 14th. Shinn said that day is deemed as the saddest of all days, and they made a sad PV for it even. It is somewhat... unfitting. Even people such as Shinn himself, who rarely shed a tear- cried on that day. Somewhat. He said he had tears, but I don't think he was bawling and creating a scene or anything like that.

So, well. Everyone hates Yamapi's hairstyle. Okay. Fine. Ryo got slapped. O.O Okay... Fine... Koyama, Yamapi, Massu's scenes were somewhat, weird. Okay they had the sad look on, though like what Miki had described Yamapi looked like some kind of impatient guy waiting for the train, or maybe got annoyed at some prank call or something, and Koyama just covered his face- it's not that much of an act to show his sadness. I'm not saying everyone has to cry like Tegoshi did... Aww... But perhaps, a little more? I was disappointed. Koyama's scene was a repetitive of Tegoshi's. Read a letter. Thrown apart. Can't they have something else? And Massu's and Yamapi's scenes were somewhat literally the same. Other than Massu would really make people go AWWW NO. ;_;

All right. So yesterday, I successfully... *cough* forcefully *cough* got Miki to like FT Island! HOORAY! We are twins, after all! We always like the same stuffs *cough* It's a miracle why it happens, but I don't really want to go figure it out. Just let it be. I love to have twins!!!! So either way I bugged her into liking FT Island, and she said they all looked cute. I was so, so happy!! I don't know, I guess it's because we are twins? And I really hope she would like them, somehow, too. But yet on the other hand, I feel kind of... uneasy. Well since it feels like I just dumped everything upon her and is forcing her to like something. I get the feeling she's kind of reluctant to like FT Island. If that's the case, NOOOOOOO! I'm not forcing you DDDDD: I treasure you as my twin, so it's okay if you don't like them... Don't want to sour our relationship DDDDDD:

Well, anyway, Miki commented that Jaejin's cute. And I jumped. "OH MY GOD TOTALLY. 8D" It's so friggin' true! Ignoring how he first debuted, he's really super cute. And I have evidences to prove my point. For example, take a look at this photo.

Jaejin in Goofy suit. Shared it with Miki yesterday. SO CUTE. OmO

Lee Jae Jin <3

And then, here's a video showing another side of him, both adorable and funny... And probably... Protective of his hair? O.o Either way, I really love him. And all of FTI. They are all so adorable in their own ways. They may not be an idol group, but it suits me just fine. Them being the boy band they are, is perfect. Hope they stay the way they are, separated from the malice of the music industry, and not fall trap to evilness. If they end up like 2PM, the next time, it would be my turn to cry.

Seung Hyun and Jaejin dancing to Heartbeat. It's not the full version. The below's Part 2. It's super funny, that is, to me. Heartbeat is a song from 2PM. You can go watch the PV if you never did to get the full effect of the humor.

This is the continuation.

Seung Hyun's so dorky and Jaejin's so adorable in trying to teach him.

Jaejin, well, stole all the limelight. Seung Hyun's too shy <3

Sad to Say ; No More ; This Is Not A Game ; Jealous

2010-03-09T05:44:00.000-08:00

I am, in particular a J-pop and K-pop music fan.

Though, to be frenetic, I'm much more obsessed with Japanese pop than anything else. Despite the fact that I'm a Chinese myself, Chinese pop always fail to attract my attention, especially the load of songs coming out from Chinese industries nowadays. Sure, the usual, old, veteran singers of the industry are still doing a good job with their songs, such as JJ Lin and Jay Chou, Rainie Yang, but the rest of the new singers that seem to flood onto the TV everyday- I doubt their abilities, quite a bit.

I am sure those who are avid Japanese music lovers should have heard of her at least, Jasmine. She's one of my favourite female singers, as I dig her talented, awesome, soulful voice, her individualism, and style. My other favourite female Japanese singers include the almighty Yui-hime, and the Queen of Jpop, Ayumi Hamasaki, and I know it sounds weird, but where would Ikimonogakari go without their awesome female vocal? SHE'S FREAKING AWESOME. And not forgetting, another Queen, UTADA HIKARU.

For some time there was the talk about Jasmine being the next Utada, but of course, we all know that's not possible. There's a huge gap in their music styles, and personalities. We all know Jasmine is pouring off huge amounts of youth, aged at 19 herself, while Utada is a veteran in this industry. Utada will always be her idol, as she stated. Also, Utada is much more... reserved than Jasmine is? If you watched Sad to Say, you would fathom what I was implying. However, in terms of voice, Jasmine would NEVER lose. There would be a tough par.

Jasmine is known to fans best through her constant 'cosplays' done in all her albums. First, she wears a PINK wig in her first single- Sad to Say, and then she changes to turquoise in No More, RED in This is not a Game and now, in her latest single ever- I just saw the video TODAY, she got herself a purple outfit, with purple hair. Some of Jasmine's fortes are of course her voice, her song compilation, and of course undoubtedly the lyrics themselves. Her lyrics are meaningful, some thing I look for in every song. Meaningful lyrics.

Her flaws include somehow repetitive melodies in her songs, and her lack of movement in the videos. She barely moves in almost all her PVs except for Sad to Say, where she was seen WALKING, and Sad to Say was apparently criticized for her exposing clothes, which I saw as her individual style instead. In No More, the movement cut down, and This is Not a Game it got a LITTLE better, maybe, and in her NEWEST Jealous, she does not move AN INCH.

It's the exact same posture as the one depicted in her album cover- I wonder if there is a deeper meaning to it?

I'm looking forward to her next album cover. Everyone seems to be hoping for a yellow look. Maybe? I just want to see her next image. And I hope to see more movement from her. So what if the video looks bleak and she does not move? When you listen to this on I-pod, you only LISTEN to the song, and the song itself is satisfying. You don't watch the video. If you don't like Jasmine, shoo. I LOVE HER. I'm looking forward to an album where she's going to do a BALLAD. Imagine her voice in that song. I'm sure it would be a blast. But somehow, she's sticking with her style, a more upbeat, more rock-kinda song. I respect her for that, but am still praying.

This is her Jealous PV. It reminds me of Ayumi's Rule, does it not?

Tomorrow, there is a double E-maths period. I don't know, preparations for my makeshift grave is already underway. I'm preparing to fall deep into it and into my deep slumber for the whole of tomorrow. I hope to be seeing all of you around soon- the time when I see the daylight again.

I love the song, and I'd be humming to it.

But wait- I can't get over FTI's Raining either.

Hong Ki is another huge influence!

Kojo no Tsuki; 荒城之月

2010-03-06T05:26:00.000-08:00

My body has recently been automatically set to wake up EXACTLY at 5.30a.m. I have come up with the theory that perhaps it has been the time that I've been constantly waking up at, so much that my body has somehow grew accustomed to it, and am getting up straight once that time is reached. It's somehow cryptic, and I have found myself marvelling to such a rare sight, since waking up at 5.30 over a span of days without the aid of the boisterous side-kick- was such an eye-boggle.

After the Chinese Orchestra session, I went to have my lunch. I finished a whole bowl of my favourite U-mian, complete with four full bowls of mouthwatering, super hot chilli that the store always offers- and I drank down all the soup. Sure enough, even though I was drenched in sweat from top to toe, I felt strangely contented. I even craved for more of that relishing soup. Too bad, I guess I have to wait another week before I fulfil my tastebud's desires. Dad thereafter drove me home, and I watched on mercilessly as my brother, will all his concerted efforts, hugged a near-5kg watermelon back home.

After I settled down on the couch in my cosy residence, I proceeded to watch television. Well, there wasn't actually much on air, but I did grasp the chance to catch 48 Hours Hard Evidence, and curse the 'Chief Police' who commited suicide, not forgetting to take the life of his beloved, devoted wife.

Apparently the show depicted one of the vicious sides of humans that I've come to actually love, as I study humanity under close scrutiny. Cover ups. Corruptions. Briberies. What is the key ingredient to greed? How did greed come to exist? I've come to see flaws as a way of reaching equilibrium, if everyone was perfect, this world... would be a drastically different place. Though this world is as wrecked up as it is, imagine someone who could do everything. Someone who was utterly perfect. Wou;d there even be the existence of 'stars'? Would there really be a need for entertainment media? Envisage a mundane lifestyle.

After that show, there weren't anymore kick-ass shows for for my viewage. As what I would normally do, I switched on my most beloved technological equipment present in my room, what humans would tend to call a 'computer', and sat in front of it, accessing dozens of websites. I re-visted several of JE's songs, songs that included the up and coming song from NEWS, my ichibans, titled Sakura Girl, (to which I'd add the radio rip of the full song over here, since I'm their hardcore fan! 8D) Troublemaker, from the kings (?) Arashi and not forgetting the underaged (ummm...) Hey! Say! Jump!'s Hitomi no Screen.

HSJ's PV was kinda... In my point of view, insane and... queer. Well, I'm already not taking into considerations that their PV really doesn't have much of a purpose, but it is still a crazy PV with a pretty decent song. JE songs generally don't have much to worry about. Take a look at the (oji-sans -cough-) V6 band. Well, I don't know, I ALWAYS love them. So, a bunch of pure, innocent, cute, cuddly guys -cough- holding samurai swords in a badly choreographed swordplay and their best efforts in trying to make it look real ends up in a complete mess. And the PV concentrated SO MUCH on Yamada Ryosuke. I mean, well... It's not like Yuri Chinen is not equally popular or something. I'd add the video for all to watch later on.

Afterwards, I had dinner, and prepared myself for guitar. I arrived at the studio, possibly a little fidgety, as my teacher started with a Tango-styled Jazz, as one of the elderly, respected (well I respect him) co-student filmed it down with his camera. To see him play the song so diligently, his eyes fixed on the score, well, I really hope I can do it too. Though, I'm completely devoid of even the slightest of musical talent, so... Well, seeing the fact that I'm a slow learner too, I decided to give up that thought, as for now, and just try my best.

When the teacher made his round around the students and finally came to me, I smiled meekly at him. That kind of expression that tips him off that I had not really been practicing much, and that I'm not going to perform some stupendous performance before his very eyes and soothe his ears. He looked at me and replayed the song he told me to practice, and told me to get on with it. A little reluctantly, I revisted the song, he came back, most probably annoyed at my progress, and told me to move on.

So I did, and he chose the extension of positions as my next topic. When I saw it, my eyes gleamed. Now, that's an easy practice. I was exuberant over it. I started practicing, he came back, nodded his head, and told me to practice a song. "It's a Japanese song." My eyes gleamed the second time. Did you just say J-J-JAPANESE?!

That song was titled Kojo no Tsuki. It's quite a saddening song, with a depressing tune as the title of the song suggests. However, I had one hell of a time playing it. The melody was VERY much to my liking, and I was finally glad to have finally strummed to the rhapsody of a Japanese composition. I was quick in finishing the song, and my teacher up-ped the level of difficulty. Considering I've been learning guitar for over half a year, it should really be a piece of cake, but well, I struggled a bit. And that was when lessons ended.

I hummed the song on my way home.

Anyway, people, if you ever see Josephine, do remember to call her Jurong Point! Don't ask questions, JUST DO IT. (Yeahhhh, FT. Island, I love you guys too.)

This is Sakura Girl by NEWS. Radio-ripped. Not done by me. The PV has yet to be released. Still waiting eagerly for it. But most likely, Yamapi will the one getting the most limelight. Which sucks, undoubtedly. I mean, where's TEGOSHI?! WHERE'S MASSU? But wait- I don't like Massu with his new perm anyway. In case you are wondering, Tegoshi's voice comes in at the 3:40 interval. 8D His ANGELLIC VOICE! 8DDD And he's the second one from the left in this video. Totally CUTE and IRRESISTABLE. And Yamapi's hairstyle in this picture sucks. Perish in hell, his hairstylists.

And here's the Hitomi no Screen PV. The face you see the most number of times, is Ryosuke. Oh well. See what I mean by the innocent faces holding samurai swords. Such irony.

Signing off,
D3stinyx

And OH YEA, I'M GONNA MAKE MY BROTHER UPGRADE HIS PSP. IMMA GONNA PLAY REAL RODE 8D

Jang Geum Suk- Goodbye

2010-02-27T23:56:00.000-08:00

Does anyone know how to put an embed mp3 file into the background of your blog? I've been trying, but there doesn't seem to be a way out. Either way, hope you guys like my new blogskin! Featuring FT Island. Hong Ki looks a little distorted in some of the pictures, so bah. I want to add this song, but I can't. Anyone knows? This blog is very short because my eye, stomach, and practically entire body hurts and aches. So I can't continue. Will do a proper one sometime later.

Life Full Of Lies

2009-11-11T18:33:00.000-08:00

Okay, so hello everybody! It's the morning now, and apparently, I have no breakfast. Seriously. Ran out of snacks, and I have absolutely nothing to eat. So while starving, I decide to divert my attention by typing a blog post. Probably a short one, judging from my dull and dreary life.

I finally finished the CAP workshop. Yesterday we all began typing our final essay. I wouldn't say I was proud of my work, or neither did I think it was great. Everything was so cropped up and brought over simply. I hate it when my works are restricted like that. All restricted to meet the expectations of the teacher of 750 words. I know many of you think that's a lot of words- but not for someone like me. I had to basically crop and erase a lot of points, making the final piece of essay look like crap. IT WAS CRAP.

I enjoyed writing it other than having to relinquish lots of parts. Bah. I loved the idea, and it was the kind of story I was good at writing. Something that touches on life.

The group of CAP students is generally comprised of Sec 3s and Sec 2s, and probably only ONE Sec 1. Okay. So most of the Sec 3s are obsessed with deaths. Character dying and stuff. And they loved to argue with the trainer over it. The trainer was strict and firm, "NO DEATHS!" and they were arguing why. Throughout the entire session, that was pretty funny, but most of the times I end up raising a brow and wondering, "Why would they want to argue about that? JUST WRITE THE BLOODY ESSAY."

Well, the title of my essay is, "Genie in a Jar". Sounds pretty cool, huh? xDD But the truth is, it has nothing to do with my inspirational picture. Bah. Who cares.

Ariel, who sat beside me, wrote about war and poverty. And her title was Happiness. I wished I could be like her. Her work was simple and sweet. Though of course, if not for RESTRICTIONS, she'd have done a better job. As in, elaborating on points, because in hers, everything was kinda just brought over as well. If we could just write freely, I bet everything would have been so much better for us. Well, maybe I think that way because I write stories and tend to be more long-winded.... >< I was just disappointed.

Fate's An Evil Pathmaker

2009-10-29T04:25:00.000-07:00

Today I lay on bed.

Today I lay on bed, staring at the ceiling.

Today I lay on bed, asking,

"Why is my life in such a wrecked up state?"

Firstly, I shall start off with a cordial greeting to everyone who even bothers to read this humble post of mine. It's been ages; probably an eternity since I last updated this blog. I hasn't even the slightest desire to update, till probably, today. I was a little messed up.

Today's the last day of school for the Year 2009. I would have to say 2009 has been an enriching year for me. I feel I've grown, I feel I've come to terms as to the fact about "flawed humans", I've come to deepen my obsession with English and Literature, and I've also been able to experience things I'd rarely have the chance to. Would I say it has been a great year in school and so forth? Probably. It's a hard tie, a 50-50.

In School:

1) I had to get used to aggravations.

I never expected that it would all happen all over again. I don't fathom why there are always beings out there who see me as a "worthy human". Even if I sat there the whole day, I could barely finish listing all my negative points. Am I pretty? Heck no. Am I slim? Heck no. Do I have a good brain? Heck no. Am I good in sports? Heck no. Am I good in Maths or Science? Heck no. Am I a fun and friendly person? Heck no. Do I make the right choices in life? Heck no. Maybe, yes, indeed, I am someone with qualities that people look up to, but other than that, I'm comparable to nothing than a pile of dust that people can easily blow off and forget about. So, sometimes, when I hear of those kind of incidents that would aggravate me, I'd start wondering why. Why. Why me?

2) No CCA

Well, as expected, this tiring and bothersome problem has been on my list for ages. And I don't blame it on no one but myself. All these accumulated problem... All these mountains of obstacles... They were left there to add by myself. I left the thing alone, due to all my personal difficulties... Such as overwhelming fear, unwilling-ness to face the problem, and everything resulted in my 'today'. A 'today' where I'm still left helpless and desperate, hoping for a better future but unsure of what to do next. Sometimes, I hate myself as an individual. No one is born perfect. And people always hate themselves for what they lack in. So do I, unfortunately. Now I'm left, in pitch darkness, groping my way around, facing the terrifying aftermath all by myself. I have friends, I have family, but they can't be able to help me in everything. Their light that they exude is equivalent to a firefly in pure darkness- helpful yet insignificant.

3) Growth in Personality

I revelled in the thoughts of my growth as a person. As a human being. As a person still keen on living on in this harsh and acrid world. Maybe a year ago, I was still someone even quieter and less confident than who I am today. But right now, I think, I'm more confident, and I never felt as fraught with as I used to when during presentations. I might still be nervous and fidgety, but I was definitely much more confident in delivering my speeches and feeling more comfortable speaking up. It's a good sign. Also, I'm becoming too positive in these 2 years. Something I find astounding. And I repeat, and also highlight, "TOO". I'm so positive that I'm always so cheerful. I seem to have found a motto for myself. I want to be someone who always can keep his/her smile on at all times. I LOVE to smile. Though sometimes, I find it hard to.

And either way, speaking of schools, I received a Distinction for Writing! Pretty awesome, huh? xDDDDD I was laughing so hard when I saw my name in the Swiss Peaks. Distinction is good enough... But as compared to those who got high distinction... You'd feel really embarrassed, wouldn't you? Not doing as good. I mean, I didn't even get a thing for English. LOL. I must have failed pretty epic-ly. :P

And today, 29 October should be one hell of a day. I woke up remembering I had my CCA to deal with. Instant mood-drowner. I went to school, and saw Serene at the bus stop just beside my block. I boarded the bus real soon, and at the next stop, saw a frantic Xiaowei rushing to catch this bus. She boarded it, and I waved at her when she spotted me. She started to smile at me, and I smiled back, though I felt that was pretty fake. I was, after all, worrying about my CCA to be having so much other ounces of energy to smile back radiantly.

I went into class and bla bla bla. And once again, I failed to see the time. I was too engrossed collecting the Reading Survey that I found suddenly on my table. And then I was looking around, and all of a sudden Jun Rong switched off the lights and I jumped. And I was "OH MY GOD! I MISSED AGAIN!" real loud. So well, Jun Rong ushered everyone out of the classroom and I simply went out.

Went for assembly and heard my name announced for getting distinction for writing. I was a little disappointed. I had high hopes pinned for myself after all. But I guess my writing is still not up to standard as of now. I'm going to work doubly hard during the holidays, not forgetting that I still have my maths to brush up on. I went and saw Ms Povan, though I'm not sure that I got back my certificate because a bunch of 2E2 guys took it away and I was more concerned about something I had to get from the staff room than to bother about them who were marvelling and laughing at the certificates.

Afterwards, in class, Ms Rina returned us our report books. That was when things started. I was pretty busy. Running about and stuff. I like my duty as a vice-chair, but sometimes it gets really tiring! So I just ran about, worrying about different stuffs, trying to remember things, hoping they were correct and in order. But apparently, I really have a short-term based memory. And afterwards, after sitting around for the foyer for a long time, we finally got to get onto the bus that finally sent us to our destination. Along the way, I felt sick. Well, it was motion sickness. Thank god there were Jiamin's butterscotch sweets to keep me alive.

Went to the Victoria Theatre and we began our day. The first few checkpoints were pretty okay, but when we reached one, one memorial, I began to sweat a lot. And after walking a longer while, I was totally exhausted. I really couldn't stand the heat, and I was practically just suffering from dehydration pretty bad. There wasn't even a whistle of wind, damn it! So we went around, completed everything and finally went on the boat ride. It was really slow, but well, it was relaxing just to see the waters and just be with your friends, for perhaps, the last time EVER. To go on a field trip like this as classmates, as friends, as people who are in your life.

I was pretty worried the clumsy me would probably topple off the boat and fall into the waters LOL when boarding and alighting the boat, but apparently, my worries were unfounded as I'm dry and in one piece.

Afterwards, we finally could head back to school. FINALLY. We went and waited. Along the way, we took several photos. One of the class, where I knew I was just being stupid and one of the clique. Memories. The only things that would stay with you no matter where you are. We waited for quite a few minutes for the bus to arrive, but apparently it never did. When it did, however, we had to watch 2E1, who came later than us, board that bus. Forget it. So the next bus came minutes later and I really rushed over to it.

We returned and amidst the bus ride, we were informed that we received the Third Prize for this Learning Journey. Wasn't that bad, though we could have done better if not for some stupid Question 2 holding us back. xD We returned, and Ms Rina passed out the booklist along with the Maths WS, and I groaned. No... MATHS!!

And afterwards, everyone dispersed to look at our class. When I went over, many people were hugging, cheering and doing hi-fives with one another. I looked at the board of all the pieces of papers. By then, I heard Jiamin and Amanda were in the same class. 3E3. I quickly took a look at the paper below to find my name when I couldn't find mine in 3E3's paper. And real enough, I found my name. I just kept quiet, not showing any emotion. However, remembering that I had to look out for someone's name, I started to look at it even more keenly. And this caused Jiamin and Jerome to call out to me telling me I was in 3E4. I wasn't even concerned about that. That someone... Was in the same class! I GROANED REAL LOUD. More importantly, another 2 someone were in the same class! All I knew at the time was to keep it to myself and sigh afterwards. Fate was after all, an evil pathmaker.

Some people at this point began crying.

I stared at the board. And I looked back at the class.

There were some things you had to leave behind.

There were some things you get to keep.

It felt like a trade. Like we are doing a business with God from above.

I might not be in the same class as all my friends.

I might not be in a class with people I know really well.

But I guess it didn't matter. I'm glad to have met everyone in 2E3.

In spite of everything, I know I would miss everyone of us in the same class. The exclusion of anyone in 2E3 would always make me feel empty. It's as if everyone holds a place in our class. I mean, to really go and think about it. Everyone is different. Everyone is unique. It is every single one of us in the Class 2E3 of 2009 that really defined 2E3. Without Huiyun and gang, there might not have been laughter in class. Without Kasyfil as well. Without Hwee Ping and Peiling, we wouldn't have anything much to marvel at. Without Jiamin, there might have not been any screaming in class that'd make you go, "... What...?"

In times like these, I'd have wished the tears would come on their own. The thought of the disappearing faces. The thought about the distancing backs. The thoughts about blurring images of my past.

But I'm not waiting for them to come out.

It was all life.

I've grown used to all the torments and daunting fears they throw at our feet that at times like this, I refuse to lift the white flag.

2) In Personal Life

As you all know, I'm actually pretty 'renowned' in the class for having dozens of online buddies. I wouldn't deny that. I DO have several buddies online. After all, many people find it easier expressing themselves on the Internet than in real life. Also, on the cyber world, you can hide behind a veil of mystery, getting other people to guess about your identity instead, and there wouldn't be much of a judging. (Unless of course you post your photos up on the net...)

It was actually this year that the numbers really went on the rise. Now I have perhaps more than 40 peers online, whom I chat on the MSN every single day, both male and female. They are all a bunch of cool people. And just in case you don't know, I found myself a 'twin'. She's TOTALLY just like me. I really adore her as a person. It's as if we can just understand without really asking each other. It's because it's just as good as talking to yourself. I still remember the times I did the presention on Emma for my Everyday Community Hero and everyone was thinking she was someone I made up. Oh please. I really know her. It's up to you to believe!

Of course, as one of you might clearly be in the know of, I actually have a really special friend that I really like. Hopefully not in terms of crush affection- because that'd be totally detrimental, with him being a guy. It's not really surprising that I have a really good friend and he's a guy, is it? And oops, forgetting to add, I find him handsome. xDDDD

A lot of things happened between me and him. It was both cool and the opposite as well. Shan't touch on it so much.

P.S, to my future self, I GOT MY DS!!!!!!!!!!! ON 19th OCTOBER 2009!! FINALLY! FINALLY! HIDORIKAWA-KUN!! PLEASE! PLEASE! YOUR VOICE!!!! *switches on fangirl mode to FULL* AHHHHHHH! You are forever the dazzling prince in my eyes. Listening to you on DS makes me even more ecstatic. Please, please, don't turn your head the other way, don't reject my intimate acts (xP) I just need you to be cool, and be you, and give me the chance and time to waddle into your heart.

P.S.S, to my future self, if you ever read this again, I hope your life is still great. If you are ever going to give up, please read this. Find your own motivation to keep moving on. You can't keep on living like this forever, so you HAVE to do something about it. So go. If you ever feel like quitting, see this. And remember of the day, 29 October 2009, the day you made the pact that you'd strive on no matter what. There is no way out anymore.

HALF OF THE POST WAS DEDICATED TO 2E3 2009 SWISS COTTAGE SECONDARY SCHOOL.

I hope the memories were fond enough for you to remember every soul that ever existed within the walls of the 2E3 classroom. I wish every single one of you the best of luck, the best of luck for the year ahead and the best of luck for the upcoming new year away from your friends.

Everyone is just growing up.

My Heart, My Story

2009-03-18T23:39:00.001-07:00

Ohayou! It is the March holidays, but once again cursed by omen, I'm down with a fever. A slight one, fortunately. Haven't finished much homework, due to the fact that I don't really know how to do them. Like the Science worksheet, who has an idea how to do them? I hate the topic on electricity, never did understand much, but I'm pouring over the contents right about now. My life's still as boring as ever- but fortunately, my imagination is still my only motivation in living. Life is miraculous, and I'm still cherishing it, just that, it's boring for me right now. I'm sure a lot of people feel the same way. Yet, as I breathe in the everyday air, I'm glad I'm alive. If you ever felt like you hated life, don't! Just start thinking- why are you in this world? Why are you the person you are now, and not another person? Why are your parents your parents? Why aren't they someone else? Why are you seeing through your pair of eyes? And everything you experienced and went through so far, why is it you, and not another?

Life is really a mystery- a delightful surprise. Yes, indeed, it's a pain in the ass sometimes, and especially when many things don't go according to how you want them to be, but being alive is already a blessing from heaven. Ah- too many questions about life. I've been basically thinking about such questions when I was 4 years old. LOL. Serious. The first ever question I had when I was four, was "Why am I in this body?" "Why am I seeing through this pair of eyes?" "Why is this world here?" LOL. It is so complex if you really think about it. In the end, I'd just say, "Since it is already like this, just leave it like it is." But sometimes, I just can't resist the temptation to think a little deeper beneath the surface.

I just watched the tennis play off between Federer and Gonzalez. I was like, "YOU! FEDERER! GET YOUR SHOTS RIGHT!" There were so many chances for him to easily defeat Gonzalez, but he missed, made double faults (he always does) and his shots were not that accurate, nor were they fast. I was so, so, so disappointed. Now it's play off between Nalbandian and Nadal. The prior one crushed Nadal in their previous meeting, but that was two years back. Right now, their score is still in the first set, and Nalbandian leading 4-3. But well, Nadal will catch up fast enough. He always slips up at the beginning, but takes total control at the end. Damn, he's good. I'm seeing the proper standard of the world number one, but what world number two?? I was really let down.

Hope to see how their showdown will continue.

XxXxXxXxXx

"I sat by his side, only gazing at his face silently.
I looked at his face, but avoided his eyes when he turned to look.
I had fantasies of me and him, but disregarded those thoughts in school.
He acted ever so normal, and I did, ever so normal, only twisted in the heart.
Sometimes he ignores me, sometimes he prioritizes my existence in his world.
I want to stop all these- my mind calls for an end, but my heart screams a protest.
My love just lingers on- they must be unnoticed, oh they have to be.
When are all the pain ever going to stop? When are they going to fade?
I know, in the distant future, the two of us are bound to be strangers, outsiders to each another's worlds.
I clutch my chest, only hoping not.
For right now, right now, I treasure you more than anyone else.
I thank god, I thank you, for appearing by my side.
Though the feelings turn out to be unrequited, though everything might all end- right now, you just have to know,

How I truly feel about you."

It's not exactly a poem, is it? Okay, I wrote it, but it was for a friend! I made it up in just a matter of seconds.. While I was trying to type it out. She just so happened to tell me her love life, and I just typed this out out of sympathy. She told me, she liked this guy in her class. The guy, she thinks, likes her back, but somehow, things doesn't work. Sometimes he say he likes her, sometimes he say he doesn't. She says he's a shy, shy guy, never really going to say how he truly felt.

I asked her, "Will you tell the guy how you truly felt?"

"I... I... don't know! I mean... I could... But it's... a little embarrassing."

"That might be how he's really feeling too. Maybe he's scared. Just scared of something. Maybe he thinks it's embarrassing. But then, if you really liked someone, just say it. It's a fact, isn't it? No matter how hard you try to deny, if your heart is with that person, then it's just a fact! You are in love with him! What's the use of hiding- there's no use. If you find it embarrassing to say it aloud, write it down. Use another form to express it. Love can be expressed in many ways! If you were ever rejected, then it's even better. You can still, finally move on to find happiness that will come to you eventually." I told her.

And I got slapped on the back, "Someone here is definitely so much more mature than I am. But wait- who was your crush again? Did you confess like how you advised me to?" she gave a playful wink.

"I have a crush?" I asked her.

And seriously, her face darkened as she threatened to end my life- "HOW CAN YOU DON'T KNOW?! And how would I know if you have a crush and who would be your crush if you don't know!!"

Hahaha. That was funny xDD So in order to escape that question, I started singing. =.= The song I sang matched my voice very well, and it came out really nice. I was happy for my achievement. =DD

(And oh yeah, for the sake of my readers, I had gladly make this post... not as complicated. I've edited it for several times now, removing all those words and phrases that are bound to make your jaw drop.)

In any case, I'm signing off! =D Thanks a lot for reading thus far!

D3stinyx; PEIYUN

Apology and Back From Camp!

2009-03-12T23:34:00.000-07:00

So firstly, to that 'passerby' who tagged at my blog just recently, if you are ever reading this, I'd apologize for the previous post, for I should not have posted it online, since there'd be people reading it. That, was my miss. However, I still mean the words I said, that, I apologize, unfortunately, for it is a fact. There's no helping it. You can deny it, but if you really think about it and observe, it's true. I'm not saying everyone in 2E3 is like that, of course there are good people in 2E3, but I'm saying about the class as a whole, so don't feel offended, for I'm really sorry I wrote that on my blog. I'd be more careful in the future.

And erm, you can just leave your name, no problem. You have something to say to me, go on ahead. There's nothing to be shy of. I can accept criticisms, because I'm a human, and no human on this world is perfect. I'm aware of it, so just point out to me. I'm not a very good monitress yes, so do change me if you guys want to. I'm fine with it. And erm, still need others to help me do my job... Hmm... Mind specifying which thing led you to think that way? If possible, I would like to have an explanation, if there was ever any.

I acted airy... Hmm... Well, maybe I did. Without me realizing it. But I definitely did not mean it. Maybe I was just acting like it because I JUST act like that. I'd be more careful. Thanks for pointing out.

And you have any more problems with me or my blog, go on ahead. The tagboard is still free for use. However, if ever possible, I'd hope that what you are saying are not just empty words just meant to criticize me. I hope you'd specifically name out what I did wrong during which activity so that I can improve. Thanks in advance. It's great you love the class that much, and I do hope you can be more understanding towards the rest who actually say something bad about the class, because not everyone is the same as you and love the class like you do. We all have different experiences, you might be more popular in the class, but we are not, coz' we suck and are not as friendly and good as you are. To each his own, it's just like you might like chocolate, and I don't, so when I say chocolates are bad, that doesn't mean you should start hating us. Hope you can get that.

Lastly, sorry about that post. I've removed it, and I hoped you are fine with that.

This Upside-down World

2009-03-02T04:43:00.000-08:00

This year, I thought, would be great, to a certain extent, bearing in mind that I'm still an 'escapee from prison' on the run. I never did realize that things would go for a greater twist that I'd have expected. But yet, every second of our lives, something is changing, be it you, or the world around you. It's an inevitable process of our life- but whether the change is for the good or bad, is out of the point.

I'm not saying no one should not change, but really, the way we were last year were great enough. Sometimes it just confounds me, a great deal in fact, what is happening to the world. Really. Being a human myself, and I find myself finding how the world is growing into- abominable. Human heart is complex, but now, is taking a more detestable change. I'm not saying I'm perfect either, I'm not. But yet, the people around me, what is really going on...

I admit, the world is not like before. And just a few months before, I still thought the world is still a wonderful place. It is, if you think not of the people whose mindsets have changed as time and generations are changing.

So, on to the main day's topic- Wallet being pilfered.

Went back from ET and lifted my skirt. It felt exceptionally light. Noticed my shirt down on the chair, rumpled. I knew something was not right. Reached my hand into the pocket. Felt. There was no wallet. Didn't panick. Looked around. Didn't see any. Checked my bag. Couldn't be in there. Felt inside again to feel that emptiness. Knew it was stolen. A cold shiver ran down my spine, and I told Siuhui about it. She went, "HUH?" and checked her wallet, before calmly and coldly saying that her money was stolen before tossing her wallet on a corner of her table, acting as if nothing even happened. So cool, isn't it, she's better at acting than I am! I could never act as calm as her.

Told Amanda, and she was "HUH?" even louder. Attracted attention of Farah, and she was like, "You collect wallets and you don't put it in?" I was smiling. Feeling really bad of myself, but well, now I've thought it through, not like there was a lot of money inside in any case, so I'd take it that I did it for charity!! =D

Whoever retard/bastard/cad/coquette/b**** did it, it's over. What's lost is lost, and I'm not ever gonna cry over spilt milk. Not like I seem affected by it anyway, maybe because it's not really a considerable sum of money. But really, I laugh at your stupidity. Of all the things you could do, you steal and betray your own integrity. It's you who is living your life, not another. If you want to ruin your life, stain your name in that way, be known to yourself or to the world that you steal money just for the sake of buying whatever you want, suit yourself. Who has the authority to tell you what not to do if you want to dig a path to hell? If I were the people around you, I'd tell you "Go ahead."

There is only one chance in living, so oh well, if you want the money, go get it to your heart's content. There are always much better things than money if you weren't that realistic. Could money buy true love? Nope. Could money buy true happiness? What can money buy? Oh, right. Material possessions. And that's all. It's not like there aren't things that you don't dispose of after all. You throw away your textbooks or burn them after you are done with it, and didn't that cost money? Like, what's the use man... >< You throw away your clothes after you are done with it, isn't it? When it's old, or when it's torn. And that wasted your bloody money too. And what about fashionable bags and accessories? Don't you throw those away too when there's much newer and better ones?

Man, really, use your brain. Why be so desperate and seriously ruin your own lives in your own hands? It's really, really, dumb. Nothing else but to sympathize with your pathetic meager-sized brain than mine. You might be smarter than me, but at least I didn't steal and shrink it on my own. ^^;;

I believe in retribution, even if you don't. You stole my nine dollars, right? May your punishment be ninefold, then. xDD

Feels weird typing it here when the person who did it may not be reading it anyway, but I just want to rant it out. And basically, feel sorry for whoever was that dumb. ^^;; I've read enough on the negative sides of humans and is able to feel so much. I'm always having something to say about humans, really. I wonder why xDDD

D3stinyx

Daisuke Kishio is absolutely awesome!!

2009-02-21T03:12:00.000-08:00

All right, so today, my imagination seems to have seeped out of me. Damn it, I loved it when I kept coming up with all those weird and if-said-out-would-be-bashed ideas yesterday! But well, yea, maybe I should keep them to myself before Shinn comes running after my life with his knife. Okay, so, I'm sorry Shinn. I'd go hang myself, sedate myself, maim myself, drown myself, barbecue myself... Or anymore hideous acts for me to commit to let me writhe in pain?

Like you said, I'm acting strange because I'm actually trying to stay happy. Why, must you always say the right thing?!?! Damn, you see through me, and I can only see through you occasionally. Does this signify the brushing up of my skills? The previous post... Bet you were shocked to a certain level. But come on, my imagination is way crazier than that. It'll make whoever is the victim go "WHAT THE **** DID YOU JUST TYPE?! PLEASE DON'T SAY STUFFS LIKE THAT YOU *****!"

And, yea, Happy Birthday, Shinn! Again, belated. At least the present was sent to you on time, was it not? =D That was the best I could get, it's not like there's anything in Singapore that you can't find in Japan, is there? But in Japan, it's a different scenario. I'd state more stuffs for you to get me later xDD

And besides, I love to call you Shinn, even if that's not your real name. I always wanted to call a guy Shinn sometimes, and since it's actually more of a Japan-ish name, I thought I'd put it on you. I can't call any of my guy friends that- it's utterly weird. Really. Imagine me calling my Afiq friend that. It just doesn't fit.

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I'm feeling so much better this morning. Woke up, and fiddled with my new phone. I think I should really get my wallpaper fixed, that green default one is really not my taste. I'm just too lazy to change it for the time being, everytime I just wake up and I'd keep watching TV till around 3pm. From 11pm to 3pm. As compared to yesterday. And yea, everyone OTHER than Shinn, I'm sorry if my imagination hurt you in a way or another. Haha, Shinn, I've already apologized for a million times in that e-mail I sent, but in any case ,once again, I'm truly sorry. I didn't mean it. It's just a little craziness on my part. Even though you know it and am not angry, since it's not hurtful at all basically, just thought I'd apologize in any manner.

The game I'm playing right now is absolutely awesome, with a bunch of awesome voice actors. Daisuke Kishio, voice of "Dick" in the game, who is the main character, is absolutely, undoubtedly AWESOME TILL I'M SPEECHLESS. He can make the teasing voice so awesome... And I was laughing everytime he said that. His screams... Oh my gosh, just out of this world. It makes me look up to them, and at the same time, I think, I really want to try it out when I grow older, and be part of the voice actors team. Though I may not be recognized, but it's all right but I want to be one, in the future. Really.

萩道彥 too. I don't know his real, English name, but he's awesome. I love his voice recently, since it's really my type. Before actually searching for the voice actors, I already loved these two voices a lot, and I was already wondering who was this good. When I realized, I was completely stunned. So, yea, the same voices appeal the most to me.

And Kousuke Toriumi!! WOOTS! His confession in the game was dazzling. Damn it, damn good!! His voice was really, really good. It fit the role so much that I fell in love with his character! Well, he was hot, too. With an absolutely cute personality, strong... Oh god! xDD

D3stinyx!

Weird dreams, much?

2009-02-20T04:25:00.000-08:00

Oh, lately been sleeping earlier and earlier. I'm just lying on my bed, and ZAP! I'm off into dreamland. When I wake up, it'd most likely be somewhere around 1am, and I'd hurriedly rush to my computer to shut it down. And lately, the dreams that I'm making are weird too. I MAD DREAMS OF 2E3?!?! AGAIN?! FOR 2 CONSECUTIVE DAYS?!?! MAN, I'M NOT WRITING OUT WHAT I DREAMT ABOUT, I'D REALLY KEEP IT PRIVATE, BECAUSE IT HAS TO BE!!

The dreams I made were linked too!! OH MY GOSH, LIKE A DRAMA SERIAL, THIS NIGHT IS EPISODE 1, AND THE NEXT DAY IS EPISODE 2! I was like wondering WHY. I was creeped out when I made the first one, and the second one... Well, you know my reaction. If today there's an Episode 3, I'd be awed, and I'd be glad too, in a sense, since it's kinda cool, for the story is not really ending. I really wished I could write that dream out like a story and continue it based on my wild and crazy imagination. But I don't think that's going to happen, since I want it to happen. Gods always make that happen to me. Boo. I really want an episode 3, but guess I'd have to wait a long long while before I make another E3 dream!

Or maybe they could let me dream about something like a... HOT GUY dream. If I saw Kei Hazuki in my dreams, I'd drop dead in my dreamland and never wake up.

HAHA!

Well, I'm really trying my best to liven myself up. I've not been in the best of mood nowadays, thoughts are always clouding my mind, I'm always longing for something, yet I know it's out of reach, somehow. I know I'm changing internally and externally, I want to stop, I just want to continue being my old self, but then, I'm changing, really changing.

I'm starting to rant a lot more nowadays. xDDD And yea, I'm more afraid of solitude nowadays as well. I used to love it so much! MAN! I think I still do sometimes, since when I'm alone, my imagination takes me far away, and I'm carried away by my thoughts even as I walk.

And oh yea, even Dorothy is starting to change. I wonder if it's because she's actually suffering? I'm a natural kind of thinker, really, not trying to boast, I can read between the lines when it comes to people. When something's wrong with them, no matter how hard they try to hide, I can somehow just know what's actually wrong with them. When I do, I act like I don't, just so that the person can tell me himself/ herself what she's really feeling.

Really, what's happening to me? I've been asking again and again, but there's no answer. I want to cherish everything around me, not to turn around, grasp for it, and realized it has merely slipped away from my reach and is slowly drifting away from my side, before they are completely gone.

Others' happiness and my happiness, which one is more important? I understand now. I must let the two of you get together, I have to. I'm just this sort of person right from the start. It's been great to receive that feeling from you, and I'd remember this.

You guys thinking I'm emo-ing? Nope, nope, not really. And about what I've typed, NOPE, HELL NOT IT'S NOT ABOUT LOVE, IT'S SOMETHING ELSE. xD

In any case, I'd talk about today. Went to school feeling a little dreadful. I've been forcing myself to act normal, and acting is a tiring thing, but showing my real emotions was a no-go. I entered the classroom and scanned through, before I walked nonchalantly to my seat and placed down my bag, and started smiling to myself like a little fool.

Afterwards, lined up outside. I was still trying to laugh and smiled. Walked to the hall, stopped, and tried to smile even more desperately, while I walked with my eyes locked to the front and my hands busily moving about. Afterwards, in Chinese, got back my "Xue xi xiao ce zi" and I was laughing at my lousy results. Well, I'd work harder. Ms Lam must have thought I wrote too little! But in fact, I wrote a lot! T^T It's the way the boxes are distributed, really. And then I flipped to the page with my name, and I was laughing again. WHAT THE HELL WAS UP WITH THE NAME I GAVE MYSELF?! When I think about it, it feels really, really weird. And Ms. Lam gave me a tick.... Well....

Then it was music. Entered the classroom and realized the Principal was in there. Got a shock, and wondered what he was doing in there for. So, afterwards, realized he wanted to speak to Serene, and Farah wondered why it was Serene too.

First group to see was Kasyfil's group. Man, their voices made me laugh while I listened intently. Soft it was, it was low in pitch. Kasyfil's singing was really funny. Yitian's was surprisingly nice, in a sense. Jerome's was... low like Kasyfil, and sounded weird too. Qinze's... don't really know what to comment. And then there's this variation in tone as they sing. They don't really blend. It sounds like two groups singing one song. One slower, the other faster. Man, were they high in front of the stage. Kasyfil I can understand with his personality- even Jerome was exceptionally high? (Okay fine, I'd delete the previous part I typed here since it really shows how crazy I am. In any case, my brother messed my post, so yea.)

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-EDIT-

Okay, so I'll continue now. I've been trying to download a game... But somehow I can't seem to extract the contents. I really want the game, but it's hard to find the PC version of it, and no one is providing the link. Forums require me to join and post so much before I can finally lay my hands on them. I'm not very obliged to do that, though... I need to post around.... 100 posts before I can get them, and that's is damn tough!!

A little update?

2009-02-03T00:02:00.000-08:00

Oh hello, people... I don't know who on earth is reading this, but well, yea. Here I am. By far, Tuesday is the easiest to get past. First two periods were English, but we used the second period to head down to Computer Lab, and basically enjoy our time there. We were there for research, but it was easy to finish the essay by next week. I was browsing pictures and typing a lot there, enjoying the cool air and everything. It was relaxing.

Went back to class and was asked to write down the positive and negative things about the current Chairperson, Vice-chair and Secretary. I thought we were going to vote by raising hands, but I was wrong. We had to jot down in the Class Journal. I was like WTF. I didn't know what to write, and was looking around, at Jerome, then Kasyfil, then Qinze, hoping I could get some sort of idea. Jerome seemed troubled too, but I looked more troubled.

So I just anyhow wrote stuffs in it... And then I had no idea who to choose for the new committee, so I had Kenny as chairperson, Huiyun as Vice-chair, and Farah as Secretary. She does a good job of it, after all. Then Science came, and I was like, refraction... dispersion... Bla. It was great it was over before we knew it, since she spent the last 20 minutes asking us to do our science workbook.

Afterwards was Chinese. I enjoyed Chinese, it was slack and Miss Lam was a really nice teacher. But as usual, I thought she looked sick and pissed. Well... I can sympathize with her, but there's little that she can do. So she was teaching and teaching, then it was finally Assembly. Went down a little late, Ms Rina was pointing at her wrist when we arrived, and I laughed, not at her, but at us. Coz' Xiaowei and Camille walked all the way to the back, and then we had to make a big round back to the front.

The first presentation was bla, bla bla and bla. Fairly interesting, but I enjoyed the idea of sharing photos of our level. Somehow, when I came home, I forgot what Mdm Chok had been talking about. It was something about values... I think. Then Mr. Yoong. I loved his starting.

He told us a story, which went like this:

"There was this village a long time ago. One day, a tyrant came and wrecked havoc in the village, before settling down. He told the villagers that they can only ask him to leave if they ever win him in a competition. But, no one challenged him, because he was big and tall. One day, a young boy went and challenged him.

"Hey! I challenge you!" The boy said.

"Hmm? You? All right then. If you can beat me in this sign language competition, then you win, and I leave." The tyrant replied.

So, he then showed a '3' with his fingers. The boy looked at him and showed a one with his finger. The tyrant was terrorized, wondering how the boy did it. Then, he pointed at the skies, and the boy pointed down at the ground. He jumped, and then took out a piece of bread, and the boy took out an orange. The tyrant was traumatized, and immediately gathered his men and they left the town.

"Hey, boss, why did we leave?"

"Wow, that boy is incredible. I wanted to ask him about the Three Musketeers, and he answered by telling me that they worked as ONE. Then, I asked him about Heaven, and he pointed down at Hell. I told him that the world was flat like my bread, and he told me the world was round, like an orange. I'm defeated."

In the village, villagers are celebrating their triumph.

"How did you do it?" The villagers asked the young boy.

"I have no idea," the boy shrugged, "He suddenly just left. He showed me three, and I thought he meant 'I'd give you 3 minutes for the challenge." And I thought I could do it in 1 minute, so I showed him one. He pointed at the sky, I thought he meant to chase me off, so I pointed at the ground, saying I wanted to stay. He took out his bread for breakfast, so I took out mine- the orange."

HAHA! And then the assembly ended at 1.30pm. DAMN IT!

I went to Comics Connection later, and then the shop assistant pissed me off! I've never seen him before, but when I handed him my mangas to buy them, he was looking at me with this mocking expression, as if mocking that I was buying shoujo manga, which sounds childish to grown-ups, maybe. Then, he looked at me with his open palm. I was still wondering what was the price, then I asked, and he pointed at the screen, asking me to look at it myself. I was like ,what was so wrong with telling me the price?!

So afterwards I thanked him and cursed him along the way home. == I'm a evil girl, after all.

D3stinyx; PEIYUN

A Year To Start

2009-01-23T20:51:00.000-08:00

Okay, firstly, I'm about to be roasted. Yes, I have my CAP to rush on. And I have absolutely no idea how to make them good. I was listening to Ms. Rina talking about all symbolic meanings and everything that I have no idea how to continue with my works. Metaphors... The teachers are expecting a lot from us. And me, being still some kind of idiot on my works, is completely clueless as how to go about writing as they expect.

I keep trying- but everytime it's rejection, rejection, rejection. I don't feel like putting any effort into it either. In my mind, now, it doesn't matter if I get selected either.

A new year has started. 2009. And oh yes, a few days later it's finally Chinese New Year; I've been waiting for it all year long. I don't really like this year so far...

Okay, firstly, everyone must be thinking- "Hey! You are sitting with Jerome, you must be so dead happy!"

Hmm... If you meant, "So dead sad..." I would have concurred with your statement. I'm not saying I hate Jerome- but I don't feel anything sitting with him. I mean, sometimes Yong Ming and gang start telling me about Jerome... And I really don't know how to answer them other than putting up my blank television look. I mean, even IF Jerome did like me before, it should have been gone by now.

Crushes are just ephemeral. They will never last.

I'm still waiting patiently for Haruhi Suzumiya Season 2, and FMA SEASON 2!! Oh my gosh, that is like so utterly cool. No other description for it!! These two, and along with a promised 07-GHOST ANIME ADAPTATION! These things keep my life fired up. I love all these animes... A lot, a lot, a lot. I just wish there'd be a Zombie Loan Second Season. I wonder what the hell is Square Enix thinking?

It's not like they went broke and is unable to produce animes.... Their Final Fantasy is still on the run. Are they fearing something? The fans are waiting till the hair grew white! Online manga scanlations are way way way slow. No one is really doing the manga scanlations. The latest we could find is just barely a few scenes from where the anime ended in Episode 13...

Oh yea, and then 2E3 won the Class Decoration AWARD! 3rd! WOOTS! But I feel very pissed- lost to 2T1. I could have sworn under my breath I agreed with Jerome somehow, that our classroom had more to the "Chinese New Year" feel. However, overall, the concept in design was still plain for our class. Anyone could do it if they were willing to. Then, 2T1's didn't really bring it out, but their lights was a big blast! That was a cunning one, haha! However, you still have to give in to them, they put in effort for it. I don't have anything to say as long as they put in their heart to do it. We lost fair and square.

I put in so much effort for the classroom.... Somehow. And then the sign that I made went on the screen during the concert and I was screaming for it to be removed from the screen. It was utterly revolting... My work sucks. Seriously...

The concert was fun too. I was screaming all along... I mean, it was awesome!! I love Chinese New Year, and I love concerts!

After the concert, I went back to CCKPS for a visit. I met up with Mr. Tay first, and there were lots of Secondary Ones trying to visit. So, Mr. Tay beckoned me into the school, telling me to sneak in. Oh ha ha, I did, and inside, we talked for a bit, and looked at the Star Achievers board, seeing Lucy's name on it, Shannon's... Wai Hung... And Chia Ying.

Mdm Teo came shortly, and offered Kit Kats that were melting... ==

We went to the canteen and we chatted for a bit... walked around the school, until around 3, I met up with my Brother and I gave him $1 to buy himself something to eat, since he said he was hungry. He bought a bottle of Kickapo... And we shared it, LOL. Afterwards, he treated me to free icecream, before me and my darlingggggg Ruoyi (LOL.) headed to Lot 1 to pick her present.

I brought her to Popular, somehow thinking that I would be able to get something for her there, since her personality kinda fit into the atmosphere of the shop. Ruoyi kept saying she had no idea what to buy, until we went over to the notebooks corner, and I thought notebooks would make a good present once again. And the design was good.

So I told Ruoyi to pick one, and she was fine with it. But then, the problem was, I ran out of pocket money... Left with only... $6+. So I couldn't buy her anything good, unlike what she bought for me, spending at least $12 for mine. I was go guilty... Hers costed $2.90. See that huge gap???? I'm so sorry, Ruoyi! I'm really sorry!

Ruoyi asked me which one was nicer, a bigger, costing $6+ one, or the smaller one, costing $2.90. I said the $2.90 0ne, because it was really nicer. But somehow, people might think I was trying to save some money for myself, but it's really not the case, but well, I know Ruoyi shouldn't really mind. I know she wouldn't think that way.

I would briefly explain to you about the designs:

$6 One: (Averag-sized)A kawaii girl, with some korean letters by the side, black background.

$2.90 One: (Small) A kawaii girl and a guy, sitting side by side, starry, black background with korean letters.

I'm sorry Ruoyi! Never mind, next time I'd treat you to ice-cream!! AHH! ><><

That's about all I need to say! =D Next time!

Skip Beat!

2008-12-19T23:56:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone, I'm updating again, just because I'm really bored. And school is starting soon, everyone, SCREAM. Seriously, SCREAM. I screamed for countless times already as I looked at the calendar doubtfully. Tomorrow, I shall be going to a relative's house to celebrate a Christmas, only brought forward earlier, and there are going to be a lot of people present in that house. I'm kinda bored in that house, and the TV shows there suck. Most of the time I bring mangas or books there to read, and I'm glad tomorrow I have 3 mangas to read and spare some time. But unfortunately, I spend less time than you ever expect to finish those books.

But well, as long as I can pass the time. My Nintendo DS will be taken by my brother duh, so I'd have no chance of playing. In the meantime, I'd read the manga, I guess, eat something etc. And wait for around... 5.30. Yea, and I'd have some shows to watch, then the Six PM news, then I think there's a second rematch of the Suzuki Cup of Singapore against Vietnam. Singapore heavily criticized for making the previous match against Vietnam played on this Wednesday, for not even scoring a single score when Vietnam is supposed to be weaker than Singapore team.

Now it's a battle to the Finals, with Thailand. Seriously, people, hope for Singapore to enter. If Vietnam enters, tell ya- the finals- there's nothing much more to watch. Everyone knows the result- Vietnam would not prove to be so much of a threat either. Singapore- well, yea, maybe they will, in a sense. They beat Thailand in the previous match. So yea, if you want some action, better wish Singapore would win.

Lately, my life is surrounded with animes. I gave up watching some, and continued some. Haha, and I've recently got pretty much into Skip Beat, watching how poor Kyoko struggles her way to the top. She's good, and the show is basically exaggerating. Expression-wise and a lot of points. Who- can ever create huge holes in the wall by bumping into it carelessly??

I'm watching it so eagerly because I HATE SHO FUWA, the guy who dumped Kyoko, even though he was so devoted to him, giving up everything just to please him. And he treats her like shit. But somehow, I wish I could see their scenes together, make that guy realize of his mistake of dumping Kyoko, that utter, big, fat JERK!

I'm really getting pissed with his attitude, always affronting Kyoko, and I understand how she feels. Wait till she's more popular than you, IDIOT! Will you realize your mistake in the past!! Hmm, well, I read the manga, and YEA, eventually, he realizes that Kyoko always had been in his mind, and he cares for her more than he actually expected.

He knows a lot of Kyoko, even though he doesn't really pay attention to her. So, he realizes that he actually have feelings for her, BUT HA! TOO LATE IDIOT. In the meanwhile, one of the popular guys (more popular than Sho Fuwa) in Kyoko's showbiz company, has also fallen for Kyoko, and he's actually the "Prince" of Kyoko when she was a child, just that Kyoko doesn't know. When Sho learnt of it, he was so pissed that he openly wanted to bash that guy up, whose name is Ren Tsuruga.

HA, that's what I call retribution. Take that in your face!

And Kyoko likes Ren then, LOL.

I was triumphing!

And Kyoko did a spectacular job as one of your roles, and immediately rose to fame. However, the story continues, because well, the mangaka wants to make life tough for Kyoko.

TEGO-LOVE! <3

2008-11-30T03:19:00.000-08:00

Seriously on a full stomach and I can't really get myself to sit still on my seat. My laptop has suddenly began to load things so slowly that I had no choice but to start typing some twaddle here on my blog. I've been delaying my blogskin changing, for there's suddenly too many things to do! I don't have a choice- and I keep going out nowadays. Pretty caught up with time, I suppose! But I'd be sure to make full use of my time, because like I've repeated over a million times, when school reopens, people shall come and claim my rotten corpse.

I've been continuing my Eternity until I realized how stupid it suddenly became. I think the fantasy part of the story is starting to confuse me too and I wonder how to make a link in there. But I'd try of course, even though I always try not to dwell too much into it. That's just so much like me. I don't really like to think deep into it, because my head throbs! (Exception for games though...)

I've just been to the Science Center for a whole near day. Then got to eat a free lunch. But then my drink.... Well, some fly landed in it, attracted by its smell, and died instantly in it. I was disgusted, totally so, but my parents told me it was okay and I had no choice but to drink it. After all, if I had runs, they are the ones to pay for the medical bills anyway. So I finished it and came home and now I'm typing this. Nothing much to say about the trip. I watched two similar shows, one is purely magic show, while the other is science magic show. The first one was a bit better than the first one, even though I had expected to watch better tricks than that. Some of his tricks were dumb and silly, because even though the magician always say of it that high and mighty, it's actually just a simply trick that's not very captivating even if it had taken the magician lots of time to practice and perfect it.

When they asked for volunteers for this supposed "most dangerous" trick ever, it was actually all so dumb to me. There was no way the magician was ever going to hurt the person, or else he'd be jailed. However, other than making it look dumb, he could do some touch-ups on it. I don't know why I've turned into a critic anyway. Whenever I'm watching magic, I'm always thinking of ways they have actually done it than just clapping foolishly. Because magic is always illusion. You think he has doing that, but there's more than what meets the eye.

There can be a string that is perfectly hidden with the purposely set up prop so that it remains unseen to the audience and make your trick seem so marvellous. However, there are bound to exceptions of course- some are simply stupendous, but none were showed in both shows I've seen. The second one was a bit worse, because though the guy was great in the last trick he performed, in one of them, he failed, and did something dumb to hide his mistake.

I didn't quite enjoy either of them, I enjoyed it by hearing their jokes.

The science center was still basically displaying the same few stuffs that I swore I've seen a million times. I enjoyed the trip to the Future exhibition, well, fun it was at all those new technology. There was this machine that allowed you to reverse videos. Like maybe a butterly flies from the left to the right, and when you turn a wheel, it goes back to where it started, the left. It was practically funny, and if you turn it like a driving wheel, the images will fly past like mad, blinding you maybe.

And seriously people- please don't ever eat at the Cafe at Science Center, because it's freaking expensive. The ice-creams are okay, but the food and drinks are like.... bombs to your pockets. One simple plate of fried rice cost $4. What are they trying to do- rob my parents' money??

And one bowl-sized maggie mee cost $2.50. Seriously, I wouldn't want to eat there if not on behalf that we were hungry and my brother insisted on staying in the science center.

The next interesting thing I saw were hatching chicks. It was so coincidental that we went on the day of the hatching, the 21st day, and I saw chicks who just came out from their eggs, their feathers not very fat and fluffy like it is after a while, and struggling to get up, with stains of pinkish-blood on their feathers. I watched intently as one chick kept pecking at the egg shell to break a hole, but it felt like eternity for it to come out. I felt like breaking the egg for it, but he has to learn to do it on his own, eh? xD

And seriously- even though this photo is not the most recent one for this band, but who do you think looks the best in it? It's the second one from the left- TEGO right?? (please don't mess up left and right thank you. ><) MAN, I loved this photo so much I can't help but put it up here to gain some feedback. I wished I had the latest one, but no one seems to be uploading it? Or maybe I'm just not looking hard enough, which I think is the case.

TEGO TEGO TEGO!

Mucho love,

D3stinyx; PEIYUN!

Anime Festival Asia

2008-11-22T07:00:00.000-08:00

Hi all.

Today I went to the AFA'o8 with Dorothy, and Jiamin backed out in the last minute. As usual, me and Dorothy met up at the CCK Mrt Station at 2p.m, before we set off for our destination, which was to stop at City Hall Interchange. So yea, while I was dressed in my normal dress code, a nice t-shirt with long jeans or simply some shorts, Dorothy came in stylish clothes- her hair pinned up with some nice hairclip, her upper clothing being a rather... exposing black vest with (not-that-much-like-a-jacket) kinda jacket. I was like... WOW at her clothing, but said nothing knowing it was just Dorothy's style.

We reached City Hall and headed to 7-11 to buy some drink. Dorothy bought the Slurpie... (? Correct spelling?) While I bought none. Thereafter, we followed some cosplayers to the convention halls. COOL MAN. I TELL YA. COOL. I saw lots of different cosplayers. And they posed when people crowded up to them holding cameras. I saw people dressed up in Naruto, Maids, Batman, Lelouch, C, Ciel, Haruhi Suzumiya, some crew from Kattekyoshi Hitman Reborn, Misa Amane, and there was one joker who wore a cardboard made Gundam suit. Dorothy took that guy's photo. The news reporters were too, somehow. And I dodged the camera when it swung in for us.

There were anime merchandise also. Like dolls, badges, and Gundam Mobile suits. The only part I liked about the convention was to be able to walk past the CODE GEASS promotional video corner, where they introduced some of the Anime Blockbusters, which I didn't quite expect to be blockbusters except for Code GEASS and D.Gray-man.

I loved the CODE GEASS area because they were playing that OP song that I loved so much. I forgot the name, but it should be COLORS. Not sure. DAMN NICE THAT I KEPT SINGING WHILE I WALKED PAST. Then me and Dorothy dilly-dallied at the Manga Store, and Dorothy bought a few, while I didn't. Surprising, huh? NO. I don't ever want to get in trouble with my Mum.

So, we went there all the way until 6.30 while waiting for Dorothy's parents to fetch us in their car because Dorothy's shoes' heels broke and I didn't want to go home alone. During the waiting time, me and Dorothy took photos of each other, using Dorothy's camera unfortunately, since my handphone just have this problem of not allowing me to take photos. Then, I sat down by a bench to read WILD ADAPTER. The mangaka for it is the mangaka for Saiyuki Reload. Man, the manga was kinda violent. BUT I LIKED IT. Even though it sounds kinda drama about the whole syndicate thingo... Gangsters, street fights, murders, a smart and kunning leader of a black organisation... Bla.

And at last the main guy kissed some other guy. I was like, Shounen-ai? WOW.

Reached home at 7+ only to realize that my Brother had bought a $80+ lego set. That makes me more fired than ever to have my parents buy me one too! HAHAHA. But I don't really want something that expensive. I'm not that picky. So, that's all.

I love JUN FUKUYAMA, TAKAHIRO SAKURAI, MAMORU MIYANO, DAISUKE ONO, TATSUHISA SUZUKI, DAISUKE SAKAGUCHI. Last 3 because I loved their jobs in my games. Their voices so addicting. ><

Wheel of Fortune

2008-11-12T23:06:00.000-08:00

So, let's say the world spins in this ring of fate. I find everything makes sense in this way. Born, live, and die. That's the Wheel of Fortune. Lately, I've been getting rather obsessed with all these philosophies of life- call me a weirdo all that you might like, but that's really happening to me recently. I'm not sure how things will go from here, but I find it the excellent practice to prepare me for my CAP submission pieces.

CAP has really been draining my brain cells away, like a vampire sucking blood out of its victim. I wonder- if there could be any chance I could actually say vampires aren't what people think they are. That'd be wonderful if I could ever spin it around, and my next story must be coming up. *wishful thinking*

Been quite a fun time exchanging tags with Jinyi, talking about VOICE ACTORS. Man, I'm psyched up, but I don't have anything much to talk to her other than these, and apparently, we ran out of juice. So, yea, I'm here to admit I'm not really very in-depth about animes lately, actually, but I'm more in-depth about the status of games. Yea, I'm a gaming freak. Seriously. Especially on DS games. The rest, well, maybe not as much. I know of the most popular games however, and that's about all. I can update people a lot about games, and I mean it.

Not much on mangas either. I'm kinda a follower of people? Who's best at these? Maybe people like Jiamin etc. But she seems much more obsessed with her Cloud~ xDDD Don't blame her, I'm obsessed with my REIJI <33333 Dear me, and my Princes' List has already escalated to 40, even though you don't know cos' I'm lazy to update.

Voice actors are the life of animes actually. If a character has a seriously... unsuitable voice, people hate that character. And if all the characters have bad or... not really recognized ones, people don't feel the motivation to watch it. Tested that out, and I've seen the results. However, still, for several people, it's the excellence of the graphic and the appearance of the characters that truly matters at times. However, I don't mind watching some one who's not very handsome in a very intriguing plot. Because well- animes can't really make someone that disgusting. I mean come on- many of us are not really that pretty, so why should you pick on others when you are not that pretty either? I mean, if the characters are pretty but the content is a whole load of shit- there's no use watching it either.

Even though we often yearn for our boyfriends and girlfriends to be handsome or something, think about this- do you have what it takes to have a handsome/pretty boyfriend or girlfriend? Of course- who don't want a handsome boyfriend. Even I wish I could have one. But, seriously, if we are really not that sort of pretty gal who'd attract one, better set your standards lower. Because, if there's a guy who's not exactly that handsome, and not exactly that ugly, just average, but treats you very well, I'm sure that's all that matters. Better than one handsome prince who's actually a wolf in disguise, only out to hurt your heart by dumping you after a while of dating just for the "fun" of it.

Why am I speaking about this? Because my cousins started it. The younger ones, again. And the same few. Firstly, they told me they'd rather stay at home to play computer instead of coming to visit their Grandparents. My bomb exploded. Second. They argued and threw a tantrum when their parents didn't buy the newest game device for them. I rolled my eyeballs in utter disgust. Third. I wanted them not to play DS in the dark especially on a car, since it's totally unpredicatable and it was really dark- it could harm their eyes. Advice falls on deaf ears and they retaliate saying everything will be fine and argues with me and snatches the DS (that they don't have) and starts to play happily. My brothe joined in too, and I chided him at home. Let's see if you'd see that if all those harmful rays emitted from the DS burns a hole right through your eyes and you all go crying for your Momma. Too late by then, kiddos.

And now, they are starting to tell me about all those, "OH MY GOD! You look at this guy! So ugly!" on the streets. And I asked her, "Are you very pretty?" She said, "....... I... don't know la!" And so I further questioned her, "So what gives you the right to judge other people?" "I mean, I'm just stating a fact what! People should accept it if people call them ugly because they ARE ugly." So I further retaliated, like as if nothing was going to impede my fury on her, "Then I ask you a simple question- do you like it when people call you ugly? And the whole world knows that you, ____ is the world's ugliest freak."

She was speechless, but after a while she said, "I cannot be the world's ugliest la! My class got people even more uglier than me one lorh!" So I forced her a smile and asked, "Yea, ugly on the outside, beautiful on the inside. Some people are like that."

"No lorh! She always scold people de. Somemore still so ugly. Hahaha."

"Then what makes you think you are better than her?"

"... Huh, I don't scold people like her what."

"But you just said someone is ugly, and criticized your classmate."

"Not as many as her what."

"Someday you will."

"Some day what. Not now."

"Oh, what do you know about your future? Yea, true, might not be now, but maybe, in the future, you'd be the world's ugliest freak. Not because you look like one, but because you act like one."

She totally fumed. But said nothing. Not like I cared anyway. People I cannot care- I always settle them even if I don't mean to. The anger in me often gets too unbridled I can't take it. But, sometimes, when with friends, I often try to shut myself up even if their words pisses me off, and I just pretend I never heard them.

Thus, all I want to tell those cousins of mine is that, "You are in no position to criticize someone terribly unless you are better than him. Positive criticism is accepted, but when you go too far in them, you are absolutely in the wrong." So anyway, fumed out, so I guess it's time for me to stop.

Oh yea, however, voice actors earn the leasy money. Don't you think it's a saddening fact? T^T

D3stinyx; PEIYUN

Starting to rough up

2008-11-09T07:37:00.000-08:00

Hello everyday. Late into the night and here I am, typing a post to keep this thing alive. Oh well. Lots happened, and tomorrow I'd need to head over back to Swiss for my CAP thing. Dorothy is going to pon it, leaving me alone. BWA... BAD DOROTHY. I've been doing a lot of stuffs lately, but they are mainly pretty slack.. But well, at least I've got down to working on the chinese first... And then the English maybe later... There are no phrases for me, unfortunately. And the comprehension... I think I've lost the answer sheet.

Anyway, nowadays, I feel empty. Don't know why. Must be because I'm away from friends, but it's not like I'm very close to my friends either. I feel like I've distanced instead. That's why I'd need an outing with them xDDD Hahaha. I've changed, in my opinion, and this is not a good thing. I'm becoming more and more careless in my speech and always speaks without thinking now, and I lose temper easily when enraged with an incorrect topic.

Need to do some serious meditation to pacify my soul now.

Hmm... I'm gonna play games till late in the night I guess. Games are so part of my life. So going to finish Theresia, even though it's all my brother's credit that we are able to go so far, since he's like... not scared of those blood gore scenes. You'd get a nightmare if you watch them in the night though. (Suddenly remembers Siuhui) Anyway, it is pretty intimidating, but I'm going to challenge my brains and work my way through this mystery games.

Ouch. My eyes feel sore. Must have been typing too long in front of this computer. Damn it. Guess I should end. Bye.

Mucho love,

D3stinyx; PEIYUN

Yitian's Birthday Party

2008-11-04T04:08:00.000-08:00

So well, this post is definitely coming later than I expected myself to type, but oh well. Not that I really had a choice- since blogging is always left last on my list. Seriously, I still have my Chapter 8 to type, so I'm really trying to rush through my work right now. Make sure I finish as many things as possible.

Let me blog about Yitian's Birthday Outing. So, just like... two days ago, on Sunday, Yitian could finally celebrate his birthday which fell on 31st October. Initally, he intended for a ice-skating trip, but ended the skating rink was closed on the day itself, and all of us were whisked away for this much more normal celebration over at West Mall. While I was still trying to dress up and everything at home, my phone rang, but I did not answer it. LOL.

Because I didn't realize of it, and I switched it to silent mode. There was a day where I received too many SMSes and got chided by my Mother so I switched it to silent mode. Bleh. Save me from some scolding. So yea, I didn't answer it, and it was a call from Yitian. So I was like, whatever. he sent me an sms later, telling me to bring extra set of clothes, which I did. So, afterwards, I left and hurried to West Mall's Cinema... Eng Wah Cinema, and when I reached there, I was like, WHERE THE HELL ARE EVERYBODY?

Yitian wasn't there too... So I kept smsing him... Until I was left with no choice and had to go down to the next floor and met up with Dorothy, and that was when I decided to sms him once again... When the next thing I saw was, Yitian walking towards us. ==

Okay, so afterwards, three girls were there too. So we were like, OH. The primary school friends. And then Yitian briefly introduced them to me, and I was like nodding my head with my handphone and frantically smsing someone. LOL. I brought my handphone with a purpose. TO AVOID SOCIAL INTERACTION AND LOOK LIKE SOMEONE SERIOUSLY ANTI-SOCIAL. I did accomplish that, though. So, dorothy, afterwards, pulled me over to the girls and in a very friendly mode introduced herself to the girls. I, instead, tapped away on the phone. LOL. See that contrast?

So the girls told Yitian I was anti-social. Bwahaha, I know, I know! Afterwards, another guy came, and while Yitian was buying the tickets, me and Dor ran off for the Comics Connection. That Comic Connection was definitely better, more spacious and more comics on display. At Comics, we saw Qinze with his STRAIGHT hair.

Lol, wanted to snap a photo with my phone, but he kept avoiding the camera. So, oh well, didn't take it, and we all went to the Arcade afterwards. Went in, and was seriously bored to death. But I tried my best to participate. Well, actually, I only played and cheered with Qinze and Dorothy doing most of the playing. I was sms-ing again. Now sms-ing more people- siuhui, amanda, my pri sch friends and him.

Hmm, so the only one who replied at that point was him, so I was like very engrossed in it. Yitian kept coming up to us to snatch back the game card, since we also always went there to snatch from him, and everytime he came he'd ask me why I wasn't playing. I was totally not bothered to even talk to him. Bad bad Yitian had totally left Qinze out with us. But I don't think it's a bad thing either... Leave Qinze with Dorothy in particular... Well, if Qinze didn't join us, then... It'd be weird too. Because Yitian had to accomodate with his 4 other Primary school friends.

After playing all the way until 4.30p.m, we went to the cinema to catch our movie. And over there, first event that I noticed between Qinze and Dorothy. Lol, Qinze wanted popcorn, so he asked DOROTHY if she wanted to share it with him when I was standing right in front of him and he should have asked us both. The first person he asked was DOROTHY. So I was like, WHAT AM I? LIGHTBULB? YEA MAN, SERIOUSLY, SHOULDN'T HAVE CAME. THEY GOT MORE CHANCES WITHOUT ME INTERFERING.

So, he bought the popcorn and TWO drinks. He took one, and gave the other to... DOROTHY. He could have asked both of us who wanted it, but instead of asking, he gave straight to DOROTHY. See what I'm hinting? ^^;;

So we entered Room 6, only to realize the movie started. DAMN. So, we hurried to the seats allocated, and I was around the second last to enter... So I was at the exit there. Qinze was beside me when we went to our seats, which meant he would it next to me. Initially I thought maybe I should exchange seats with Dorothy, but she hid behind me for some reason and I had to sit with him.

Yitian then started creating a bit of trouble, because he had to sit with one of those primary school friends, but he didn't really wanted it, but eventually he ended up there. AND THEN WE STARTED WATCHING HSM3. I was like, Oh shit.

So, watched halfway, and Dorothy quickly finished up the popcorn Qinze left with her. LOL. Qinze was like, "WOW" all the way to her. And then, things started to happen. As I was forcing myself to watch, I suddenly noticed Qinze glancing at me. At first I was still wondering what had happened and I knew it must be something bad because he was laughing, and then the next thing I knew was, I felt something at my leg. Something being thrown. And it felt like popcorn.

I sat up, and looked over at Qinze, even though I knew it had to be that Yitian. Qinze backed to his seat, and pointed at the guy next to him, who was the primary school friend, and that short guy pointed at the guy next to him who was Yitian. Yitian was looking over at me. LOL. He should have looked away or something. So, I said, "WANG YI TIAN, 你给我记住." He said nothing but kept looking. So I resumed watching.

Then, more came at me, and I sighed, looking over at Yitian who was still returning my gaze. I scolded him for a little before I resumed the movie again. The next time, I felt something icy cold on my lap. I picked it up, knowing it was an ice cube. That was when I leant towards Dorothy, and told her what they did.

Then, I told Qinze that I'm going to ignore that Yitian, and Qinze immediately conveyed the message, "Eh, Yitian, Peiyun not angry at all lor! She's going to ignore you." And with that, that childish play ended. And then at some point, Gabriella and Troy kissed, and that short Pri School friend of Yitian told Yitian, "Eh, Yitian, kiss the girl beside you. Come on, KISS! KISS! KISS!" Yitian was like... WHAT? Qinze was like, "WHO? OH, OKAY KISS!" I was like looking over, and nodding my head.

Yitian at that time was looking over at us, and he spotted me. (Don't know why too.) So, he immediately said, "Waliao, Peiyun is nodding her head and smiling!"

"Lol... She happy mah." The short guy said.

"Lol... She... 暗笑" Qinze went.

"She 笑里藏 popcorn." The short guy went again, and the guys laughed. I leant into Dorothy and said, "These guys really have a problem..." Towards the end of the movie, Yitian suddenly moved over to us and asked us if it was okay to order what chicken and .... from KFC. I was like, VERY SHOCKED. I checked the time, and it was... 6.30p.m. So I was like, "Huh... Yitian, I need to go home."

He was like, "SERIOUSLY?"

So afterwards I called my Mum and was forced to go home. So, end up, no choice, I had to go home, and I asked Yitian what to do about his Birthday gift, and he told me, since I'm going home now, and I'm not playing the arcade, not eating the cake, not playing the games, he'd take it as those are what I gave him as a birthday gift. I was staring at him like WHAT?

Event Number 2 for Qinze and Dorothy. So, Yitian was talking to me about me going home. Qinze and Dorothy were around us. At some point, Qinze asked Dorothy, if she was going to West Mall on Wednesday, which is tomorrow. Dorothy was like, "Huh, Peiyun coming too?" Qinze was like, "No... It's a Primary outing." Dorothy immediately did a dramatic back away, "NO! LEAVE ME OUT!" Me and Yitian were like, WOW. I mean, he didn't tell Dorothy about the outing, and was asking her... then? And he asked if she was going somemore... When she was not informed... So I was like, must be really wanting to go with Dorothy... xDDDD

So, they all moved over to the MRT station by West Mall, and there, Yitian was like telling me sorry all the way, and I had my head bent. Then he was like, "Why you look so sad? Is it that you are not happy in this outing?" I was like... No... It's just that I'm sorry I couldn't join for the rest of the party... I'm really really really sorry.

So afterwards I went home on my own.

The next day, Monday, I went for my CAP briefing. Okay, whatever, tired of typing. Bye.

早春の木漏れ日

2008-11-03T23:23:00.001-08:00

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What? Can I say I hate myself?

2008-10-29T23:50:00.001-07:00

So, yesterday morning, I woke up, feeling very, extremely, put-of-the-worldly scared. My heart was thumping hard and fast, and my Mother was obviously oblivious to that, and I tried to compose myself desperately, but to no avail. After finishing off a few minutes of my DS and finishing my breakfast, I prepared myself in my school uniform and then was preparing to leave home with my Mother to the school, when suddenly, tears fell.

I was instantly stupefied and I rubbed away at them as my Mother consoled me a little, saying I needed to face my problems like a big girl. I told myself not to cry- repeatedly before this day, but they just came uncontrollably. Man, all my dreams of thinking I'm a grown up now seems to have just relinquished.

So, we boarded 188, and off we went, and I knew, in no time, IT WAS TIME TO MEET THE CCA HEAD. I conjectured. So, I was tensely sitting and waiting on the bus with my Mother by my side. Just a few stops away, Jialing and Camille climbed aboard and they apparently needed to head back to school to hand up... compositions?

Reached the school in no time. My Mother walked in, and we headed up to the staff room to check if Miss Lam was there. Benevolent Miss Lam had agreed to accompany me to meet the teacher, since I was just too scared. We couldn't find her at first, so we walked around, when another teacher came up to us asking who we were looking for. We told her Miss Lam, and she interpreted that we were in an appointment with her for the teacher-parent meeting, and told us to wait for her.

I was like... LOL.

I called Miss Lam on the phone with my Mum's handphone, and initially there was no response so I ended the call, but just like a minute later, Miss Lam ringed me up again. Then she said, "Oh, go to the staff's room."

Me: "Oh, I'm outside the staff room already."

xDDD

So, yea, Miss Lam came out, with a brand new hairstyle that shocked me on first glance She had also dyed her hair, and indeed, a refreshing look that we won't be able to see once the school reopens. She looks totally younger (she'd love to see this I guess xD) and well, yea, a real shock to me. So, my Mother was like, smiling at me and said, "Bye. Go face your problems yourselves."

I was like, "Shit."

So I followed Miss Lam to the tables behind the hall, and sitted, as I told Miss Lam how scared I felt. And Miss Lam pointed to the adjacent table, saying, "Look. There's the teacher." I looked over, and hid my face in my arms. Miss Lam laughed and told me to relax.

So, we started talking and talking. Well, with silence of course. Since I'm the quiet type too. I asked her about her hairstyle, she asked me about my blog, I kept playing with my fingers anxiously while waiting for the teacher to finish teaching his Sec 4 students who are going to have a test tomorrow I think. So, when he finished, the CCA head went into the staff room to grab my CCA record, before he came out and looked at me with this oh-another-one-who-wants-to-quit-and-why. It was kind of a mocking expression, and as I looked into his eyes to answer the questions, I really felt intimidated by his face.

And then I lowered my face and started to talk. He was asking me sarcastic questions, forcing me to reply, and before I knew it, tears came. And I was like, "Sorry." I started wiping a little, before I continued for a while longer, and then tears gushed out uncontrollably. At that moment, I was OMG. WHY AM I CRYING?

I kept apologizing, and Miss Lam brought me tissue. The teacher was like, Okok, relax, relax. And Miss Lam said nothing. So, within no time, the thing ended and I shan't go into details about it.

Not really contented with the results, but hell- who cares. So I was led down to the canteen, crying like a baby. I was like, come on- stop crying already! But then, I still continued crying like mad. SUCH AN EMBARRASSMENT. ==

And afterwards my Mother and I went home with me talking about the CCA for the entire day. When I got home, the first thing I did was - PLAY DS. DUH.

And I made myself repeat Daisuke Sakaguchi's voice over and over again as I watched Masaki Sanada grinning away like a Cheshire cat at me, and I started shrieking in glee and I forgot about the incident for that half hour, before that teacher's face and questions kept surfacing in my mind and I kicked the wall in frustration. Luckily no one was at home, though.

So, well, all ended well. I'm anticipating this Sunday in particular, free lunch at my favourite restaurant with my relatives. WOOT! I'm going to gain a few more pounds for sure! And then if I'm not wrong, I should be heading for Yitian's birthday outing. I'm not sure what I'll get him, well, maybe I'll get him one on his birthday outing- provided that I'm going. Dorothy has already thought about it- good her, and I guess I might just be making a card- and if on the day I can't really make it, due to some unforeseen reasons, I'd just pass the card to Dorothy for her to pass it to him? (If Dorothy's going too...) If she's not... I'd call Qinze... I guess.

Oh shoot! My scanner is not working right now. I can't upload my drawings of my story character! *bangs the table* SHOOT! MAKE IT WORK!

~Ahh, so much for my life. DAMN IT! AND YOU, you know who you are... I'm not going to mention names here like you requested =) Well, just to tell you that I'm going to wait for you to return okay? And I miss you too, so you are happy now? Don't spam my chatbox!! I was trying to draw back then! If that drawing comes out to be a failure, you'd be drawing in my stead! Understand?

Well, I'd treat you to ice-cream when you come back. At Swensons. Okay? (Hey, that's expensive already, don't expect too much, you greedy pig!) Oh yea, do write letters too. I love replying to letters. xD (Even though it takes money and internet communication is free... Well sorta, since you don't really pay the electrical bills, do you?)

Well then, I'm off... FOR ANIMES. BWAHAHAHA. ><

23rd October; Sealed Destiny.

2008-10-23T05:56:00.000-07:00

I flipped the calender in exasperated spirits, to find it circled in red. I knew deep in my heart the day had dawned- the last day of school. Without any doubt, I was pumped up, as a frisson of excitement ran through my blood. Having missed school the day before, I was determined to make the last day as memorable as I could, but unfortunately, everything ended like mundane. It failed to hold any sort of meaningful reminiscence in my mind.

Not like I really cared with all those fussy matters up at hand. CCA, and a whole lot of stuffs that I wouldn't really like to divulge right here. Now, to think about it, I have somehow, someway, grew attached to this fond date. 23rd October. My first ever best friend's birthday was this, and so is my dear brother's, whose birthday I had just celebrated with me screaming like a lunatic around the house, eating the cake feverishly and hitting my parents around like some nefarious kid with the cushion.

And last year, 23rd October was the date I grew so close to my crush. I would never ever forget this date. LIKE NOT EVER. When I remember that smile of his, it makes it all too impossible. Thinking about all these, I thank this date for being here. Somehow, and I don't expect myself to come to abhor this supposedly auspicious date.

I went to school as per normal, just that my head felt heavier than usual. Walking around groggily, I ended up in 1E3 classroom and entered holding a glum look. The next thing I did was bang my head onto the table and try reposing- until some BAD NAUGHTY girl banged her fists down on my table and the first thing she said was, "Orh, you, yesterday pon school ah?" HAHAHA! Thinking about it makes me high. Somehow I had escaped the CCA meeting all for a good thing. YES! OH YES!

So well whatever, there was no assembly due to the slight drizzle, so we all stayed in class while waiting for Miss Lam to come get us. So she did, and afterwards, the students in her higher chinese class proceeded to the project room in the library, to catch this very classic anime- The Grave Of The Fireflies. Pretty intrigued by it, even though I didn't quite like how it ended up to be. However, I could totally put myself in the people's shoes. Still, it was so much like Japan, not knowing the whole truth, and blaming others for a fault they themselves commited. For this, I find them totally at fault. The government hides this fact from the people that they were actually the ones who started that bloody war, just because of sheer avarice for more land and more power.

I totally loved it somehow. The character designs were relatively good. It was like what all critics say, recent animes have dropped the standards from the past relatively much.They find past animes much more enjoyable than present ones, even with advanced anime making techniques. It just lacks this warm touch, I guess. Personally, those classic anime series, for example Detective Conan, are really well-liked. However, in recent years, the animes are only popular over a short period of time. It's all ephemeral.

At times I really felt irritated at the crying girl, and I totally hated how the ending came to be. If I were to rate it, I'd give it an 8/10. I didn't like the sad ending; it was too miserable for such happy kids who were just so in bliss with each other. I totally felt how close they were to each other, and how loving the brother was. He placed his sister before him and I totally warmed up because of it. Halfway through it, my eyes felt slightly moist, not sure if anyone realized it though.

But well, my neck ached too. Because Peiling and gang said I was deterring their view, so I craned my neck for the near whole movie, so when I could get up, it ached a little.

Headed back to class, where Miss Rina gave us the holiday assignment, and under a magician's spell, disappeared mysteriously. Oh well. We still did our own things anyway. I read my manga like crazy, since it was sooooo exciting. Like, come on, YELLOW TANABE PRESENTS ROCKS! I just realized she's a female now... I've always thought only guys drew shounen mangas... So I was kinda shocked by it...

Afterwards was History, and we were in the library to watch some China documentary. Too bad I was at the far end of the library, and was barely interested. Siuhui got so freaked out by the execution scenes she kept turning around madly, and I got the chance to feed on her hair. ^^;;

Afterwards was Maths, and Mr. Clayton gave us the movie, SPIDERMAN 3.

Luckily there were some class photos to distract us from the movie. Maybe I'm just weird, I don't like watching Spiderman even though it's a classic too. I mean, it feels all too weird and too many bad stuffs are happening. Don't know- the guys liked it I guess...? Or maybe not.

Miss Lam came in afterwards and returned the results. Find my results pretty average still, so I just accepted it. My CIP hours peaked to 23 hours. Wow cool. So, even thouh I got nothing for CCA participation, I got my service point. So, till the end, I did not lose out. I was taken greatly aback. HAHAHAHA. I HATE SJAB. Oh well.

Afterwards went to KFC with Cheryl and Jiamin, where they two could not finish their fries, and I could only help Jiamin with hers. Sadly though. I had lunch waiting for me at home too, so Cheryl intended to pack up, but well, she forgot the fries at KFC. But anyway, she didn't really feel like finishing it since she was full, so I guessed it was okay. Headed to Comics Connection afterwards and Cheryl could not find what she intended to buy. Hey! Say! Jump! and Arashi's photos I think. GREAT BANDS! Too bad there are just too many- FAHRENHEIT'S MERCHANDISE. OMG.

So afterwards went home and ate anothe full lunch before I watched Natsume Yuujinchou all the way up here. Light humor and slight action. A DEFINITE MUST WATCH IF YOU ARE SICK OF THOSE COMPLICATED ANIMES. I tried out Zombie Loan too, because I missed it, and I LOVED IT TOO. Seriously, all the great animes just needs some digging or viewing from forums. I don't really like Vampire Knight now, except for its manga and its beautiful artwork by sensei. ><

OH WELL. SEE YA ALL PEEPS AROUND.

Mucho love,

PEIYUN ; D3stinyx

ADD:

HIKE PICS.

OMG. HI JUNJIE AND AFIQ! SAY CHEESE! =D NICE SMILE! ^^ HAPPY HIKING!

Qinze... Pro sia... Girls flock up to you ah! xD Haha! Happy hiking too! =D

WOW. GO GALS! JIAYOU!!! <3

Siuhui is already physically challenged by now. She's really tired! JIAYOU!

Oh. My. God. I'm being buaysong by the overwhelming heat! Who took this goddamn photo?

LOOKIE! GROUP PHOTOS! <333 HAHA! I love the first one! =P

BELIEVE IT! KEITH IS CAMERA SHY? OH ME GOSH! ><

Kuroshitsuji FANDOM

2008-10-20T04:49:00.000-07:00

Before I go off typing my Eternity series, I'm just going to type a relatively short blog post. Just to keep this thing alive. My Eternity is getting positive feedbacks, and I'm just psyched to type more! Yes yes! Remember, Siuhui, Dorothy and Amanda, you guys owe me reviews! *evil cackle*

So yes, I typed pretty much in my previous blog post about animes, and apparently I'm here to type more, I guess. I haven't actually watched every available anime, so I'm just going to update this thing with the top two animes that I loved for the season. After the end of Season 2 for D.Gray-man, which was actually the period for desolation, I was glad other animes filled in the spaces, though I'm not quite satisfied with this year's animes. Nonetheless, there are still the good animes. Best ones so far have got to be Soul Eater and Amatsuki. Didn't quite enjoy Vampire Knight, even though it was the hottest one this year. I don't know, do I really have a grudge against shoujo animes? APPARENTLY SO... ><

The first one I'm going to introduce is "KUROSHITSUJI" the one I was anticipating all along. The manga was fantastic, welly-drawn, and the plot pretty nice developed with refreshing ideas. I really liked the manga so much I re-read it for countless times (while waiting for the new volume to come out, which I don't know exactly when...) Kuroshitsuji is created and brought to life by one of the leading Anime Companies- Square Enix, and if you think you don't know what company this is, just think about the company that manufactured the hit game- Final Fantasy.

I really enjoyed works from Square Enix. I couldn't love for more from them. First was Fullmetal Alchemist, which I couldn't get off my head right up till now, two years later! They have very good animation skills, I must say, and if you really loved the way the fighting scenes went in Soul Eater, don't ever forget that this company played a part in their animation too.

So, I expected nothing but the best from it. >< High expectations... >< And it did meet my requirements. Like all shounen animes, which is adapted from a nice manga, the anime started off with some rock Japan music. I grew obsessed to that song and the band too. Even though, unlike what other viewers say, I find Sebastian, who is the demon butler in this story, not as hot as in the manga. Just in case, Kuroshitsuji means the "Black Butler".

And, like all animes adapted from the manga, they had to change a bit of the content, or maybe add in addtional details to make it different, for people who had read the manga and are just starting to watch the anime, I guess. The only points tha they changed were when Ciel, the other main character in the anime, tossed one pointed thingo at Sebastian right after he woke up. Well, that was not included in the manga. And the removal of the photo in the living room. Not included too. And that the visitor who came for Ciel is a bad guy trying to get more money to fund his projects and in the end got roasted alive in an oven (that seriously happened). In the manga, that visitor was nothing more than just a mere, side character who visited and left without starting anything, and Sebastian didn't have to ruin his nice reputation right on the outset by roasting someone in the oven and then saying it was spoilt and had it changed. == After all, I guess, he IS a demon.

The ending song was different too. Cool, they used chibi drawings, very much to my liking because they were really cute (KAWAII). A twist to the dark opening with gothic elements. It, instead, carried light humor. Thumb up for that.

The next anime is "Yozakura Quartet". I was anticipating it too, after I read the plot, for it sounded attractive, and much to my taste. Shounen-taste, I guess. However. the main component of the anime was actually still beings with supernatural powers trying to save the world. Pretty mundane... A lot of animes has that, so it lacked some attention based on that.

However, if you were to just neglect the fact that it was an anime that you have encountered a similar plot to before, you'd find the anime really nice. The character design did in the anime was obviously nicer in the anime in my opinion, and was new. It started off with a nice OP song that I liked pretty much too. And it started off afterwards with an investigation case on a being who had obviously just lost his sanity and lost control of his powers.

The president of the town, who is a girl incarnated from a dragon, was on the hunt for him since he's taking innocent lives with him. (mostly girls, considering he's just an average mid-year male).

So skip skip skip. When they were finally in for the battle that would determine who dies or who lives, the good scenes come in. Because the criminal can disappear in a short period of time, a neko-girl uses her ears, which are actually some sensor radar, to track him down over a large area. Then, the most powerful one out of them, the president, goes after him, and he shot bullets at her. And miraculously and very coolly, she reflected the bullets with her palm- piece of cake to her. I was O_O. Okay, first time seeing that.

Then, the criminal went face to face with the bespectacled girl in the team, who could let whatever she say become real. As in, when she says, "Rose." A rose would appear. And its basically spells based on what she says. She goes, "You call that guns?" To the criminal, and she unleashed thousands more directed at him.

Within minutes the criminal was easily defeated, and at this point, a human, from a special family, performs tuning, and kills the demon within the criminal, also killing the criminal too, returning peace to the town.

YAY! So, watch them if you could and bye.

Minami Haruka ROCKS!

2008-10-18T09:55:00.000-07:00

Oh good day to you people out there who has visited my blog out of :

1) Utter, extreme boredom that drives you nuts and you start attempting to pull at your hair

2) Extraordinary curiosity that makes you want to come to a dumb blog, created by an idiot, with a stupid post.

3) Stupidity; because this blog is CRAP.

Oh so much for insulting me and this blog. Anyway, spent the last few days using m computer like a lunatic, watching tonnes of animes and getting pissed at most of them. But anyway, I'm still waiting for all my games that are due to release in the next part of the year. Including free downloadable games found on easily accessible sites, to rare files that should be restricted to PS2 consoles. I have a list of all of them, just to make sure I'd never forget about them. Games really mean a lot in my life after all.

(Due to time constraints, shan't introduce every goddamn anime)

So, yes, watched a tonne of animes, including some older ones that I had missed. Firstly, I had watched this anime called "Bartender", apparently missed out a great anime last year and I'm kind of blaming myself for my carelessness. It is a Slice of Life type of anime, whereby it touches on problems in life and how the character goes about opening their minds and changing their attitude at different stuffs that they detest or got the wrong idea of, using cocktails.

There were so many cocktails introduced in it- Jack Rose, Margarita... And they each had a story in it, that resembled the story or problem the one who went to the main guy's bar. After drinking it, they'd get obsessed with it and take things lightly... Basically become a changed person. It was indeed ridiculous... Someone drank a glass and POOF! He changed! But well, a good plot indeed. I was warmed up by the series. Good one.

Next, I tried out Chaos Head. It was supposed to be meant for guys, I mean there are just too many cute girls inside trying to attract your attention and make you nose-bleed than hot-looking bishounens trying to make you scream like a wild animal. Initially when I was watching it, I was watching in interest due to the fact that the main guy was an OTAKU. Man, that got me captivated. Loved stories with characters being OTAKUS. Basically, its like... an anime with a special element included that I don't know how to describe.

When it first started out, seems like the main guy was about to get killed. I was like, MAN! Obviously he won't get murdered right on the first epi... Unless it's a sick anime involving the dead returning to life and haunting people... If that's the case I'm outta here to watch another one first... What's the use of putting it here? And then, his supposed murderer was holding onto this knife and pointing it at his heart, before she leant in, and took his lips. I was like, LEAVE THE M18 TILL LATER.

So, the guy woke up- surprised to find another cutie staring at him and urging him to wake up. Yea, so he woke up, and said he was going late to school. Basically, he had already planned out a timetable about which days he should get to school and everything and which days he doesn't need. A lucky chap. Wished I was like him.

Skip skip skip. I particularly loved the scene he was chatting in a game. Man, was that cool. I loved the typing sound the anime offered. And hahaha, the chance to take a look at the websites too. They renamed Google into something that started with a P, but it was almost identical. I swore I was laughing at that.

so, yea, during the course of an online game where he was pawning with an incredible character, someone asked him if he knew about the series of murder cases that occured in his neighbourhood. He was like, "WHY?"

And the user sent him photos. Initially he did not open them, but then, out of accident, he opened one of the link the other user sent, only to reveal a man terribly stabbed to death with multiple wounds created from some sort of weapon tat resembled a shinobi... ninja shooting star. There also stood this pink-haired girl, who looked like she murdered him. The guy gasped in horror, and closed it.

So yea bla bla bla, days later, in school, he found this cute girl, who resembled the girl in the photo of the murderer, sitting beside him and episode one ended with him going something like, "This can't be!"

I then watched Skip Beat, because my aunt recommended it. Shoujo animes... eh? I was holding skepticalism and was prepared to be a critic. Didn't like shoujo animes even though I loved those mangas. So anime started bla bla bla... The girl was actually some obsessed maniac over a guy who would do anything just to get a dumb poster which she didn't get when she purchased his CD. I was like... DAMN. This is dumb.

Then she cycled home, wondering why she didn't want to doll herself up. Then at her basement of her apartment she found the lights on. She was like, "Can it be?" And she rushed home to find a guy (in her poster) at a room and she screamed his name bla bla bla bla.

-END- Don't want to type anymore. Didn't like it.

Next shoujo anime. Hakushaku To Yousei or Earl and Fairy. Another dumb one even though I thought it had potential. The opening song was performed by ACID FLAVOR. Please, with that good band there... Don't ruin the anime up. So, it started out good even though I pitied the girl who was talking to brownies and fairies. Only one left. Don't know how she lived with her job.

So she got onboard a ship to where her Father was, but apparently another guy was in there, a villian who does brain removal... == And he convinced her to run away with him and everything... The main girl just ran like told and then at the other cruise she was dolled up and had to attend a dinner party with that hot guy... Got pissed with him and she's like... Hate him, like him, hate him, like him. So when she was hating him and yelling "No NO NO" at the guy and backing away, I was like, "BORING."

So she backed until the end of the ship and I was like, "DUMBASS, there's a long walking path to your right. Walk there, duh!" But obviously, it ended that way. She nearly fell over and into the sea, but the guy saved her but she refused to help him and he says, "You have no choice." and tries to be evil.

WHATEVER.

So much. Bye.

Oh. Boring Tasks.

2008-10-13T04:27:00.000-07:00

Oh. Don't ask me why Jerome and Yong Ming's names are there. It's not because I like either of them, it's just because it was the only photo I could find while looking through my folders. I tried finding the one I took with Siuhui, but because it was seriously overflooding, I had no choice but to give it up and use theirs instead and come upo with something crappy. I didn't spend any effort in trying to carefully take the picture out for the anime guys, because I was seriously vexed. So I anyhow took it out and then blended and used a simple brush, typed some crap and decided to upload it for fun. HAHA. I can do stuffs better than this, but it's not like I'm in the mood either.

Today we got back our results. Not very happy about it, but can't do much about it either. So, yea, just learning to live with it. The Maths Paper One teacher called out our marks one by one, and I was like =.= because I scored seriously low for it... Same as cheryl... THanks cheryl for being the lowest in class together... ><

And anyway, bye.

D3stinyx

Planning Schedule

2008-10-11T06:28:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone. Been wasting my time away I realize. I've seriously got to start a schedule so that I can get all my work done before it's all too late. Like maybe when CCA has to start and all my results are returned? And then my mother starts getting freaking mad and everything. Speaking about SJAB, I still feel traumatized by it. Anyone please help? I really don't want to go back. Maybe it has been a long break, but so? I'm not going back.

Today went to collect mangas from my Aunt, and now my manga count has peaked to 89. I counted wrongly, but I'm not going to change my MSN anyway. Too lazy to change. My initial aim was 70, but guess I'm just way off the target! Cool! I'd have my next year's target soon! =D

All right, also,everyone, go listen to "Crush" by the American Idol Top 4 finalists' David Arculeta. It's freaking awesome, and it kinda reflected the thoughts of my fictional character, Yune Syuutsu. Like erm, seriously! Yune will have a crush on one of the guys, and this will be how she will feel. I was feeling a little absurd when I heard the song, cos' it will exactly how I felt for Yune.

So I guess I'd be off Eternity Chapter 5.

See you guys soon.

D3stinyx!

I'm not moving.

2008-10-06T00:16:00.000-07:00

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move,
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,
Some try to hand me money they don't understand,
I'm not...broke I'm just a broken hearted man,
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Policeman says son you can't stay here,
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

People talk about the guy
Who's waiting on a girl...
Oohoohwoo
There are no holes in his shoes
But a big hole in his world...
Hmmmm

and maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved,
And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news,
And you'll come running to the corner...
Cos you'll know it's just for you

I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
[Repeat in background]

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move.

Marvellous song. Got me singing xDD Actually, a lot of songs gets me singing... But well, thought it was a really good song. I was listening to random songs and found it. Got addicted almost immediately. While I'm supposed to be doing Home Econs revision, I'm more carried away with singing.

Seriously, my SA2 is BUSTED.

There's utterly no doubt about it. I'm getting fails. Today's Maths Paper has got to be the best proof ever. Tomorrow's Home Econs too. I don't want Thursday's Oral to come. I'm seriously scared of orals. But I'd love Thursday and Friday too. Oh my gosh. I mean... Thursday marks the end of SA2 and then we'd be able to play play and play. And basically end the year. However, that'd make the mark of the starting of my miserable life.

Everyday I wake up I'd see SJAB stuffs lying around my room, and then my heart will freeze and my face will cringe. And I will break into cold sweat, wondering how my future is going to be like. I know I'm going to be dead. No doubt about it again. One thing is for sure though. I'm not going back to SJAB. NEVER. It's going to start. How? HOW? HOW?!?! No one can help meon this, I know. Whoever I tell them to, they just say the same few stuffs- Go back. Try to adapt.

Like please. No way. There was no way.... Really no way... ><

Mucho love,

PEIYUN; D3stinyx!

An Exam-ful Week...

2008-10-03T02:46:00.000-07:00

Oh, so today ends the first week of exams. Next week, nothing much that I fear except for oral. I'm so going to stutter in front of the teacher. Seriously, I mean it. I've never actually liked oral all my entire life. Sheesh. When I think about how much longer I need to sit for oral exams, I feel like fainting. Somehow.

Using my laptop now. My old computer's keyboard wouldn't allow me to type anything, so I had no choice but to switch. But it's like... all my games are in that computer... and I'm feeling really really bored here. All I did all afternoon other than studying was obviously, reading mangas.

And then my mother would pop in occasionally telling me to keep distances with boys bla bla bla. Just because Jerome helped me out on two P5 Maths Questions yesterday night. I mean, I was the one who begged him to help, and he agreed... So it's like... nothing? It's not like I begged him to go out with me or something. Strangely, parents tend to think much more and are more paranoid. Not that I blame them though, but seriously, I'm not getting myself a boyfriend. I'm too obsessed with my anime guys to actually think so much now. Which is actually- a good sign. Well, with exception to oggling at real-life shuaiges... (Thinks about the korean guy...)

All week long I've been really psyched. I mean... I could go home damn early and basically just slack my way through (with revision). And then I bought a few mangas. And well, I've slept a whole lot too. I wonder why, but every morning I wake up, I know somehow that I was destined to fall asleep on the couch halfway into the afternoon.

And erm, Yitian has recently asked me out to his birthday party on the 31st October. And surprisingly, I agreed, since I never did ice-skate before. But Yitian is like... going to pair me up with his primary school friends, and I don't really like it. I don't know- I just don't like socializing. Maybe. I'm pretty psyched that Jerome turned down his invitation somehow, if not I'd have to pair with him for the ice-skating. Yitian asked Jerome yesterday, and in a separate conversation box, he told me, DUN GO. COS IT'S GONNA BE BORING...~ or something like that.

I was like... ignoring him. I gave Yitian my word, but somehow, I'm still pretty known for backing out at the last minute and creating a whole load of troubles for others. So yea, what'd you know? Maybe I'll back out again. And create a chance for Dorothy and Qinze. O.O Haha, somehow I feel they are compatible.

The most I'd do to compensate for this is an elaborate hand-drawn birthday card, I guess. Mail it to him, I guess. xDD And maybe flooding on his msn with Happy Birthdays and Sorry.

I am slacking now. I mean... next week's tests... are not a lot. And it ends all the exams. I'm not really happy about it, because it'd mean that it's finally time to face my problems that I've been hiding from. Someday I have to face it man... so yea, the time is drawing near.

I really wanted to type stories, but obviously my old computer spoilt, and this laptop doesn't allow me to type stories at all, which makes me pretty pissed, I have to type this blog post. If not I just might let this blog rot away. There's actually nothing much to update on, unless you guys want me to update about something.

I've been throwing my temper recently. I'm in a foul mood, I guess. Can't really tell how I'm truly feeling, since I practically just smiles and laughs all day, and then at some point of time, I'll sulk. With a gloomy face, and a pairof menacing eyes as if I was going to commence carnage.

And anyway, I really wish I could post photos up my blog. Maybe self-obsessed photos, or anime pictures, but can't really find the appropriate ones. And can't really upload real-life photos into my blog. Anyway, I've also learnt a lesson, and that is to always get your phone ready to snap silent photos of shuaiges whenever you see one walking past. xDDD

I seriously still regret not being able to take that photo of that shuaige. Haiz, haiz... What am I so depressed about? xD

I mean.. then I could show it to the girls... And get their opinions about him... I mean... He's really shuai... And anyone doubting me will face my wrath xDD Just kidding~

I'm gonna go oggle at hot anime guys again... In some desperate measure to brainwash myself from this word, LOVE/CRUSH whatever. Erase it from my dictionary. It's okay not to know its meaning, the most I'll do is join Y-H.A.R.T. And fight with Yune to be the leader. xD Maybe it's just that I think too much. And perhaps its also that we are just... too young to understand what love is and truly love another.

A distance... huh? All right, I get you mum.

Mucho love,

PEIYUN

My World Revolves Around HOT GUYS!

2008-09-27T00:53:00.000-07:00

OMG OMG OMG! As per usual, I've taken a break off my revision, being such a stupid slacker. I think I'm going to fail all my subjects. Seriously, and jump to N/A. There was always this possibility. But I really pray that I won't fail my English. Because if I fail that subject, I won't be able to live anymore. English's my favorite subject, so if it is what brings me down... I'd be depressed for the rest of my life.

Today, woke up at 9 to prepare to go to the Hospital. So, yea, groggily, I moved around the house until I was finally awake an hour later, which was also the time I left the house. Boarded Bus 67 and went all the way to somewhere in Bukit Timah. Then waited for Bus 174, which didn't come until 20 minutes later. During that time, I was waiting patiently, staring at the lush greeneries around me, as I even tried thinking of what to write next for my Eternity chapter. My pants felt a little loose, and I kept tugging at it while pulling down my shirt. I think I looked really weird then.

When 174 came, only my Mother and I boarded the bus at that bus-stop. Got up the bus, and was relatively surprised to know that there were quite a number of passengers onboard. So, I followed my Mother quietly to the back of the bus, and I held onto the handle behind a seat on the bus. And then I looked around, and then I went, "WOW."

Guess why? There was one seriously handsome guy on the bus, and I could deduce he was about my age. He was seriously handsome... And I really mean it. I mean, it's rare for me to say that someone is handsome unless the person is really very handsome. So I was like, "WHOA, lucky day for me or what?" He had that air of coolness around him... And displayed all those characters of guys whom I'd scream my heads off for. He was coolly listening to his MP3 player, pressing away on his cellphone, occasionally slipped his hand into his pocket, and his face was totally charming. And then I was like occasionally glancing at him.

Am I a pervert or what? xD

But well, I can't resist handsome chaps like him. When I find someone really handsome, I just can't resist it and I'd like keep glancing over at him. WHOA. I'm growing up... >< At some point I really wanted to take out my phone and take his photo... (I guess it's illegal since I don't know him either.) But it'd be totally odd. My Mother was beside me too... And there a whole load of other passengers around me... When I focus my phone on him, everyone will know I'm trying to snap a photo of him... And it'd leave me abashed if the guy ever realized it too. So I was like... AWW SHUCKS. I really wanted to have his photo somehow and maybe show it around the class. So I just stood there quietly, a little disappointed.

A few more minutes into the journey, the guy seemed a little panicked, and then he coolly took off the headphone from one of his ear, and I was like, WHOA!! I seriously loved the way he too it out! And his expression! And then he dialled for a number and pressed his cellphone on his ear. And then I kept quiet, listening to his language, because I somehow felt like he wasn't Singaporean.

And true enough, he wasn't! He was a Korean, apparent from his language, since it wasn't Japanese either. I'm good at catching Japanese words too. I was like, wow, a Korean Prince Charming. Whichever school he's in, bet he has a lot of girls wanting to talk to him. And then the next minute, my mum was pushing me over to the bus door, exhorting me to get off the bus. I was really really disappointed, and then I told my Mother about him. He had really pretty eyes... >.< COOL AND HOT!

And then my Mother was like, "Ah, Ah, looking at shuaiges ah?" And I was like, "Yea... But he's really shuai mah..."

Then I went for my checkup. Surprisingly my Mum went for the checkup before me, even though we registered together. I don't know what went wrong though. And I'm still lighter in weight as compared to my Mum. Ha! By 2 kg! I feel some sort of triumph, and I'm determined to shed off more weight! Maybe I could run around like crazy and end up collapsing to the floor like a rag doll.

And the doctor concluded I was fine. And I was like, I knew it. I knew I was okay somehow. And guess what? Just that simple checkup costed my Mother $171 on me. I was like, you could give me the money to buy at least 20+ mangas. I won't be buying anymore for the rest of the year with those money in hand. And my Mother was like chiding me, "Health is more important than those good-for-nothing mangas, my dear."

Even though somehow I had to agree with her authentic statement, I felt really bad about spending so much money just on one stupid checkup which concludes that you are fine. And just to hear those words from a professional doctor, costs you around $170. Imagine what you can buy with all these money. Something practical. A book. Loads of books. You can even consider buying something that could at least last.

Afterwards, went to eat at the cafetaria in the hospital. One pretty small bowl of noodles with one bowl of soup costed $5. I was like... SCREAMING INTERNALLY at the price. Seriously, why must all these food prices go up THAT HIGH?

Afterwards went home, and oh yes, I told Amanda about the Hot Korean Guy. And she said she wanted to see his photo. I was like, unfortunately, you can't. I could not take his photo and I was depressed over it. xDDD So well, anyway, back to anime-guys fandom! See ya peeps around soon, and work harder than me for EOY!

The newest Primo Passo Chapter was out. And I totally hate it. I mean... Tsuchiura was completely jealous over Hino always complimenting Tsukimori. And Tsukimori could tell it. And was like == and told him, "I'm going overseas to study." To ease his jealous heart. I was like... WAY TO GO TSUKIMORI. And Hino was still being thick-headed. Seriously, don't make her so thick-headed please. She should be able to tell somehow. And stop all those scenes. Be more serious! You know, Yuki Kure, you can do better than this. I know romance is beginning to unfold and everything, but seriously, you should do more about the romance, and the plot. It's getting totally boring and I'm only reading it for the guys' sake, and for who ends with Hino. You have perfectly-well drawn guys, but your plot slowly bores me out.

If nothing good is going to be given soon, I'm giving this story a thumbs-down, Yuki-sensei! >( Don't make me, because I love Tsukimori. ><

Mucho love,

P E I Y U N

What? TSUBASA <3

2008-09-24T23:58:00.000-07:00

Okay, blogging once again, since basically today is the last day the tachers are going to see us, until the exams are over. It feels great knowing holidays are just around the corner. I mean- really, before you know it, holidays are here. And just the thought of me playing around during the holidays really elevates my enthusiasm. But still, my morale for studying is still stuck at somewhere below, but I'm trying! I'm really trying... ><

So, yes, even though I made a pact to myself yesterday that I should stay up and get more from my Tsubasa, who just happens to be the first chap in OTOME guys and a dateable, hot one to make me laugh so much, I fell asleep ultimately. Like to hell with me. I mean, his voice actor... Some English name I have unfortunately forgot is totally awesome. The way he actually went about going "SHIT!" "BEAUTIFUL!" is seriously fantastic. There's no way I could ever forget those times I just kept replaying those voice areas just to hear him repeat that English word over and over again. Yes- I'm seriously obsessed with that voice. XDD As much as I'm obsessed with the teacher- Masaki Sanada's and his voice actor- Daisuke Sakaeguchi. "Yuuh! Sensei!" In his very cool and hyper tone... I really love it! I'm looking forward to more voice acting by him!

So yea, reached school pretty late, and like usual, as soon as I stepped out of my father's lorry, I sprained my ankle. SURPRISINGLY. Maybe someone is actually reciting some sort of curse directed at me since I'm just such a deserves-to-be-hated and nefarious girl. Went to class, remembered that I have yet to draw the palm tree for Sherlyn and got down to pencil again. Then I hurriedly folded the paper and held it with me while all of us went for the Hall. So waited for the prefects to get dismissed, and then passed her the paper while continuously saying, "Seriously, my drawing sucks. I'm not drawing palm trees again, MAN!"

SKIP SKIP SKIP. Until recess. Afiq and Siuhui started writing that I love Jerome on the board in front of Jerome and I was like, WTF. Then I was doing Maths, so I basically carried around my calculator and erased off the stuffs from the board. By then, people like Keith, Jun Rong and Kenny have already saw those things on the board, and instead of harassing Jerome, which might have been a better choice, they chose to tease me about it, and I was like... "URGH..." Saying things like, "Peiyun, I know your heart aches when you erase that thing from the whiteboard and I felt like seizing their lips because Jerome was just right behind. Instead I went, "WHAT?" and pretended I heard nothing.

Afterwards we got back our History and Maths results. For history, I still couldn't get the A1 I wanted, so I had no choice anyway, other than working very hard for SA2, and the exam just happens to be next monday, so I need to buck up. I was missing... 2 marks. So yea, now you all know my marks. LOL. For Maths, when Mr. Lim was calling out the names he wanted to meet, I was appalled he didn't call mine, because I thought I should have failed despite all those additional marks that he added in for us. But who knew, I had miraculously passed by 1 mark. Still amongst the last few anyway. And then the worst event for the day happened.

I know I somehow shouldn't be putting this up, but then... Maybe I should. If she gets mad at me over this... Then I shall have no choice by then.

So, was preparing to go home with whoever I could find. While turning behind to see if Siuhui was going to meet Mr. Clayton (I figured maybe I could wait for her or something and we could walk home) she just told me she was going to pon, and then rushed out of the classroom, and Mr. Clayton was like screaming after her. Then, Mr. Clayton averted his attention onto me and I smiled back at him while staring at the door Siuhui ran out from. Then Mr. Clayton told me, "Peiyun, go get Siuhui back." So I was like, WHY ME? Then I was like, Siuhui will never be found. She can be anywhere... So after taking back my books that Yitian had snatched away, I was leaving school with Dorothy, until I remembered that I have yet to give Miss Rina my Literature Assignment and me and Dorothy went over to hand it up.

Then when we were about to leave, we saw Siuhui and Huiling talking to Miss Lam, so I thought I could at least get her to go back, because I kinda figured Mr. Clayton would be waiting for her, and I didn't want Mr. Clayton to start telling Miss Lam about what Siuhui did, and then Miss Lam in turn will look them up again etc etc, so I screamed at Siuhui who was trying to run from me that Mr. Clayton was still in class and should be waiting for her. Then Miss Lam obviously heard me, and turned around to ask me what happened. I told her, and Miss Lam stopped them. Then while walking back Siuhui seemed pissed off at me and was like, "WHY MUST YOU TELL HER?"

Somehow at that point I wanted to rattle out everything, and try to prove that I was just trying to help, and that I was just innocent, but in the end, all I said was, "Mr. Clayton wanted me to look for you just now." I know somehow no matter how hard I explain some things just cannot get into the head of a friend who thinks you had just betrayed her. So afterwards, me and Dorothy just left.

I went home, and could finally eat ice cream. Was elated. Then saw I had one unread SMS. Opened it up, and my heart skipped a beat. Oh, the thing I had expected to see, a SMS from Siuhui, asking why I wanted to betray her. I was appreciative that her tone in the SMS wasn't like she was very fierce, if not I could have gone boiling mad and sent back an equally fierce SMS. Because well, I'm the type of person who loves to retaliate when I think I'm really not in the absolute wrong. Maybe you can call me, someone who just loves her face. So Siuhui was like saying, "Why must you tell Miss Lam? I know you are scoring good for your Maths now, and then you like Mr. Clayton and you want to make him happy. But is it really such a big responbility that you must say it? I don't know how to face you now, lol."

When I read the SMS, I was like... trying my best to smile. Trying my best to keep cool, after all, I figured someday I'd anger Siuhui too, with my personality. And I've realized nowadays that me and Siuhui seems distant too. Maybe its because our personalities aren't the same. Siuhui is the type of playful girl who just loves to have fun, is really hyper and really friendly, while I'm the quiet, and guai-guai type who's not really that friendly and always looks like I'm gonna attempt a carnage and murder a whole load of humans.

And with a heart that held a mixture of feelings, I pressed back a reply that I hoped could settle things. "Okay. You can be angry at me and hate me 4 all u wan." this was my first sentence, and the rest was basically me retaliating once again. And the last sentence, "Plus, we could stop being friends and I could stop talking to u if it helps u." I mean, the easiest resort. I know she was upset with me for betraying her, and siding with the teachers, so it was the only way out. Expect me to say, "Let's sit down and nicely chat about it." Like as if anything would come out of it. I'm bad at those, and it's hard to convince someone who thinks you betrayed her. So, afterwards, I started singing while waiting for her reply.

Her reply came. And she told me she doesn't want to think about it, and wants to be NORMAL friends with me. And says she thinks I don't mind about it anyway. Even though I had my slight ambiguities about what she meant, I replied anyway. I deduced that her capitalised "normal" meant she did not want to be close friends with me anymore. I could understand that. But the I don't mind about it... Does that refer to the incident, or what? The way I'm treating the friendship with her?

I don't know how life's going to turn about with this argument with a close friend, but I know arguments had to come sooner or later. I know now, in the class, I barely have anyone that I can be as close to as Siuhui, since I'm one of those extra-unpopular girls. But I figured that is something I have to face sooner or later. To be frank, I don't mind being a loner. I mean, I have always been alone. It's not like it matters a big deal to me if anyone is going to friend me or not, because I know, I'm just a girl everyone will grow to hate.

Taking things openly is basically one of my traits. That's why I'm basically a slacker, since I always think that it's going to be okay. That applies this time too, taking this argument as, "it's going to be okay." I mean, I myself think that facing Siuhui might be a little awkward and I might start being cold to her, but... What can I do, seriously?

Okay, anyway, Tsubasa seriously rocks! I mean, his love story in the entire game was like FANTASTIC. The way he confessed to the main girl was SHIOK beyond words. My favorite for now. I like Hajime too, since he's basically those type of cool-rock guys, with a muscular body that I simply love. *cough* perverted much, peiyun?

Mucho love,

P E I Y U N

-EDIT-

REPLIES:

Hmm... Well, thanks for that load of words you gave. As per usual, there are still some parts that I can't really understand what you are implying but it's okay. (The parts that I don't get are the parts that I didn't reply. Basically, I'm replying to everything you typed.)

All right... Maybe I did use the word 'betrayal' wrongly. I guess at that point of time only this word surfaced in my mind, and I just used it, since it can still be counted as some kind of betrayal. Not those kind of betrayal you had, I guess. But still, to me, it can be classified under the category of "Betray".

I don't deny the acrid truth that I'm basically very hard to accost. Yes, because I'm a quiet person. And recently, I didn't feel like talking much. I only liked smiling, and mumbling to myself, miraculously. (Yes, I'm a top-noched freak.)And whenever I saw you, sometimes I felt like saying something, but in the end, something will put me off. Something that even I don't know what it is. And I just end up keeping my mouth shut. Tightly sealed. It's true Dorothy finds it hard to talk to me, because I don't feel like talking to her either. And thus, all these conclude with one thing- I'm seriously a weird person who has weird feelings and is very quiet, unless my mood is right and I do have something to talk about.)

For me and you, we don't have much to talk about. Sometimes I really want to talk to you about something, but then I realize, there's nothing to talk about other than the random few stuffs. Maybe it's because we don't share a lot in common. And personally, I don't deny the fact that I'm not fit enough to be your best friend, or even your friend. Because I'm just the kind of person who barely speaks unless there's something for me to speak about. For this, I apologize here.

It's easy for me to pretend nothing had happened, but it's hard for me to just lead on having that mindset. Now I really think that I'm not supposed to be your friend. I really feel this way. Maybe you take things more openly than I do after all. xDD But well, anyway, this doesn't mean I'd go around showing a glum face. It just means that I need time to finally gain back the right feelings.

It might be hard, but let's try to keep it up once again. When I think back now, there were times we were really happy together, playing around and everything. Now it just needs time, because I know, something is seriously wrong with me. Maybe it's part of growing up. (Or maybe it's just some stupid excuse I thought of while typing this.) it will be awkward, definitely, for now we sit either in front of each other and behind each other; very close to each other.

This thing concludes here once and for all. I'd be happy to reply to your replies if you have any. And like what I said, here I am, once again, retaliating, making sure the other party knows how I feel. Seriously, I suck big time. There's no doubt about it.

Tuesday - Today?

2008-09-23T00:34:00.000-07:00

Hey all, blogging again while I'm still trying to do my revision. But seriously, words bore me out. And my song is starting to lose effect on my enthusiasm. This is not a good sign. I used to have a lot of concentration while I was listening to songs. Now, it seems like things are back to normal until I can find a really nice song to listen to. I feel really tempted to type Eternity Chapter 5, but I know I won't be able to stop if that were the case.

So, yes, let's start off with what happened today. First period was Art. And as usual, I didn't know what to draw, and was basically shading and humming away. Then Siuhui and Huiling behind me, and they two went high for nearly the entire day. Seems like the teachers are not too happy about it though. LOL.The next period was Science. When Mr. Seow called me to answer a Science question, I panicked, because I left that one blank. So, I was like... looking around, a bit hesitant, but eventually I just rose to my feet, leant in front a little, saw Junrong's paper and his answer and basically just read out his answer. MAN! I'm sorry Junrong, LOL. He doesn't know, though. That's why I always hate being called, because most of the time I wouldn't have the correct answer anyway.

Next was English. Then, Siuhui and Huiling were like chatting around again. Then, at one point, Siuhui go scream Jerome's name, saying I wanted to marry him and I just looked away, pulled a face and pretended nothing happened. I mean- okay, there's no need to repeat, just read the previous two posts and you know what I intend to say. Then recess, Afiq came over with his three pens, and then wrote, "I love Jerome" on my handbook and I was like, "...Fine, I have correction fluid at home." Then afterwards they went over to Jerome's desk and wrote down "I love Peiyun" on his book. When Jerome entered, Siuhui told Jerome about it, and I told Dorothy, "Let's hide our heads. I think he's going to start slaughtering."

Then, afterwards, Afiq went to the board and wrote down me and Jerome's name in a heart and I was like, "WHAT? AFIQ ANWAR! ERASE THAT THING!" Yong Ming and Kasyfil were like staring at it, and when I moved over and erased it Kasyfil was like, "She saw it."

Then afterwards, I started chasing Afiq around, well, I dare to chase him because he's my good friend. Don't expect me to do that with any other guy in Swiss Cottage... xDD So, thank god Afiq, that I have lung problems, and suck at chasing people. So, yea, went back to the classroom, and heard Kenny and Junrong talking about sick, perverted stuffs, and a group of girls discussing about Yang Gui Fei and a lot of those ancient China famous names. Then had to endure a few minutes of Kenny teasing around, before they left me alone and let me watch some YAOI scenes. Thanks for those scenes, guys... After all, I love YAOI. Aren't I being a little too bold here? I think people might start killing me or something since there are people who really hate YAOI. But to me, it's not that bad. I mean, people, you all know who is Brad Pitt? He donated $100, 000 to legalise gay marriages.

BRAD PITT, PEOPLE. If you don't know who he is, go get a life. He's one of the more popular guys already. Even people like me who don't really watch movies or any English Drama or anything, know him. So if you don't, seriously!

The next lesson was Maths. Clayton was like ranting how our Algebra sucked, and I was sitting at my place imagining the scene tomorrow. Clayton staring at me because I failed once again. Without a doubt, I know I'm going to fail. Like, even using my butt to think I know I am going to fail. Need to buck up, I guess. Or maybe I can go over and join Class X. After all, hotties are there... But before that I may need to cross the boundary between a video game screen and reality.

Afterwards was Home Econs. Nothing much. Then, I went home, and on the way to MRT station, met up with Jia Min and Amanda. Jun Rong was in front beforewards, but afterwards he vanished. LOL. xDDD

Then, while Jia Min and Amanda head over to ______ to eat KFC, I headed for Comics Connection, trying to see if Kuroshitsuji was out, but unfortunately, it wasn't, and there was this load of secondary school guys at the shop, and it was definitely very squeezy. And they kept staring at me like as if I was some nondescript. I left the shop disappointed, telling myself to come someday else, and went home. Got home, ate a large plate of fried rice, (I'm still feeling very full now.) and watched some TV, laughed my ass off and then now, I'm at my computer.

Anyway, did anyone watch the Fedex Advertisement? I saw it while watching the 9p.m show on Mediacorp 8 yesterday. I forgot the English title, so I have to use a vague description. The advertisement goes like this, this traveller accidentally fell into the hole, then he wrote a letter and stuffed it into the dog's collar, and the dog ran off to deliver the message. But when it reached the cottage, another dog was at the gardens.

Traveller's Dog: Hello!

Garden's Dog: Hellooo!

Then the two dogs began playing and when they ran across a grass patch covered with flowers, the traveller was busy trying his absolute best to crawl towards the cottage. When the traveller saw his dog, he went, ~!@#$%^&*()_+| (as shown in the subtitles). I was like HAHAHAHAHA xDD

All right, that's all for today. Going to update Chapter 5 of Eternity somehow. xD

Mucho love,

PEIYUN

Emotions Run High

2008-09-21T06:03:00.000-07:00

After the Friday incident, I'm glad that my high emotions have returned to me. After all, staring at his face everyday now... Seriously makes me high. His voice is so sexy and low, and the way he goes, "What?" "Shit!" "It's perfect." "It's natural." "Beautiful." When he's a Japanese... really warms my heart up. I love him. I really love him.

I just updated my Eternity Chapter 4, and once again, reviews rolled in. I was elated, and was grinning at myself that my story was a success. Although not a lot of people are reading it, but at least some loves it. Well, I'm not working on Chapter 5 till some time later. Make some time for some basic revision.

And seriously, when can I get my Kuroshitsuji? I'm still missing book 3 and 4, no way, I'm seriously getting them! No matter the cost! I love the book! I love this series! AHHH! I have to get it!

And yea, some people told me they are surprised to see that I only like Jerome as a really good friend. And they are like, "Stop lying to yourself." I'm serious about this! Jerome has so many girls going after him... There's no need for one more, right? xDD So, yea... Wish them all... All the best. No matter who ends up with him, I'm fine with it. =)

I'm seriously getting a lot of mangas from now on. I need to finish Zig Zag, and then buy a few more single-book titles, and finish up some titles. S.A etc. And then I'd start on MXO and Cat Street, before I finally end up finishing up more Tongli titles. Yea, and then I'd run broke. I'm trying to save up already! No worries, no worries!

无言以对如果会后悔
就该学会在爱的时候
用智慧盖一座堡垒
收藏你的美

一进一退流过的眼泪
不算白费谎言和是非
有点累心痛只在回味

月光下我们走过的那条街
当时的手还牵得那么直接
是你不再留恋还是美好终究善变

月光下回忆在我身边穿越
你会不会残留着那感觉
熟悉的体温留下的指纹
别过问

那天凝视你的双眼不说一句的吻你的脸
喔~
谁的出现打断了永远..

I really love the lyrics... And some parts of it... Really matches... My thoughts... Somehow... I can't stop thinking of him... And... Well... Never mind, all the best for tomorrow's exam, people! Gambatte yo!

Mucho love,

PEIYUN

"I know what you want, money, right? Then come get it! I have all the money in the world." he said, tossing a hurdle of money into her arms, and tried to shoo her away from his room.

"Idiot. Then is this coin in my pocket yours?" I pulled out the little gold coin from my left pocket, and his face darkened. "It was just a plain expression."

"But that gives me a chance to correct your sentence, Mr.Rich."

"....SHIT!"

My favourite!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHH! I LOVE YOU, THE GUY FROM MY FIRST PARAGRAPH HERE! AHHHHH! <333333333333333333333333

Pissed!

2008-09-19T05:45:00.000-07:00

Today's like one of the worst day ever. And just yesterday I was still jumping around in joy. Firstly, WONG SIU HUI, I'm really pleading with you now... I know you are just being playful and everything, and I don't really mind, but please don't edit my blog without my permission and knowledge... Because I really don't like it... I don't mind it that you are merely adding stuffs like, "SIUHUI, my stead" and everything... But well, I'm just really angry that you edited it without letting me know about it, and added yourself as one of the blog authors. I've removed you from the list and hope you don't mind because I just want myself to manage this blog. I re-edited the links, but anyway, thanks for adding so many, because I AM JUST TOO LAZY TO EDIT LINKS. SERIOUSLY, I DON'T REALLY CARE ABOUT LINKS. I mean... What's all the use... Linking a whole load of people... So, here's evidence one that Yeo Pei Yun is a serious dolt and a lazy pig.

Seriously, I'm still steaming. This anyhow editing of my blog is fine, because I know Siuhui always do that. I've gotten kinda used to it, but the thought of her editing without my permission is really getting pretty much on my nerves. I know she is actually going to read it, and I know Siuhui sometimes might get upset about all these, but I thought I should just let you know how I feel about this.

But then, today in class, after Mrs. Sng returned the history tests, my top three friends as in I like them quite a bit all scored the class highest. Siuhui, Amanda and Xiaowei. I was ecstatic, and I went, "WOOOO" the time she announced their names. So, during recess, was still feeling so high just thinking about Tsubasa's face, and his sexy, deep low voice. Chatted a bit with Siuhui, before I started writing stories again. Then, suddenly, Xiaowei seemed upset with Qinze. Wondering what had happened, I looked over, to witness some heated argument.

From the content of the conversation, of what I heard, I thought Xiaowei was just pretty upset about the guys playing around in class and everything and confronted Qinze since he was involved or something, and Qinze was there defending himself and everything so I decided to ignore them and continue writing my story. And just about one to two minutes later, I, for no reason, turned behind, and my eyes went wide open when I saw Xiaowei crying. She was crying, and Dorothy was beside her, consoling and everything, and Xiaowei was all, "I'm not crying because I'm sad you know, I'm crying because I'm really angry!" I was still all baffled, but things went okay afterwards.

Then we went home, and I went high. Another week passed, and I'm going to get my Term 4 holidays soon. I love the holidays, I mean... I can play and everything. But... Being in Sec 2 will mean more troubles... I mean... SJAB. Okay, anyway, so I walked over to the MRT station, since

I kinda figured that taking a bus will waste more time, and because I thought I should walk home in solitude too. So, yea, I was preparing to leave alone, and Siuhui was like, "WHY? I also want to buy manga, so why are you going alone?" Then I was like, YEA, PEIYUN, GO BOARD A BUS. But somehow I just didn't want to, so I played the bad-girl role and Siuhui just accompanied me to the MRT station, different from Amanda. I know I could have accompanied her but taking a bus wastes more time, unless you are so lucky that the bus just comes when you head over to the bus stop.

Then on the way to the MRT station, Siuhui explained to me what had happened between Xiaowei and Qinze and I totally fumed. Qinze actually claimed that Xiaowei cheated in the test, when she obviously did not. IT WAS ALL HER HARDWORK! I know I'm saying the same few points as Siuhui, because we discussed about it while walking over. So I was like, how can he always just resort to saying that other people had cheated in the test when he has completely no evidence at all? I mean, how can Xiaowei cheat... From the times I was her partner, there wasn't a single time she actually attempted to cheat. So, there's no way she'd go so despo over a single history test when she never cheated before, even when she failed her other subjects' test. Xiaowei seriously works hard, so NO ONE SAYS THAT ABOUT HER. One more time I hear that on one of my friends, and I'm totally losing my cool.

Okay, so went to Lot one and everything. Then, went home. Thought about a whole load of things, and yea, I finally got an answer to a lot of things by letting go. I'm sure some people will remember my MSN PM, yea, people like NYM, who always manages to bring it up again, asking who's the him and her I referred to, as if trying to get me to say that it's Jerome. Like please, not him, not him. I just managed to get it all clear to myself that I really like Jerome, but not that kind of crush... like... please. I still can't get over with him, that's why! THAT'S WHY! WHY CAN'T I GET OVER HIM? WHAT'S SO SPECIAL ABOUT HIM THAT I HAVE TO KEEP BOTHERING MYSELF WITH HIS AFFAIRS? AFFAIRS OF THE HEART! YOU ARE TORTURING ME HARD!

Okay, so went home, and I slept like a pig. I mean, I couldn't even stay awake. And guess what? Before that, in my state of sleepiness, I tried to type my Eternity Chapter 4. And guess what came out?

"Hey. How much longer will it take for us to reach school?" Daisuke asked, and the driver sent them a brief glance, before smiling and bowing, "It's somewhere around 12..." Daisuke nodded, and I jerked. "WHAT? It's so close to the examinations already?"

"Precisely. Miss Syuutsu, why aren't you reviving your homework?"

"I have a stupid brain and my Dad doesn't allow it because he wants me to work well and get good results."

I was like, FREAKING! What the hell did I just typed up there? Daisuke was asking the driver how much longer it'll take to reach there, and the driver told him the time instead. He didn't ask for the time! And examinations were not coming over, and Yune screamed, "WHAT? Exams are near?" And then what reviving homework... It's revising! Seriously man! And that last part, what my dad don't allow me to revive homework because I'm stupid and wants me to get good results... WHAT THE HELL DID I TYPE?! I quickly deleted them all and re-typed it.

Sheesh.

I think people are going to get angry after they read this. Oh well.

Mucho love,

PEIYUN

Easy Thursday Today

2008-09-11T02:59:00.000-07:00

Oh yes, updated the Girlfriends' blog, and thought I'd update my own blog as well. Well, exams are really round the corner- the days I thought would be so long to arrive have finally came. Really, start feeling the pressure. I want to end this school year yielding good results, and go for my holidays on a high note. That's what I yearn for, and I'm working for it. I want to go stay at a chalet or something, and basically play my heart out there. Really. With my family and relatives.

Day started out fine. Reached school around 7.08, and entered the E3 classroom, and then slight anxiety struck me when I realized she had actually kind of gave me a cold glare. I didn't know what on earth happened. So i just sat down, pretending nothing ever happened, and just unzipped my bag and started taking everything out... My story books, my pencil case, and everything. Then I headed over to my table and sat down, while doing aimless stuffs.

First period was Chinese, and Yi Tian did his Music 100%. Nice song from Jay Chou, and it was the song Dorothy listed as intended song for our Music 100%. Luckily we didn't choose so as to avoid choosing the same song. And then Miss Lam suggested having three people from each row get up there to write out the lyrics that were left blank. The guy sitting beside me, who kept asking me for my chinese electronic dictionary, looked up the word, "mei li" which was the "charm" and went up there to write it, but obviously he wrote it wrongly. He missed out on some small parts of the word. And anyway, they intended to write, "mei li" which was "beautiful" but the guy got the wrong idea, so... well, this was what happened next.

Because that guy asked me for the dictionary, Miss Lam called me up there to edit his word for him. I got out of my chair reluctantly, and I was muttering, "Why me..." Hope Miss Lam didn't hear me, though. So went up there, and realized there were no space for me to write the word. So I had no choice but to write a really small one. But Miss Lam told me to write it bigger, so I erased off that guy's wrong word. And rewrote it with my hands quivering. Seriously. When I finished writing, I was sure Miss Lam sensed it- my attitude and character changed.

Next was English. Because Dorothy had left earlier for home because she was not feeling well, our group was excused from the oral for the day, only required to present the day after. I was all relieved and began cracking my brain for our new conversation script. Damn, for we didn't do it all that well anyway.

Next was recess, and I spent all the time revising History, mulling really really hard over how to memorize them. Then, Mrs. Sng came in and it was history test. When I saw the fourth MCQ question, I was a bit like... "SHIT." already, for I couldn't really remember the content from my textbook. Next page, and the question was, "What is a government?" And I went, "Shit." again.

The rest of the questions I answered them any-o-how, so I hope I don't fail... Aiks, shucks.

Then afterwards was Maths. Seriously, Mr. Clayton loves picking on me. SERIOUSLY! HATE HIM.

Then, ended faster than I expected, and me, Siu Hui and Amanda headed over to the bus stop ahead of the one outside our school's back gate and decided to board 985 back home. While walking over there, noticed Yong Ming, Kenny and Jackie there as well. 985 came shortly after, and we all boarded it.

Me and Siu Hui sat on two vacant adjacent seats while poor Amanda stood by us, and she emo-ed too. OMG! Maybe she's thinking too much too? Friendship? Exams? Results? Those must be the things she's thinking about I guess, or maybe even LOVE? LOL, it's kind of impossible to me though. For now too.

Okay so afterwards me and Siu Hui went to Lot One, and Siu Hui went to buy her food while I waited for her. Then, we two headed over to the Comics Connection, where I bought one zig-zag manga, and S.A- knowing my money will be spent once again. But I didn't really care though. I'd buy S.A slowly. Real slowly.

Siu Hui bought the second book for a series I just owned, and the first volume for "Gakuen Ojisama" <- translation by me. I told her it was nice- which was actually based on my friend's recommendation. And then while paying for the manga, Siu Hui took a photo of the manga. Afterwards, we left the comics connection and took a photo on Siu Hui's phone. I look dumb, but anyway, Siu Hui could cover her face up with a heart shape.

You guys could go to her blog to see the photo, LOL.

GOODBYE!

"Hey, Shinn, are you sleeping?"

"What'd you think, dumbass. Just shut your ass up and leave me alone. SCRAM!"

"Hey, hey, cool it, I was just trying to ask- do you know who's P E I Y U N?"

"Oh, hell yea. That dumb author who wrote the story of ours..."

"... Yea. It's weird that she writes our lives. Is she our God...? I mean... Our life are written by her... And she made me look like I'm all a flirt! Like Maya! Being surrounded by all of you!"

"... Stupid. If she's a god, she won't be here typing this thing."

"You mean Gods can't type?"

"......"

PEIYUN

"I LOVE KAHARA MASAKI A LOT A LOT A LOT! AND MY DEAR SHINN IS COOL."

Solitary Dreams

2008-09-10T01:23:00.000-07:00

GOOD DAY PEEPS! <3 Hello, I'm blogging again after a long hiatus of a week. Sorry, once again, it's obviously that I ran out of events to blog on, especially since I'm the sort of person who always coop around my house and don't really go out to play, and neither do I have a whole load of friends. So there's basically almost zero events for me to blog about. So maybe I'll just blog about some random stuffs that I can really remember.

Yea, been spending much on mangas lately. Realized that I really do love mangas. I've spent a lot of money on them, and now I'm almost reaching my 70 mangas target. Just a few more books I think, around 70 more mangas. And I really aim to reach it by the end of this month. However, spending so much money isn't really a great thing either, since it basically digs a hole through my wallet which was once so filled with money I had not spent on food and other unnecessary items. I bought a lot of mangas that have been published for quite some time, for I didn't really get the chance to purchase them before. And I feel pretty abashed, since these books are really published for a long time. That's because I'm normally the type of people who always buy a lot of mangas and normally go for the newest ones, since I'm a pretty updated person.

But anyway, who really cares? All I need are the mangas. Not my face.

Going again to the comics connection tomorrow. With Siu Hui and Dorothy, with Siu Hui going to buy the "Club Mistress' A Female Maid!" and Dorothy going to buy an illustration book of Prince of Tennis. For me, I just might be grabbing a few copies of ZIG ZAG, and maybe MXO or even any Taiwan version of manga, which I might only be able to grab one... >< I'm trying to search for that author, but apparently came up empty-handed. Maybe I'll try even harder tomorrow. I'm not going up till I get that book! All right? ^^

I just hope I'd be able to buy all the mangas as soon as possible, for I really want to stop spending my money and save up. =) Actually, after reading so much mangas, I'm kinda fired up to faster go and master my skills as a mangaka, and publish my series of COOL manga. That's my dream; no doubt about it. But I know it'd be pretty tough, like all jobs. And being a mangaka can sometimes be very boring if no one's actually bothering to buy your books.

So I've decided to try to understand better how to draw impeccably HOT guys. I realize mangas like Vampire Knight, is actually very popular because of its huge fangirl base, all crazy after Zero or Kaname. That's why I'd need a few hot guys to make my manga a love at first sight for people. But seriously, people like WONG SIU HUI are hard to please. A fastidious one. She hardly find the guys hot. So I guess I'd be working doubly hard. *_*

And recently sitting with Yong Ming was kinda fun at times, especially when he made me laugh like a madwoman just yesterday. Telling me all those damn sick things about Mervin acting gay with GUYS. YAOI ALERT! OMG! And when he told me Mervin and Qinze's incident, I laughed like hell, and even had to ask him to stop to let me finish laughing. It was seriously revolting, but somehow, it was really funny when I pictured it in my mind... Qinze saying those words, man, I could take it.

And then Kenny kissed Jerome on the cheek. That was what Yong Ming told me anyway, and then Jerome kissed him back on the cheek. But the next time Kenny tried doing that, Jerome pushed him away. And the next time he tried doing that again, Yong Ming say that Jerome went, "Go kiss your..." COUGH. I seriously can't seem to type it... Umm... "Vagina."

Okay, cough, anyway, MATHS. I seriously don't like Mr. Clayton. He's now always hovering around my table to check on my work, adding so much pressure onto me that I always had to cover my work while I write. Then when he comes I'd just scratch my head, smile smile, look around and pretend nothing actually happened before he eventually walks away to check on others. Damn it!

Oh I feel pretty euphoric when I realized that I could score for 44.5/48.5 for my Chinese small little test. Was second highest, along with Amanda who improved! Good for her, for she always worried about her Chinese, but anyway, her Chinese was very good already since the outset, just that she didn't know. The only ones weaker in the class are only people like Kenny and Jasper. The rest were great. At least Chinese is still within control for me. I'd work doubly hard and be more excelling in my Chinese! I want to be top of the class someday for my Chinese, since it's more in hold than all the subjects. For example, Maths. There's just no way I'd be able to jump to 70+ all in a sudden, unless I work really really hard and turn smart all of a sudden.

I'd aim for 60+ first. At least. Please.

Okay. Next... Umm... Nothing much already... I don't really want to post too much like on Jerome or anything... ( I realize I had a lot to post about him in the past... But I don't really think I should. )Then my stories... Nothing that comical happened other than I received cool reviews from readers. It gets me psyched up.

Been walking home with Peiling the chiobu and smart girl nowadays. Got to know a lot... =)) It feels pretty cool, ever since I've just kind of changed to always board the MRT like her nowadays. =)) Not referring to the moments she asked me who I liked though, for I always brought the topic away onto Jiamin and Jerome being a better pair...? >.< I seriously couldn't answer her. I didn't even know if I truly liked him or not. It was just... standing on the middle line.

Okay then, time to go, so... BYE.

And anyway, I seriously hate next week's events. I mean, there'd be individual presentations for the Oral, then there'd be Literature Drama Skit, then there'd be an Algebra Math Test. Horrid much. I HATE IT! I HATE IT! I HATE IT! All right then, ending here. Till next time.

Mucho love,

P E I Y U N

"I love Kahara Masaki!"

"I'll never forget him again."

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Feeling... Weird.

2008-09-03T09:16:00.000-07:00

Hey all, posting again in the middle of the night! Realized I couldn't seriously get to sleep, so I mischievously switched on my laptop and started typing this post! I've been reading a lot, a lot of mangas lately, and I feel all pumped to buy more! Aman, look here, haha! I'm going to get crazier! I'm just going to light a fire and burn a hole straight my pockets! xDD I can't live without manga, and I'm reading a lot of shoujo manga nowadays, for the hot guys' sake. HAHAHA xDDD I got scolded for being a lecher because of that. Everyone calls me a pervert, I mean, come on, I know, I know, but oggling at hot guys has just got to be one of the peculiar hobbies that I yield. Freaking, ain't it? I got slapped on the back by my brother when I screamed that I love Kahara Masaki, which is basically an authentic truth, and now I think that agonizing pain lingers on that very spot on my fragile back... LOL.

Well, been feeling really odd nowadays, I don't know why. Firstly, I don't want to return to Swiss Cottage too, and I feel like the time is seriously passing too fast. I wished it could slow down, but then when I quiet down and relax, I realize it was actually what I prayed for every single year.

For time to pass quickly.

No one can stop time, you see, and I hate it. Good times are so hard to treasure, before you know it, they are slipping away from your fingertips, while bad times are always there, looming over your head like some terrifying disaster. Higgledy-piggledy.

I know I have gotten more trouble than ever resting on my back, and I seriously HATE IT TO THE CORE. I've no idea how did I stir so much trouble in school. I know you peeps are like- you stirred trouble in school? I thought you are...

Well anyway, that's not the main issue. I've seriously even started thinking if it's a nice choice to transfer schools, because actually, even though my mum doesn't say it, she wants me to be in Bukit Panjang more than in Swiss Cottage. ...I guess. Can't be sure too, my mum sometimes a bit... hard to comprehend.

But I don't really want to transfer reminiscing back about how I led my life in Swiss Cottage. It has been cool, serious, ad euphoric. I'd be regretful if I left, but another side of me exhorts me to leave. Somehow. Because whenever there's jubilee, there's melancholy. And I do have my melancholic pain within the school I'm studying in. But I'm not obliged to share for now ^^;; Aren't I being such a meanie? Yea... Go ahead and sue me... I know I'm really nefarious and odious, I admit.

And seriously, the other reason for not transferring is because he's there. Then all my fears that had evanesced while I'm in Swiss Cottage will re-surface. That's why... I'm kinda... *cough*

Regarding me feeling weird... I don't know, seriously. It can actually stem from all possible aspects. And I actually have some... seriously.... I don't know what to describe it past behind me, that I constantly brings myself back into that foreign world every once in a while and I realize I'd become even more perplexed than ever. I realize I'm starting to see things more openly than how I used to days back, and I no longer feel that "What on earth" if you were to date back to the Teacher's Day Celebration post. I'm starting... to revert to my carefree self just like.... two months ago. Sheesh, and phew. It's relieving to know about that, and I want to get on with my life, since end of year exam is actually just round the corner but I'm actually not feeling the heat.

Goddamn it. I must be in for computer banning. SERIOUSLY, I NEED TO WAKE UP! I KEEP TELLING MYSELF, BUT WHY IS EVERYTHING JUST GOING HAYWIRE FOR ME IN MY STUDIES? I KNOW I'M A LOSER, A FIASCO, BUT DOES THAT MEAN GODS HAVE TO MAKE THINGS SO TOUGH FOR ME TO GET THROUGH?

I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND!

And then more troubles seem to be popping up even though I take them insignificantly, for they aren't really that... hard to handle. I mean... the people causing the trouble aren't really doing anything much to it too, they are just waiting for my reaction. I appreciate that, but I know people are going to get hurt at the end.

I know this might sound weird but I've finally sorted out who I really like... So... Umm... Yea, people are going to get hurt. Like always in a crush from my observations... Firstly the identity of my crush has to be hidden (not), I'll tell at most one person. But umm... It's seriously not who you think it is, for the Swiss Cottage peeps reading this, and for Ruoyi, yea, maybe you'd know. Don't bug me, or I'll rant at Lester! xDDD I know you are reading this, sweetie~ <33 Heh heh. Uh, yea, if anyone is seriously taking what I typed above in this paragraph, you are seriously... fooled. LMAO, I know, I have nothing better to do after eating my dinner, which I ate like 5 hours ago before I typed this. People, you can murder me. Stab me, sedate me, maim me, I'm free for abuse. xDDD

And yea, this thing is seriously weird. What the hell did I just type? Never mind, I LOVE KAHARA MASAKI, AND HE IS MY CRUSH! Haha, I'M LAME! LMAO ROFL!

Okay anyway, beside from the acrid fact that I'm dying from overboard nosebleeding by staring at Kahara Masaki's images, and the charming pose he struck in the game... *cough* *nosebleeds* ...

I realize that my entire computer is seriously going to flood with hot guys' images. I mean, seriously! Kahara Masaki, Tachibana Kennosuke, Len Tsukimori, Aoi Kaji, Wakatsuki-sensei <3 !!!! ~~~ KEI HAZUKI~~

*faints*

(Gets up) W-Well, umm... yea, that's about all. Amanda, I've already listed out my must-buy comics list, and you are going to see how mad I've become. Seriously, Siu Hui is also going to inherit some genes from me if she has the money. She loves to spend money on manga too. While for Dorothy, it's all Hitman Reborn, eh? xDD Who thinks that Peiyun is a serious idiot and loves spending money, is totally evil, and loves kahara masaki please breathe!

All right then, will post again soon. And do take note that this post is entirely crappy, idiotic and seriously, stop reading. (looks, and realizes I'm already ending. LOL.)

What the hell has gotten into me for today's post?

Sorry if I sound a little too... something for anyone reading this. I shall apologize, and anything you not happy about in this post, just shoot it and I'll erase those parts away, I guess ^^;;

MUCHO LOVE <3,

MASAKILOVER- YEOPEIYUN

WAIIS! I LOVE KAHARA! HE'S SO COOOOOOOL. *dies* <- over-ly dramatic.

"I'll never forget his face ever again."

Oh yes, peeps, do anyone agree on this?

"Cat lovers are masochists while dog lovers are sadists?"

LMAO, reminds me of Jerome and Yong Ming. ROFL. Personally I don't really agree but umm... it's freaking hilarious to me.... xDDD

Yong Ming is not really a dog lover, but in some role-playing game that he, Jun Rong and Jerome devised out of boredom, he plays as the dog, going woof and everything. And Yong Ming is a SADIST. Serious. Jerome being a masochist... ~~ LMAO, I think masochist is a too strong word.

Horrible Weekend

2008-09-01T00:47:00.000-07:00

Hello... I'm blogging again. Is this a good thing or bad thing? I think it consists of both... Yea. When I blog, all you receive are tonnes of words, hell loads of them. And I realize i seriously love beating around the bush aimlessly, and thus making a short post damn draggy and filled with useless words. MAN! Sometimes I seriously need to think about what to post, if not I could be blogging for the entire day. And I'm freaking serious about it.

Firstly, people, do you think Yi Tian and Siu Hui are a compatible pair? To me, I feel so. Somehow. Oddly enough. Well, because they are both about the same height, and even though they are often loggerheads at each other, but as usual, as the saying goes, "ma shi teng, da shi ai". Or something similar to that. I tried their names on the Love Calculator, but the results I received weren't all that ideal. So, I'm a bit... melancholic.

Secondly, I'm down with a fever. And I can't stop reposing or have some siesta. Freakish enough too; in this state, how am I ever going to be able to start my revision? And also, do my homework? But luckily a week's enough to finish them even though it might not be the case for my revision... I seriously need to buckle up... And that's authentic...

Thirdly, I'm in love with Kahara Masaki. Totally grew obsessed with his playthrough in the game. <333333333333333333333 His ending was one of the sweetest, and I loved it when he was always so positive in his words, and I was pretty much touched when I saw the comforting words that he offered to the main protagonist, who, I don't care, has to be me, xD. Even though some of his events weren't as great as Ichinose's. Ichinose's great part was when I could finally change his character, and he'll turn from this tsundere hottie to this cheerful hottie. Seriously got my spirits up when I saw his seraphic smile. I was dazzled, and I screamed. He looked too hot for me to resist. Masaki ones are great too, especially the last kissing one, where he basically pinned the main girl to the wall and presented her a sudden, abrupt kiss. The main girl was taken completely by surprise, and before she knew it, the kiss ended.

I loved the last kissing picture. I LOVED IT! MAN, I keep looking at it, and it felt all too sweet. And next was the Sir Doctor's. In his story, which was actually pretty heartwarming, were a few nice images. But this doctor is erotic, and does erotic-teasing. There was one scene back in Ichinose's route, where he told the main girl, who blurted that he wasn't young anymore, "Oh. There's only you and me in this house. And you are already up on the bed. Perfect. How about we try now to see if i'm still young or not?" Seriously, if you get it, just cough and clear your throat, if you don't, best, you completely don't need to fathom this.

For the doctor's route, there'd be a third-party who completely pisses me off. She's already engaged to another man and when she suddenly met the doctor, she fell for him again when she was the one who ditched the doctor in the first place. I was like, to hell with you! The doctor belongs to me now! xDDD And then at last the doctor ditched the girl, no, rejected the girl's invitation for them to go out and date once again like they used to and chose the main girl. Obviously the main girl didn't know, so he waited until the Graduation Ceremony did he finally give the main girl a bottle of perfume. The main girl accepted it, thinking it was NOTHING, and the annoyed doctor slapped his own forehead, before muttering, "Why am I in love with such an idiot..." The perfume acted as some sort of love confession. But seriously, if I were the main girl, I would never guess too. It could be just a plain, simple gift and she might have been over the moon for absolutely nothing. But in this case it meant something, so as usual, expected from some crazy screaming weirdo like me, I SCREAMED!

Then he pushed the main girl to the floor, before he told her, "Just shut up and be mine." And kissed her. I SCREAMED! And I paused. Then I SCREAMED! And paused.

I loved the way he was being all so possessive, like, how can you tell your lover to "Shut up and be yours?" it didn't actually make sense in reality, but it was all so sweet in the game. I couldn't resist a good piercing cry that'd list me on the mentally challenged list.

Then we have... oh, never mind, if someone is even interested in the rest of the guys just leave a tag.... LOL.

I freaking love the game.

I want more, more, more!!

xDDDDDDDDDD

Mucho love,

PEIYUN!

P.S, I'm always going to add this from now on, "I'd never forget him again."

Confusions and Bliss

2008-08-29T05:01:00.000-07:00

Hihi, peeps! Long time since I blogged... Sheesh. Nothing to blog about, and basically, sometimes I seriously forgets to blog. Aren't I stupid? And here a note of sorry to Syafiqah; I'm sorry, I completely forgot to link you, will do soon. i'm pretty lazy, you see, hope you'll forgive me. ><

So yes! Today, 29th August 2008, the day I had anticipated through the entire year. This day ended quicker that what I had envisaged. I was longing, yearning for this day, wanting to see everyone, wanting to hug and embrace everyone after such an arduous year. At the outset of the year, this was the only day I yearned for, and i looked forward to it everyday, for I didn't quite like my new school- Swiss Cottage apparently. But slowly, as I got to immerse better in this new surrounding, I started liking the school and my class, even though it's still not as good as 6A, if I were to be seriously frenetic with everyone.

Today started off GREAT. I woke up earlier than expected, got changed and left house for school earlier. Arrived at Swiss Cottage, proud in 1E3 class tee. Haha! Then I made my way to 1E3, only to see Jackie and Hilda at the class door, staring at me, then they finally asked, "Have you given the money for the class fund?" I nodded. Then they beckoned me into the class.

Inside were only a few people. I put down my bag and then sat at the tables by the side, watching at the others did their stuffs, because I wasn't quite in the mood to go around hyper-ing, especially not with those two around. They kind of... lowered my morale. I'm not saying I hate them, I feel like I'm ruining their relationship with all those nefarious deeds that I had committed. Who am I referring to, you all must be curious- JM and JR. Oh, abbreviations? >< But I bet everyone gets it, since you all are such bright people. >< Or maybe I'm the stupid dolt.

I hope JM doesn't flare up seeing this here, but I'm sorry, I know you really like him. It's... pretty obvious. Don't flare up, I seek peace here. ^^;; So when I saw the two of them, I was dead confused over what to do. So all I did was to keep quiet by the side and I emo-ed for a while before JM came running over to me and i told myself to hyper and just smile... Even though it might be so fake. Let is be a fallacy that I'm always happy, then. I don't mind, because being happy is the best thing, but I just can't seem to keep up with my bombarding thoughts.

Then afterwards more people came, and I presented my gift around with a smile. My father spent a lot of effort helping me fix a gift, and I truly appreciated his help damn lots. He's such an altruistic person, and I truly love him. Thank you, daddy. I know I've not said this to you, but it's all because these words can no longer come from my lips, after all, it's not my character. I hope you'll understand, even though you are not reading this. ^^ I'm lame, right? xDDD

So, afterwards, our class was late, and we all dashed to the quadrangle. Miss Lam looks slightly annoyed and she hushed us into the quadrangle because everyone was waiting for us. Damn stupid actually, but I didn't really did care much about it. So, started the ACES day workout. Hate to admit, but this year was the best year that I actually did the movements. Felt some sense of accomplishment, even though I seriously sucked at the one where we had to roll our hands then move to the other side and roll again. I seriously had no idea how to do the footsteps, so I just went, "Lalalala" then any-o-how moved.

Did two times and ACES day ended. Went up to the Hall for teacher's day celebration. Over there I completely hyper-ed. In the beginning of the celebration, the teacher asked for volunteers up there to say a few words to say to the teachers. And then, around the last bit of the event, Junjie went up. I clapped and cheered like mad. Then the event started. SGT Zahin was one of the two emcees for the day.

There were several beatboxing performances. Seriously impressed. I was like rocking my head with the music they performed. like when they performed Sexyback by Justin Timberlake. I was like, "WOO! I love that song!"

Then there was also a performance by a Swiss Band. Don't really know what they called themselves though. The vocal for the band sang a little oddly, but thel ead guitarist rocked. At some parts of the song it was like very fast and extreme strumming, and he could play it pretty well. I was like, raising my two hands, and going, "ROCK ON!" xD

Then they got us to guess who the teachers in the photos shown were. An activity did in primary school too. But obviously for people like me who don't really know the teachers well, I could only smile and nod at the student's reactions. It was relatively fun, especially when the teachers were called to answer, and Mdm Tang, our discipline head, was like, "Mr. Rolan Ang or something, show us your head!"

And then SGT Zahin told her it was the wrong answer. I laughed like hell.

Then went back to class, and prepared the party for Miss Lam. Then we all squatted down and prepared to give her a "Happy Teacher's Day!" Pretty simple actually. Then, I realized that JM and JR were close to each other, so I gave another smile, before I eventually averted my attention to Junjie, who was hiding beside me under the table. I wanted to hide there too, for it looked like fun, but because I'm too much of a lout, and I was big-sized, I decided not to, and ignored the fact they were there, because of all my ongoing confusions.

Miss Lam came in and thanked us for the preparation. But, she started off with the negative reprimanding. Scolding us for being late to the quadrangle, and for our marks. MAN. I hate it. Kind of... brought away my enthusiasm. But we had the food anyway, and I emo-ed. MAN! Again? I'm just too bothered by my own confusions. There are too... much for me to handle. I've handled my own problems so many times, this time it might be a little too great. I no longer know what to do. I'll see first, I guess, and do the best solution so as to bring those two together, I guess.

Okay then. So, afterwards, went home with Siu Hui and Amanda. HAHAHA. Invited them up my house, and looks like Amanda has already got familiar with the route to my house. Whoahaha! I was pretty impressed by her! Rock on, Amanda! xD Then afterwards went to meet up with Ruoyi.

While walking there, I suddenly heard someone calling my name. I looked up, and went, "EHHH?" Because I saw Aaron, Eugene, Wai Hung and Lester. And my "EHHH?" became their laughingstock. Zzz. And then I walked one big circle before I eventually got to them, and then I waved and then they continued imitating my "EHHH?" Damn it!

THen I received an SMS from Ruoyi, saying she was in food court. I was like, lol, is it Food Junction? And was about to sms her back when I saw her. I was like, YES! There she is! And I ran over, hoping she'd see me, but she didn't, so I was like, NO FUN! :(

Waved to everyone there like some crazy maniac. Then, my darling Ruoyi, ate her lunch so damn slowly. No offense, darling <333 Then afterwards, our congregation headed off to CCKPS, running behind time. Then, over at the MRT Station, met up with one goddamn bastard- SEBASTIAN. Okay, don't use such a word, I shall describe him as, "A guy I don't really like". Sounds better? >< I don't want to be too harsh with my words too. ><

So, we boarded a bus to CCKPS. Well, I didn't intend to board a bus initially because I didn't bring my EZ-link, so I had to waste my precious one dollar to board the bus. Damn it! I forgot my ez-link! I didn't know they'd board a bus, didn't think that far. So we went there in our congregation, then spent some time at the bus stop trying to finish their cards then we entered.

First met up with Mdm Teo who was basically standing beside the vending machine in our school canteen. Ran to her and gave her the piece of junk I drew. She thanked me, and wished me luck. Didn't know what to talk to her either, so I ran around >< and she was like staring at me, peiyun, what's wrong? Sorry MDM TEO! Didn't mean it!! Was I showing defiance? AH, don't hate me for it!

Then, went to see Mr. Tay. But because he's a highly popular male teacher, he was busy attending to his students, so I merely left my piece of paper in between the gifts. It was yet another piece of junk. So I wanted to conceal it. Then I hid my paper for Miss Neo too. Then Miss Neo came to hug me, so I hugged back. Whoahaha. Lol! It was pretty funny, but I really like Miss Neo. Then afterwards we went to take photos with Ms Phang and Mr. Tay. I basically did the same pose for each goddamn photo. Because I didn't feel like changing. And Mr. Tay was like, "Why don't you change? So boring ah, Peiyun!"

I laughed it off.

We went back to the canteen and I played around with people. Especially my darling Ruoyi. I kept squeezing her cheeks as if i was trying to squeeze blood off her cheeks. LOL!

And then. I looked around. He wasn't here yet. I kept quiet, telling myself he won't be coming anyway, so I just continued enjoyed my time there with the rest, laughing all the way. I was trult blissful. Then, while I was resting my back against a pillar, trying to reminisce about a few events, I looked over at Sebastian's boy gang, and suddenly, my eyes spotted him. I stopped and stared.

He was here.

I was very surprised.

And he didn't look he did change either. And then suddenly, he glanced over at me, and I was stupefied, and immediately avoided his gaze. MAN! He came! This is my second time that I actually got to see him! After such a long long time, his image had already faded in my mind, and finally I got to refresh my memory!

And then I realized he kept glancing over at me. Yea... I know, first time he met me in the entire year. Then afterwards, after the whole thing ended, me and Ruoyi walked our way to Lot One. on the way, met Sherlyn and we three went over to lot one, where my nice Ruoyi darling (see, I didn't choose the wrong darling <3) bought two mangas that costed more than what I wanted her to pay for me. I was damn touched, and I swore that I'm going to buy presents for her too.

Then, we walked around aimlessly. Then, while walking over to Mini Toons, suddenly a very very familiar person walked out of Mini Toons, and I waved. He waved a little before asking, "Eh, where's Jerome?"

I was like WTF, and I scream, "I DON'T KNOW!"

Then we went separate ways. We also met Cheryl and Hui Ling. Until Ruoyi wanted to go down to Macdonalds. So we followed, and realized Kenny and his primary school friends were standing outside a jewellery store, and I realized it was the perfect time to GET BACK AT HIM. So, I walked over, and called him.

"Kenny." Damn, too engrossed, didn't hear me.

I raised my voice.

"Kenny." He turned over, and so did his friends.

"Buying present for Tian Yi ah?"

He was like, "HUH?"

I repeated for him, feeling so goddamn stupid, and he gave no reply. LOLS! Got back at him! Entered Macdonalds, and I was still feeling a little abashed over what I told Kenny when suddenly I saw Aida and Si Ni. Waved. Moved to the counter. Looked again. Saw Sebastian, Thai Ming and him. I was like, WTH?

Afterwards went home.

That pretty much ends the day, but not forgetting the idiotic conversation shared with NG YONG MING. He told me he wasn't feeling anything and wanted me to tease him with SERENE. Well, I suggested that though. Then we played the MSN games, and obviously he won. Lol. I suck at those; I told him already.

Mucho love,

Peiyun!

P.S: I'll never forget this day, and his face. Never.

I HATE SJAB.

2008-08-22T02:00:00.001-07:00

Oh well, long time since I last blogged about a day. Nothing much to post on lately? I mean, nothing's much happening. Every single day of my goddamned life seems to be all so mundane. UNTIL TODAY. I SERIOUSLY DETEST IT.

So, went home, and went out to eat without going to CCA. The acrid truth is, I've decided on not going back. I can't get myself to, I feel too frightened to actually muster enough courage to turn back where I am standing now and return to my CCA. Frankly speaking, there's just utterly no way. I'm willing to start on a new one and devote my time to it, but definitely NOT SJAB. I can't even get myself to go back. Just thinking about it makes me shudder in utter fear. Is this a CCA that I should commit more time to? My answer, no. It makes me more frightened than blissful.

I never really did enjoyed SJAB a lot. There wasn't a single time where I screamed, "SJAB rocks." However, there were times where I was lucky serving as a SJAB, for I could easily escape from some events and also get to participate in other activities such as rendering aid. I truly appreciated those opportunities, for it made me life brighter by those, and not as dull. I thank them for those, and some of the hilarious moments shared in training, but that's all. I'm not cut out to be a uniformed group member. I should have known right from the start.

So, today, at approximately 5, my phone rang and I braced myself for the worst. It was within CCA time. None of my friends could be calling me, for they are all having CCA. Not my Primary school friends either, for they don't call now, they simply sms as all lazybums. Just kidding about that, they are all meticulous peeps. So I answered it, hoping it wasn't what I expected, but too bad, it WAS.

At the other end was Hwee Ping, and she was tensely demanding that I returned to the school right away to hand up the walkathon card, saying my senior was dead furious about it. I didn't give a damn. I couldn't even head back to Swiss Cottage. So I told her, NO, and that I would give it to Mr. Ethan Wong on MONDAY. But she refused, saying it must be handed up, NOW.

I was flustered. DAMN THOSE PEOPLE! So I continued persuading with my heart palpitating, and eventually SGT Zahin came to the phone, telling me, "Okay... i'll call you back later if there's anything else." in a very calm and placid manner. It's good that it WAS Zahin, for he's like... a nice senior. I'm sure if it was the other seniors they'd be screaming at me. WHY DID YOU NOT COME FOR CCA WHEN YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO? WHY AREN'T YOU HANDING UP YOUR CARDS? The truth is, I didn't who to hand it up to, and when. No one told me, and Hwee Ping said she sent an sms, but I guessed with the status of my rotten phone, the message must have not reached me.

I really hate the CCA now after this small incident. I know seniors are trying to get their work done and I shouldn't add too much to their workload, but seriously, if they call one more time, on my home phone, I'm going all out. I'm not going to hold back. They ignited me, filling me up so much with animosity until I can really run bonkers. This is this. That is that. I know I'm unable to quit, but at the same time, I'm unable to go back, so there's utterly NO WAY I'M GOING BACK. They'd better know it well, my seniors. But I don't think they do, for, Zahin was still treating me like as if I was still back in the squad, not pon-ning, calling me Peiyun this and that. I really appreciate his kindness though, but sorry, I'M NOT GOING BACK.

I know I sound a little obstinate and not the usual Pei Yun that you know all along, but do try to bear with me. I'm currently running a temper over this... Because when you really hate something, and that something keeps coming to you, everyone will be insane.

Right now, my anathema is... SJAB.

I thank you for the memories, SJAB, but I hate you for the pain I went through. I'm such a fragile and weak person, thus, there's no way I'd enjoy it in there. I'm weaker than everyone else, and that's a very apparent fact.

I hope you'd understand, and loosen your rope on my little foot; set me free!

Kiss!

2008-08-17T07:29:00.000-07:00

Good evening, people... It's pretty late now... Know I'm going to get it for sleeping late too >< But well... It's okay. Immuned to stuff. Visited around blogs aimlessly, and found my ex-cckps 6A classmates blog around. Pretty exciting to view. Get a deeper knowledge into their new lives. I just can't believe one thing- SEBASTIAN POH ACTUALLY GREW SO MUCH TALLER! I was so enraged- I was actually still triumphing last year that I was so much taller than he was so that I could at least lower his arrogance level. (Err... He'd better not see this yahhs? xD)

Everyone is doing sooooo well. I'm sooooooo glad. To the extreme! I want to see all of you guys again! <333

Okay. So basically, yesterday, my brother used my account. And chatted with people like Siu Hui, Jerome and Qinze. Jerome standing on the main priority I guess. I don't know why he looks for him. And I'm sorry for all the trouble caused people... I fell asleep on my own bed... It's pretty dumb really... So blame me all that you would.

His english basically sucks. So, there'd be this margin of difference between me and him and its impossible for him to impersonate me well enough. He's good at the starting though, so watch out! He'd go, "hi" in my normal way, so I thought I should change it into a more personalized one. Maybe, "hiheeees!" or something peculiar. That fits my character after all. I'm a weird buffoon.

I've been crazy about a lot of stuffs recently. Man, I love mangas. They just rock! But my mum isn't very supportive at times though, she just gave me a castigation because I read too much love mangas. Sheesh. No choice, I guess. Growing up, and I have to write love stories too, so it makes it perfectly inevitable.

And then games. I play tonnes of games... Makes me crazy that's why. I've been pretty much into this phrase, "Kiss X Kiss!" Not from the game nor manga, but I feel kind of attached to this special theme. I AM WEIRD. Greatness heavens.

Anyway, SINGAPRE CLINCHED SILVER! I stopped watching after Feng Tian Wei lost. Lol. Not because I'm agitated, but because the tension in the game is so high I practically couldn't take it and I just went off to play my games. After all, the result can easily be expected, Singapore is just going to lose it all. It's so... mundane up till now. Getting a silver is good enough for dear Singapore. They don't really have much hope of putting up a really good fight, they just lost everything. Making faults and everything.

Oh. I'm such a slacker nowadays too. Barely does homework. Normally drags them off to the final minute. I'm such a damned students. Should improve on my attitude before I start failing more... Hmm~ Yea... I really should.

Ending here. Nothing much to blog on once again but for the sake of my passion for blogging basically... (Typing actually... I love typing...)

Mucho love,

D3stinyx; Pe!yun

Suey Suey Wednesday

2008-08-13T03:09:00.001-07:00

Aww shucks. Can't help it, but finally something good to blog about. Today. 13 August. Damn it man... Started the day off as per normal and nothing much happened until ENGLISH. Man, I got back the Comprehension Passage 2, and scored pretty well for it even though I did them without battling an eyelid (which is very uncommon). So I was pretty surprised. Then during Reading period, it was reading aloud. Amanda finished reading, then I thought they would start from the front, but who knew, it was from the back, so I was still waiting for Afiq to read when suddenly people called Yong Ming Yong Ming while Jun Jie yelled my name. Then I was like, reverted to my senses and looked around, by then Yong Ming already stood so I was like... "Aww, shucks, sorry!!"

So, afterwards, my turn to read. Then I realized one major problem, the paragrpahing was all squeezed together, and I didn't know where the next line was amongst all the cramped words so I began reading slowly, even pausing at certain areas. Made me feel like a numskull. And then at last there was this thing about the lady being the laundry I was like, WTH? Laundry? But I just read anyway and sat down. LOL. Now that I think about it, it was stupid, really.

Then, literature. Nothing much. Yong Ming was going to sleep soon, so I was just looking around, and occasionally trying to get him awake. Lessons ended, and out of boredom I opened up the literature package straight to the page where I drew the 3 characters, and then suddenly, someone's head popped up by my side. Curious, I looked, and found Ms. Rina by my side, requesting to see the page again. I was like, what page...?

Then she turned the pages on her own and back at the drawings page. There, she seemed a little astounded, and praised me for the drawings. I thanked her and nodded, before I hurriedly looked away in embarrassment.

Then it was Science. One of the worst lessons for my day. Yes, started off, going through answers for my Science. As usual, I didn't know how to do a lot of questions, so when it was Yong Ming's turn to answer the question, I asked Mr. Seow if I could exchange questions with him, since he did the other question. But Mr. Seow looked at me weirdly, and said, "You don't know right? Okay, never mind, go up there and learn." I was like... "SHIT."

So afterwards he called me to the front to erase the board, which I heeded obediently, so I erased then he drew the drawing for me while I gawked at him. Then he asked me the don't know what anti-clockwise thingo that I completely didn't fathom at all so I was staring hard at him, and he slowly guided me through the steps. Wasted at least 5 minutes or more up there LOL, all because of my stupidity and Mr. Seow demanded that I meet him up after school. Utter shit.

Then Chinese. Ms Lam came into the class looking a little pissed and upset. Our class people didn't wear the school shirt back on after ET, and were still in the Class Tee despite warnings. So, she was upset. I can understand that, after all, she did remind us last week, so this time, it was the fault of those people who refused to wear it on.

Then, she wanted us to hand up our Chinese Compositions. As expected from 1E3, people never hand in their homework AGAIN, and Miss Lam wasted one period of hers doing a light lecturing, and sent out punishments to people like Kenny, the class monitor, who forgot to do his homework, and Yong Ming is also supposed to write 50 for him. So, I was pretty glad I did them, even though it didn't really look... that presentable. I wrote bosh inside, seriously.

Afterwards, it was Chinese lesson, and while we were studying the topic, Miss Lam brought something revolting up, and that was about this recent incident... umm... I'll tell all of you reading this if you don't know yet...

Miss Lam told us about this event that had recently happened in SWISS COTTAGE. People, it's capitalised. So, yes, there's this boy and this girl, and they are steading. And the guy influenced the girl negatively so they'd always pon school together. Yes, so they pon-ned for a few times, before finally, the boy brought the girl back to his house. (Oh, cliche.) And obviously they had... yea. Intercourse. ^^;;

And the guy even took... nude photos of the girl. And once back to school, he began flaunting to his friends like, "Hey! I did intercourse with my girlfriend already!"

And guess what? The girl is........

Sec 4.

NAH.

Sec 3.

NAH.

Sec 2.

NAHHHH.

Sec 1. YES.

SEC 1 PEOPLE!

I WAS GOING TO FAINT!

WHO? WHO? WHO? I repeatedly wanted an answer, but obviously I thought it'd be better to leave it alone for the time being.

That's all peeps. I'm not feeling good today... Sorry. I might emo. -.-

Home Economics- Fun?

2008-08-05T03:29:00.000-07:00

Oh, Tuesday already. Long time since I posted? True. Pretty true. xD Basically I don't have much to post on, and I've been busy with stories. Like always!

Monday 4th August 2008

Man. Started off with History. Entered the class, and everyone was reading History textbooks. Mrs. Sng entered the room, and I prepared to meet my doom. Then, Mrs. Sng suddenly asked if we wanted the test on Monday or Thursday. Everyone was like Thursday. So, Mrs. Sng changed the date. Then YM was like grousing beside me, saying things like, "Ya lorh, 1E3 always like that. I should have raised my hand." He sounded pissed, but I guess he didn't actually meant it. So, I answered, "1E3 is always like that, what can we do about it? More importantly, what can YOU do about it? Ask them to be guai kias?"

Then P.E. Okay, passing basketballs again, and I've grew utterly bored of the game. Throughout each activity, I was like, ".... Yea man.... Great game... Continue playing... Count me out..." And then I'd walk out of the court pretending I'm out of the game. Then I'd go watch Hui Yun chasing Jerome around, and then I'd laugh, then look around, then I'd go see Jia Min with Jerome then I'd laugh and look around then I'd go and talk crap with people! YAY! xD

Once, the teacher called Blue House to go out and demonstrate the passing of balls.

Then all the 3 boys- Yi Tian, Jerome and Kenny went out immediately. Then I stood up. And I heard people calling my name. Then I was like... "What... Who's calling me?" Then I looked around. Tian Yi, Cheryl and Hui Yun were still sitting. So I dilly-dallied, and then I squatted down again. Then the teacher called us again, then I quickly stood up and moved beside the guys, staring at the teacher.

The rest of the girls joined afterwards.

Before the girls joined, Hui Yun said something, and afterwards the teacher wanted to know her name. But she might have pointed wrongly, and pointed at me. So all the guys were like, "Pei Yun." I was like WHAT? I did nothing wrong! xD Then they said, "Oh, Hui Yun." These names sound alike please! I always think the teacher is calling me when he or she calls Hui Yun.

Then we started passing balls. Kenny passed the ball. (I can't really remember the sequence) and I got the ball. Then someone shouted, "Pass to Jerome!"

And I was like O_O. My instant thought was, don't pass to him. Jerome will hate you for it. So I turned around and passed to Tian Yi who was somewhere behind me.

Then we did push-ups. Immuned to push-ups after St. John.

Then Science. Nothing much, it was just that I didn't fathom what the hell the teacher was teaching about. But I kinda feel bad about it, because I'm not scoring well for it, and sometimes I'd tell Jerome about it, and he'd only tell me the same few things. I think I should work harder too, but... >< Ah, I don't know. Then during Science, YM called me a pervert. I was like, "WHY?"

Then he say, "Coz' you go rape your husband."

"WHEN DID I?" I was flustered and demanded to know, then he answered, "During P.E! When Hui Yun go fling Jerome's clothes and then..." "... Oh. That, uh... But I just saw, I didn't go fling his shirt!"

Okay. Then CME. There were 4 periods, so Miss Lam decided that we can watch a movie. I was elated. MOVIES! The title was Les' Choristes. When I watched the introduction to it, I was like shaking a sleepy YM beside me, "Hey, is this the one the Science teacher showed us last time?" YM looked at the screen blankly then told me, "NO."

"I think so leh!"

"I don't know lah."

The movie was damn good. I mean, I love watching these kind of movies. A huge plus was that the guys were singing beautifully. I love listening to their songs, and I was like tapping my foot according to the music. Morhange, a guy in the show sang so well I was besotted with him. He had such a cute face too. I mean, seriously. xD

Then stayed back for Maths Remedial. Suddenly got all enraged and I began throwing a little temper in class. Keith and the rest messed up the room without cleaning it up and I just went forward stomping and everything and tidied the place up.

Maths remedial. Surprised to see Chee Teck or whatever there. SJAB guy. Then he kept talking until Mr. Clayton wanted him out of the class. LOL. At the end of the lesson Mr. Clayton was like staring at me, "Pei Yun, can?"

I was like, "Yea..."

Then he looked at me, in a state of disbelief.

I nodded.

He looked at me hard on the face.

"Then make sure your next test don't fail it so bad."

"Okay... I... I will try..."

Went home, and whee~

5th August 2008

OKAY! Today! First lesson, Art. Sheesh. Drawing graffiti. I seriously... suck at it. YM was sleepy again, looking at me with bleary eyes and everything. Lol. Okay. Then, nothing much, went for Science at a new location. Entered the room, and anyhow sat down. Then listened for a while, then was ordered around by Dorothy. Like, I so gong... So I made a lot of mistakes and Dorothy was like O_O.

Then at some point of time Dorothy left to take some string, I think. Then I was like talking to her from where I sat. Then suddenly Jerome came over in the direction where Dorothy left for the table. Then I was like, O_O. I felt so abashed because he might think I was talking to him. Jerome waved at me, then I was like a bit stupefied; taken aback, first time I gave no response, so he waved again, then afterwards I waved back. xDDD Sorry... ><

Then English. Listened to different people reading the passage. Then group discussion.

Maths. Nothing much. Home Econs! YAY! I brought my apron and container and happily skipped(?) there. xD Then wore everything and entered the room, going to bake the muffins already. Went in there, and everything was quite okay, until Siu Hui and I had a small altercation and everything. I'm in a pretty bad mood nowadays so I'm really sorry.

Our group was among the last few to leave. Our muffins were very weird, and I mean it. Others' were so much better than ours.

At some point Hui Ling suddenly ran over to me. I was like, "Lol, such a nice girl, back to help us again?" Then who knew, she ran and then showed us muffins. Then Siu Hui reached out and tried taking the muffin. Then Hui Ling brought it away from her reach and I was like, "Huh...?" Then she looked at me and said, "Come, Pei Yun, tear into half... This is from Jerome."

I was like thinking, "Oh. That means I shouldn't take it right..."

Then she was like, "Come! Tear into half!"

"I shouldn't." I thought, but anyway I just tore half and ate it. Then Hui ling brought it away, telling Siu Hui that she wasn't trying to "share Jerome's love" but it was because Cheryl made it too. I half-believed her. Sorry, didn't mean that Hui Ling, but if you really like Jerome it's really okay with me. Seriously.

Then we gave one muffin to Ms. Lydya and took 3 home. Then, suddenly, Hui Ling ran over to me and told me to go and see Jerome. I was like, "Huh..."

She pulled my hand and dragged me to the window. No choice, I tiptoed and saw Jerome huddling himself in a corner with Jia Min they all surrounding him, looking like they were going to murder him.

I said, "Okay... Saw him... I go back liao."

Then Hui Ling was like, "No... Must see longer..." But I just left anyway. Syafiqah smiled and laughed when she saw me walking away ><

Hmm... By then should be already well off 1.10 p.m.

After Ms. Lydya tasted our muffin and commented that we had baked it too hot, I left the room hurriedly because people were waiting for us out there. Then while I was collecting my stuff from the table in front, Jia Min called me and I thought something bad happened. So I rushed to her, asking what happened. Then she was like, "I have muffins from Jerome!" I was like, "...Oh."

"He gave it to me, but I don't want, so you take!"

I was like... "...Oh. You sure you don't want... Jia Min..." ><

Then Siu Hui came out and she took out my small container and stuffed that muffin in by force. Then she was like, "YES!"

I was like, "Okay... I'll eat it..."

Well, seriously, JM and Jerome is very compatible. I mean it.

Then, JM pondered if she should go for band. I told her NO, because she had a swollen finger. Then we went around searching for Miss Lam after I accompanied Amanda for a bit. Found her, Miss Lam said NO, and talked to her senior. She went home with me and Siu Hui.

Then at the bus stop I found Jia Min talking to another friend. Woo, an ex-crush of Kenny. Then she kept talking about Jerome being shuai. So I was like nodding. The only thing I knew of doing. JM borrowed my bottle and started drinking from it because she was thirsty. Then my bus came and I hurried away without even knowing that I left my water bottle with her. Sorry! I'm really sorry!

Then at home, viewed stuffs and chatted. Revised a bit of history. Then Siu hui placed some "Jerome and Pei Yun= Shinn and Yune" I was like LOL. My eternity! YAY! My baobei story! <33

Okay then! Ending here!

Mucho love,

Pei Yun <3

First Time

2008-08-01T01:26:00.000-07:00

Hello, blogging on Friday, which is obviously today. >< Okay. Start off. Reached school pretty late. I think. And realized a black package was on my table. I picked it up and a smile went across my lips.

"YES! WOW, CLASS TEE!" I cheered, then afterwards everyone went out of the classroom to queue up. Obviously Dorothy and Siu Hui were late, so I paired up with Amanda and we stood as the first two. Wee~ Then, I hyper-ed down the way to the hall, and then Amanda smacked me. Hai... Pain...

Then, went down the stairs and Dorothy climbed up the stairs staring up at us. Lol, pretty embarrassing moment I guess for being late. I wouldn't like being late either. The boys will always go, "WOOOO" like WTH. So, skip. First period, Music. We started singing National Day songs, but like usual 1e3 was so NOT enthu. So I had no choice, I sang pretty loud, except for the high-pitched parts, where I feared that my voice might go haywire and sound like some rotten egg.

Next, ET. Ran like siao, because there was a slight laceration on my nose, and it kept bleeding like crazy. I kept wiping off the blood with my hands, but it kept bleeding. In the end, my hand smelled so bloody and sticky. Damn it! Then when I got back to class and got my tissue from Amanda, I immediately collapsed onto my chair and I was simply so exhausted I was huffing and panting.

History. Nothing much. So, skip. Recess. Nothing much again, boys playing around the room, but there was one incident when Siu Hui mentioned Jerome's name loud and clear; so limpid, and then Jerome just nice entered the classroom and stared at her. I pretended not to know anything and continued doing my homework. Siu Hui smiled meekly at Jerome. Jerome will kill me!!

So, skip even more. Ms Rina told us to read aloud some parts from the "Other Cinderella" story. I was like, WTH. >< So, Jerome's group was the first group to read, and I could only hear Jun Rong and Andrew damn well. I could barely hear Jerome and Yong Ming, who looked like they were whispering. But well, at least I know they were actually reading since I could hear their voice. Then, Chinese lesson. We started writing our letter, and I was like -.- throughout the entire two lessons. Okay. Then lastly Maths lesson. At the beginning of the Maths lesson, I was looking over at Jerome and Ee Min that direction. Then, I saw Ee Min tossing Jerome's bottle to the ground. Then Jerome looked kind of pissed and asked him to stop, but Ee Min never paid heed to his words. He bent over, picked up the bottle and continued throwing. Ah. Finally, ignited the Clayton bomb, and then Clayton strode over to the two of them and told them to stop throwing. Then, he conficscated the bottle. Afterwards, Jerome emo-ed, and I didn't know what to do. I thought it will be over soon, but it didn't. Okay, wait first. For Maths, we had to work on a Maths sum, which I told Yong Ming I'd take a long time on, and Yong Ming was like, "WTH! Then let me do instead!"

Then at some point of time he removed his school shirt and changed into his PE Shirt just like Serene they all. So, I told him, "Orh... I know, you follow Serene right..." He said nothing! So, afterwards, I fanned myself because the ulcer in my mouth burned, and Yong Ming added, "Yea, serves you right for saying the wrong stuff."

I was like, "Lol, I got the ulcer before I said that. ;)"

He was speechless. To hell with him!

Okay hen, we had short time to play games. Then, during that time, Jun Rong called Yong Ming over and told him that Jerome was emo-ing because of the Ee Min's incident. I was like "... How?"

Yong Ming said nothing.

Then, end of lesson, and Mr. Clayton called Jerome over, and I was like staring at them pretty nervously. Why? Because Jerome was emo-ing, and was Mr. Clayton ever going to add oil to the fire? I didn't know, so I kept quiet and stared at him.

Then, he went over to Mr. Clayton, and Mr. Clayton asked him about the water bottle. I still kept quiet and continued watching him. Then, Jerome started explaining to him, and then I was hoping that the incident will be over. But then Jerome suddenly lowered his head, and I straightened my back, staring at him intently.

Then he rubbed at his eyes, and the next second I know he was about to cry. I was at a loss for words, and all I could do was to keep shaking anyone who came around me and telling them that Jerome was crying. I was like, oh my gosh! I could tell that Mr. Clayton was shocked as well, and then he seemed to be at a loss too. Then Jerome simply returned to his seat- crying already. I was like "..."

Then, I looked around, knowing what to do. Then, I fished out the piece of paper beneath my handbook and then I purposely missed the rubbish bin at the back and went all the way to the front to throw it away, also taking a look as I went past. He was sobbing, and I was like... I didn't know what to do. So, afterwards when I was about to return, I went to his side and asked if he was okay. He looked sideways at me, his eyes red and his cheeks all puffy and everything and he barely managed a "Yea."

I was like O_O. First time! First time I saw Jerome like this, getting so upset just because of the water bottle incident. I didn't know what to say, so I stared at him for the next few seconds before I smiled, stood up, patted him on the shoulder and walked away. He was going to be fine, I was sure of that.

At that point of time, Farah, Hui Yun and Jerome were like the only ones in foul mood or sleeping in the class. So, after Siu Hui and Hui Ling left for some place that I have obviously forgot due to STM, I walked to the whiteboard and started erasing stuffs off the board while staring at the 3 of them closely.

Then, minutes later, I saw Mr. Clayton walking over to Jerome and passing him his water bottle back. Ha. Scared of Jerome already, I guess, watching a big boy like him cry. I was sure Mr. Clayton didn't mean to make him cry, and felt guilty and returned him the bottle. I was "Phew" when he did that.

So, skip skip skip. Went home with Siu Hui, who along the way went to buy some food. Lol. Then went home, and I ate all my favorite after-meal snacks once again after a one week break T^T. Then she started sending sms-es and offline messages to JEROME. I was like, WHAT? And she even spammed my c-box with Jerome's name. ><

Haiz. Then heard from her that Hui Ling and Jia Min cried too. I didn't know what to say again. So, it's like, Jia Min X Huiling X Jerome. YAYYY! They all cry on the same day. Lol. But traingle-love... How can.... Lol.

So that pretty much ends my school day in Swiss Cottage. The first time I saw so many people actually crying...? Especially Jerome? ><

Simplicity is the word

2008-07-31T05:14:00.000-07:00

Hello. Today is Thursday! Hahaha, nothing much for today. Pretty much the easiest day to actually ride over. It's like... 3 periods of Chinese used for a Chinese test that I mulled over pretty hard and actually led to a neck strain, and two periods of English which was basically slacking at the back with Yong Ming. Recess. Did nothing much other than finally setting down my pen for my Gundam Seed story. I stopped writing for a month or so? Got chided by Afiq for writing at snail's pace? God! xD

Hmm, then afterwards History. Uh-oh. Mrs. Sng flared because 4 people never do homework. Surprisingly, it was two boys two girls. I was like LOL. It was written everywhere across my entire goddamn face when I realized of it. So, basically, listened half-heartedly, with YM continuously showing me his "essay" on the last History question that we were actually supposed to do.

Then Maths. It has got to be the funniest lesson for the day. Not because Mr. Clayton's lesson was boring or anything, but it was just funny! So, initially, Mr. Clayton started the lesson requesting for two volunteers. Obviously I'm down for bad luck and I got picked. And I was like ranting, "What the hell?! I was already picked BEFORE!"

Then Mr. Clayton walked over and at that time Yong Ming was holding onto my Mathbook (trying to help me do because he never do his own homework and I didn't do the part about surface area) he was like, "Peiyun, is this book yours or his...?" I smiled meekly at him and said, "Mine." Then he flipped the book to the cover page, then looked at Yong Ming, "How about yours?" Yong Ming grinned like a fool at Mr. Clayton, "Uh... I never do." And Mr. Clayton looked like he was going to explode and we two just smiled like idiots at him. Then he told me, "Okay, surface area you do," he points at Yong Ming, "And you do the volume." He points back at me.

At that point I was thinking, "Hell yea, we've been doing that."

So good Syafiqah had already been up there writing down her answer meticulously. Me and Yong Ming were still stuck there, while I exhorted Yong Ming to hasten and finish up the question because he just couldn't get the answer. Till the end, it was all because of a single miscalculation. By the time I was copying down his working onto my book, Mr. Clayton looked at me because Syafiqah had long finished her working and everyone was waiting for me to get the lesson going.

Then I hurriedly rose to my feet and rushed over, running very awkwardly, and I any-o-how drew some cuboid. It was a matter of random strokes with the marker. Then, while copying down the working onto the board, I realized that my words cannot squeeze into the damn limited space provided by Mr. Clayton. So what I did was to erase some part of the line, then wrote through it. LOL. I heard people laughing behind me.

Then after that I rushed back and looked at my answer, with a WTF face.

And then I went home with Amanda. On the way out of the school gate, saw Jun Rong, Jerome and Yong Ming strolling out of the school, except that they turned the opposite side from the route Amanda and I took. So, yea, basically speechless.

Those three guys were going off to get the class-tee I think. So, yea, basically went home and slacked.

But yesterday night was one of the worst for me I can tell. Firstly, my mother created a din in my room. Then, I fell asleep on my bed, and woke up at around 5.30, missing my only chance to finish typing my story. Goddamn it! Okay, so when I woke up, I realized that my computer was still on. So, I shook my cursor and then, my jaw fell and my eyes widened.

"Hmm... Jerome...?" I muttered, and then I was thinking it was some sort of offline message from him, but when I opened the conversation box up, I realized that the time was "5.22 a.m" and the time for me that time was "5.23 a.m" so that means he had just sent me that message. So I was like... HUH... got pretty confused but I replied him anyway. Realized he was up doing homework. So, in order to avoid my Mother's chastisement, I quickly told him bye after chatting with him for a short while about a few stuffs. Then went back to bed, laid down and fell asleep for a few short minutes before it was time to wake up again. Then went to school... ZZZ

Troublesome Monday

2008-07-28T04:41:00.000-07:00

Monday. The Beginning of the week. Goddamn it. -.- I woke up halfway realizing that it was still damn early then I was like cursing myself for waking up during the bleak early moments. I flopped over to the other side of the bed and couldn't get to sleep. Damn it. But eventually I fell asleep but I woke up late. So, yea, damn, rushed to school.

Reached. Just entered the class, and realized that it was time to go down. But everyone protested, jeering at whoever clicked off the lights. I went over to my table occupied by Hilda and gang before I simply left to find Amanda, but that was when the lights, which were switched on afterwards, were switched off again, and everybody left their seats for outside in utter annoyance.

So I joined and stood beside Amanda. And for some uncanny reason I hyper-ed. It must be because I emo-ed too much until my head went bizarre. So I was cheering and actually screaming on the journey over to the hall. Sheesh. People, if you find me weird, or actualy rude/impudent/insolent nowadays, please bear with me. I don't know what's going on inside my head nowadays actually. I apologize if I ever offended you in any way.

So, nothing much to say afterwards, until CME periods. Yea, this time, Miss Lam ended her sexuality education, saving me from some questions from Jun Jie asking me about sex. (But Jun Jie's mind is still clean.) Instead, this time round, she did this simple game with us, called the message-passing game I presume, and I was lucky I never got picked, for I had a terrible memory.

Started off with Fang Lian. She passed the message to Yong Ming. Yong Ming that BYL stood up and passed it to Hilda. Hilda passed it onto Jerome. Then things happened. Slight things. Jerome stood up to find a girl to pass the message too, and nearly half the class started cheering my name. Even Jackie! I was damn surprised and at a loss.

Then I stared at Jerome shaking my head furiously. "I have a bad memory!" I shouted out, hoping it could somehow be heard amidst all the ruckus created. Everyone was like going, "Eh, Pei Yun behing lah!"

Then Jerome was like pretty calm, took a glance at me and I don't really know what he said but he just went straight to Chun Ai. I heaved a sigh of relief.

Okay. Funny stuffs happened afterwards of course. There was this once, Ee Min was supposed to pass the message to a girl, and of course, as expected from Ee Min, he faltered and dilly-dallied at the outset, as he scanned through the class for one girl. Miss Lam, who obviously knew Ee Min will have a hard time deciding, kept urging him, telling him its only a 'female friend'.

I was like sitting at my seat, palm on chin, staring at Ee Min, reminiscing about the Literature Project, where Ee Min seemed pretty comfortable with Dorothy. So I was like anticipating him to find Dorothy.

Seconds later, he started moving. And he was heading towards the back. I literally held my breath as I kept my gaze fixed on the whiteboard. When I was sure he had just passed by me, I swung my head to the side, realizing that Ee Min was approaching Dorothy, and Dorothy held this pissed look as she glowered at some empty space ahead of her. At that point where Ee Min stopped beside Dorothy's table, I hyper-ed, screaming and cheering and applausing. It was too good to be true.

Afterwards Dorothy went to pass the message to Farah, who at last passed the message to JASPER. (Omg. But even Yong Ming said Jasper could do it. So... oh well.) From where I sat, I thought it was evident how Dorothy's status in the class was like. It was pretty disheartening, and I felt pretty pissed.

And thus ended the day. Squeezed with peeps while boarding the bus back home. Sheesh.

So, went home. Reached home, had lunch, then sat around the sofa. Then, I lay down, and guess what? I fell asleep. I was like WTH when I woke up. Afterwards, I switched on my computer and logged into MSN. By then it was around... 5.30++?

Then realized that Jia Min was looking for me. Opened her conversation box, and realized that she wanted to print her English Letter. Of course I agreed to help, since my printer had just been fixed. Then Siu Hui came online and we chatted for a while, before Jerome came online as well and he asked me to help him bring one 1.5 litre empty bottle for Science Practical the next day. I went to check, and realized I had exactly 2 bottles. Phew.

Tuesday 29th July 2008

So, went to school first thing the next day (obviously) knowing what to do in my mind. Just place the bottle down by Jerome's table and leave quietly without stirring up any sort of trouble. That was what I intended, and what was best too. So, after placing my books at my table when I reached, I headed over to Jerome's table (he was not there obviously, downstairs for prefect duties) and placed down the bottle by the side of his table. Then, I turned and walked away.

But damn it. Things did not go as how I wanted. Yong Ming and Jun Rong spotted me putting down the bottle by Jerome's table. And I was like WTF. I ignored them, pretending I didn't hear them nor see them and simply strode back to my table. Yong Ming was like, "Whoa, you so good help him bring ah? Wa, Jerome sure very happy." Then Jun Rong chirped in, "Ya lorh, later must tell Jerome."

I was like WTF. But I kept quiet.

Started the day with Arts. Damn, we were required to draw some stupid don't-know what thingo, and Yong Ming and I were like WTF WTF WTF together. But Yong Ming drew it better than me, obviously, I was like -.- when I was actually trying to draw. THen Mr. Zaini told us lame jokes. For some reason I laughed not because of the joke, but because of the class' reaction. Yong Minng banged his head onto the table, and then people were like showing the "kao bei" sign.

From where I sat, I could also hear Jerome going, "Wa Lao" or something. Then, Mr. Zaini actually went over to Jerome, and made a joke out of his name. Something about two Jeromes.

Then bla bla bla went for Practical. Played. Then, English. Got back Comprehension Passage. Got pretty low marks. But passed. So whatever. Then recess. I read Siu Hui's sui bi entry aloud after getting her permission. And I was so engrossed that I was actually shocked when some thumbs-up sign actually popped out when I was totally absorbed in reading it. I backed away a little, then looked over. And then I nodded. He came to thank me. So I was like, "Oh, it's okay, it's okay."

Skip to the end of the day. Yea. Stayed back to see-see other people. xDD Then went home. Obviously I pon CCA.

Wednesday

Today. Man. Nothing much happened. The same few stuffs. Except for literature. Three teachers were actually seated behind us. Then, our assignment came in, and then we were supposed to draw on a piece of extra large piece of paper that I don't know why the heck are we supposed to use such a big piece somemore, and draw and write whatever on it. Obviously I was left with the drawing job. I needed to draw a guy. A hero.

All that came to my mind was a Prince Charming. Woo. Knight in Shining Armor. I slowly began to depict his image in my mind, then anyhow drew based on instincts. Came out to be pretty okay, except that the eyes were one big and one small.

So our group was unlucky and had to go in front to present. Whole group went, Amanda and I held onto the piece of paper while Siu Hui and Dorothy presented, which was as a matter of fact reading aloud from the piece of paper. Then everyone was like, "Yea man, that guy must be drawn by Pei Yun one lah! Win liao!" I kept quiet, then as I walked down by to my seat everyone was like asking if I drew it, then obviously I went, "Ya lah, is I draw de."

Then skip. Manga. Nothing much, just that the Jia Min from 1e2 draws well as well. I was really surprised, and then I was like standing around the class utterly bored to the core.

END!

Peiyun <3